abuse
Something like crystal
for The Fictional VolunTier Project
By Goura Fotadar
Date typed up: 12217
[also in this form: I was reading the think tank like cited]
tag[s]: magic for The Death Project, trauma as a death-like existing component
theme: something like crystal
theme movie citation: there’s something about mary
Date: 11.30.17
I was reading the think tank like cited: Better Homes & Gardens, December 2017,
magazine.
I’m not sure if in normal or usual popular culture; people are aware of its think tank like nature?
In any case the front of this one, uhm-uhm; as I begin or have begun or began; its study: is a tree drag queen.
as I glanced beginning initial study; through the magazine: I came to the obvious comprehension that a motif of this issue at least of this magazine at least: is housing and or housing-like scenarios.
In this level of think tank: the question doesn’t come up; but and with all potential housing material ; What will one do if they don’t have
…
Aside: drug knowledge notes, cited: brainstormers et al 11.29.17
cisco -> illegal form of alcohol and or liquor
(back to regular discussion/write-up)
…
their own space; rather it says:
Look, here’s a way to learn …
Yes, learn about …
Things! That may have to do with: space, housing
Scenarios: and from that; perhaps
You can infer:
The way into housing-/space
Scenarios that work;
And housing-space/
Scenario segments
That work for now; and
Translate to the next segment
Right away in things that
Work as housing-space. [or-and, or working housing space]
tag[s]: arm, e, protocols
But when you apply perhaps the reverse model; perhaps each chose-n thing piece; informs you of how to have space, housing regular main reasons, may be:
Secure methods, of to rest; enough or expanded storage of things; bat not the aversion where that means removal forever; of one’s death?
Perhaps the solution is: the sight of objects at this of history connected to trauma:
121717
The front cover Christmas tree and trauma: The Wrong Star; have you ever been decorating a Christmas tree; and every perfect star you receive out of a box or however seems like it should be at the myth of the top; hence the definition of star; the inability to see such in a … is perhaps one definition of
[picture not included here, or perhaps not yet included]
trauma. Notice the star a-top this tree; it’s not the variety that might fit the traditional definition of perfect at around x-mas time: as it doesn’t look pricy in the sense of expensive crystal or something; but it’s the type of star that both (having) (qualified) (as star) and not perhaps being crystal or something like crystal; it both has reached the top, and belongs to stay at top. Unless
I’m wrong about tis fabric here; in either way what’s seen in this context: is; and then this placement for at least this photograph’s texture of this star; … (this photograph implies belonging to the front cover of this issue, cited)
Is a reliant capture of who-ever is
Originator or such
Choice; and not just
A habit that happens to happen and that nobody thinks about; of trauma experience, trauma survival, and trauma what we hardly have an adjunct word to create phrase for: something like trauma crystal solidified.
Theme music citations encore and repeats:
Chopin-raindrop
Schbert-Ave Maria
Pavarotti-La Boheme/ Pavarotti-“Nessun Dorma”
Wilco-I am trying to break your heart
Led Zeppelin-Staircase to Heaven
Paula Cole-“Dawson’s Creek” Theme Song
The trap-box II.
for The Fictional VolunTier Project
by Goura Fotadar
tag[s]: surveillance q’s
date typed up: 102417
[and also in this form: thetrapboxnextset]
The trap-box model as I connected with it that day: was full of four people other than myself. Besides the precarious food dish: I had to throw out some trash; and there was-is no trash bin in the trap-box; I decided the trash was too much to bear [not b-e ?] [no, I mean too much to not bare] and walked out of the trap-box; with my stuff still in it: (other than the trash): I was gone nearby and briefly but had the opportunity: to use the trap-box’s surveillance to view my belongings inside it; I watched as nobody within the trap-box at that point of surveillance changed faces, and none approached my belongings; briefly gone, I returned to the trap-box, and to my belongings: I reflected on what had been my hypotheses and guesses, and how these might be useful for further; and solidarity; and
rest spots.
10.19.17 The financial real value “trust”
I decided at first-second, to reflect on the other four-as a trust exercise. Who did I “trust” enough to stay in the trap-box near my belongings; that was already there; and in this context: box; near means without me/my moving my belongings as I briefly threw out my trash while watching scapegate.
[An image of “scapegate”]
cited: coca-cola and t-j’s [dark chocolate] pbc
Reports of Racial Profiling and Enclave Needs.
Reports of Racial Profiling and Enclave Needs.
for The Fictional VolunTier Project
By goura fotadar
Date: 81617
Stage I. The Enclave Need for Stalking, No. The opposite.
Why not consider past that city ; yet another homeless enclave here there and elsew[ear]; where the fake cops and fake authorities and housed non-real kind types can’t enter; because the situation is getting cans; you’ve or they’ve got to have something better to do than stalk homeless and such people around; or pose as homeless. It’s not like they’re working harder than … and pay the way for it … but it’s important to investigate the money trail all the way, and figure who does; because that drops the sharp cord otherwise in the wrong direction.
Stage II. Crime notes: reverse racial profiling: I want you to take a look at what happens around 7 pm at the public library wherever I sit and this man [which one] has repeatedly threatened me with rape + violence is now donning every same accessory as me [which were after the second last police brutality incident; … and-or stolen; but mostly just trashed though still collectable.] And those were not community charity items … aside notes: I think he continues to sleep where I was cited as moving from in rest spots and not housing theory; I wish I could say … that would help; I’m an a-a woman; and with police aid he keeps calling me: in his repeating words: “criminal, bitch, drug addict …” and flashes his weapon at me. In the incidence of the near, close-to gang-rape at the estate shelter I was staying at [indoors] all of the gang of men; were Black : and kept calling me : “sis” while they unclothed themselves and grabbed my body parts ->Thanks Menlo Park P.D. et al departments. At cited the living situation: Menlo Church,
Sure, it’s great for church; but if assigned there for live staying when the lights turn off; anything could happen to you; and who you have to defend your rights are the local p.d. Nothing can be imaginably scarier than that. Menlo Park P.D. to your defense; yeah, right.
2nd title: get raped or racism? [experience … may overshadow the “local cops” on safety and security protocols; sorry?]
And then with a few more faces inserted; they all start to leave at [the] same time as me; as I start packing up; sometimes often appearing [[w’ear]ever] I go.
The man in the beige-yellow shirt; is the librarian doing the committing crime type “set-up”
If I don’t leave then; waiting to leave now to avoid them uh kill-raping me or at least trying to do so; they re-appear sometimes even in the women’s bathroom. No joke. Pretending that I’m not female.
Stage III. Stalking by “local cops”
Every,where I go; includes the local police they are wherever I go; at the train station; at cited: 7-11 again and refusing to leave; at the library refusing to leave and there in uniform using it as a patron [see what images have been captured of this evidence]. Make sure to capture the notice of the defense of the bright light flashing blocking view of police vehicle; and its confession of an aided crime on their part.
Civil litigations of social aptitude uh safety: if even you were-are a, member of the racial community they ascribe belonging to ; they the people attempting … at me, again in stage two; at least cognizantly consciously ; crime theory which one likely states you may still be similarly as me inflicted; so they my attempters … are not safe in general.
Other notes: Within the past few proximate back months: man attempting to grab my breasts at Sunnyvale near now closed down cited: Jack-in-Box and calling me hooker; then following me into Palo Alto Public Library on middlefield and mayview; and yelling that I’m crazy publicly because for like one minute my phone accidentally was hit; the librarian told me to not speak; as if I were speaking [and he meant in general too]; when I hadn’t such spoken. How come he didn’t get banned, a citation, and the accord of general. Which he. Can we say moderated harm; is controlled by me and not the “authority”; and certainly I would be narcissistic to believe I were the only target. Certainly. Another man in the Menlo Park Library telling me that he’s “had enough of me,” and that he’s the sole owner of the library; while the librarians smile on. Pointing fingers at my face, and laughing about money … like I need it as a homeless woman who works for no living wage, and lives off otherwise charity. What use could … have for more than once-in-a while pennies sponsorship of money. Pennies over the course of a year.
theme: I was planning on leaving but alright; I guess I can wait forever while the cops and uh the others do their thing? We’ll just pretend I don’t exist; and they’ve done it all. Wow what hard work; congratulations … heros?
Audra’s Hunt; The Inquisition of Serious Buddhists Continues in the Modern Day World.
Audra’s Hunt; The Inquisition of Serious Buddhists Continues in the Modern Day World. [ a rapid not vapid rough draft among the incarceration of what should be injustice.]
by goura fotadar for The Fictional VolunTier Project
date typed up: 81517
tag[s]: career, voice, gender derivations, and criminology of course; incompetent “authorities” too; aptitude problems in communication
Part Normal. The Next on “The Hair on Ripping”
Women: to Domestic Violins
New as of 8 14.17
source, citation text: The Fountain of Age by Betty Friedan [Preface]
[“At that time, if menopause was talked about at all—and like other aspects of female biology , this shameful sexual sickness was better not discussed—the end of a woman’s childbearing function was seen as ultimate trauma, the end of her sexual function, her life as woman.”]
and this presumably refers to her gender: sex;
and not sexual activity: ? for her is any woman or women.
When we consider “ultimate trauma” does this
Over coincide with other
attributes of trauma: domestic violence; emotional abuse; civil rights injustices.
tag[s]: cultural notions of affect.
[“The death, indeed, of her life as a woman. Her biological “sex role,” which defined her, was finished. Some adjusted to the loss, sublimated in gardening, good works, their grandchildren; others did not.”]
Perhaps the syndicated re-iteration of “menopause” as a transgender expo. Of enforcement into manhood.
[“I began to wonder: When women grow beyond the limits of their biological role and find new purposes for their lives, could that larger human dimension change the very biology of the aging process?”]
Also the new era of trauma police brutality from a personal masculine woman’s journey into criminology.
[“women were taking steps to change their lives—going back to school, getting up the courage to look for jobs, asserting their own personhood.”]
and so they two are connected?
tag[s]: careerisms + career counseling
theme: community college notes of the non regular science variety.
Part Inordinance and Incompetence with the Sheriff’s Office in San Mateo County [at least]
Reported persons in lacking ethical legal action fulfillment:
Jennifer Prado
650-363-4530
jprado@smcgov.org
San Mateo County Sheriff’s Office & Jenna McAlpin jmcalpin@smcgov.org
To post to the fvp; on 81417
Submitted in response as of 81417
Yes, thank you for that information; however that does not fulfill the code of rejection; and I will still have to pass the information on; as my life and existence have been greatly endangered by such protocol. In any case, I am in the middle of my workday and cannot due to a lack of comprehension on your part as such declared by you, communicate with you any longer; for fear that you might aid in further danger to me through exactly such. Kindly, Goura Fotadar
Earlier that day: Thank You, very much. I’m very sorry that you found this attempted report to be confusing and you were unable to comprehend it. I will make sure to pass this information on. Kindly, Goura Fotadar.
Aside Inquiry of Inquisition and Edification.
Question Inquiry: Rejected reports of those in high need of actual aid/help; is likely or should be likely a civil rights violation of the highest violating sanction. What do you presume the consequence is.
Part O. Today: 81517:I entered city hall in Sunnyvale, ca; after witnessing a man on the back of the bus; publicly masturbating; and after the cops who responded there wouldn’t do anything about the incident; and same with that bus driver; last night where people are cited: for trespassing and the accord; all night long, the guy was at it again in the public park past its closing for at least that type of use: the basketball court; and partying in the parking lot; but like the Menlo Park P.D. can enforce an actual crime’s inaction … like they can; Instead you get busted for being h-less; how oddity; back to Sunnyvale, upon recommendation I walked into city clerk city hall Sunnyvale from another building nearby’s recommendation; and a woman intercepted my conversation regarding a city ordinance in at least a 50-mile radius for at least two drawer-full longer drawers like the city hall has for themselves and their lackluster and low-performing employees; for those that are functionally homeless despite many “authorities” lies; and they called the cops on me; who put me through an inquisition; not comprehending that [one of them at least] my name is not: Laura or Foura; it’s actually legally Goura,
[theme: Get it Goura.
I have to confess my name is used in … ? and not by me. ]
[although at at least one job; I had a cover name for reasons of racism et al … but like I still got paid in my legal name : … ]
But I’m not in jail yet for not actually committing crime despite what others who are “authorities” believe what is crime.
As a basic assignment not yet thorough enough [at any level] you might want to start defining the context and uh la actual crime.
But I’m not in jail yet; something to look forward to? For all of us. Is it rape proof, work friendly, stalker proof and thief proof, permanent shelter?
Part Z. Starting at a 50-mile free city ordinance for two per head drawers.
Homeless People who have fled to the street, for reasons of inconceivable trauma:
Look at things such as stalking, non-reported to them deaths of close ones, and threats of unjust violence and theft … and of course the worse: rape … , threats serious too.
Identity theft [in theft of course] and the onslaught.
Need storage; so that the “cops” and other “authorities” don’t continue to trash their stuff.
We can’t just slobber every spare piece of work into the trash at night before rest time; because like once in a while; you might need your college diploma; your graduate school transcript, the sheet of your national medal of honor, and like your birth certificate; along with work notes or whatever.
Yes, that’s right there are homeless people who work and still have money. Without regular offices and regular storage. Yes, that’s right.
& who knows in the system of real justice: they may be working like way more than uh you; and like uh you ever have; and you have safe housing and a safe office and safe storage; what an oddity indeed. Injustice caught on event.
On the brief, recollections the transfer of period [.]
On the brief, recollections the transfer of period [.]
for the fvp
by goura fotadar
dt: 8917
tag[s]: career syncs. , locative indices, tr. Recovery, contra-dictate classism
[
source, citation link:
https://www.sfcv.org/article/secrets-of-the-african-musical-diaspora-part-i-the-last-frontier
]
[reading this | ^ article for the fvp]
Main Funnels:
- What do you associate with [a hybrid retention transfer]
- Recognition of emotional-sound [a transfer from something classified in qualification]
- The Second Funnel , Perhaps Secondary Main:
[source citation link: http://chevalierdesaintgeorges.homestead.com/Page1.html#16
]
theme: you can play your[s]elf to sky.
theme 1: dif, ferent variations of read.
It’s called this [name or something]
It discusses placement [and who is placed][who includes of what who]
Connectors Identified: The New Derivation of Career … cited: AinW ,
I am Alice [Ace] I’m of CalBears [cited:]
or I am Alice [Ace] I’m of PizzaGenius
or I am Alice [Ace] and I’m of CalBears [cited:] and PizzaGenius [primarily]
theme 2: training is raining.
It discusses populous catastrophe and storage-based [belongings of, belonging from of] to populous catastrophe.
The Abstract and Succinct Abuse Tactic
The Abstract and Succinct Abuse Tactic
for The Fictional VolunTier Project
By goura fotadar
Date: 8417
tag[s]: wealth economics and oddities.
- Q and Q with derived A; staged A look for non-real demonstration of opposite Q.
- In mirror look; strangulate identified also staged from presumption analysis 1. Dispose of staged strangulation and further look for actual located prompted: two areas, of such coinciding actual strangulation; a further charge unnecessary; instead a prompted stop or halt of such identified strangulation in other likely two locations.
- Assess environmental susceptibility to non-real demonstrations of opposite Q. Assess environmental and social susceptibilities of hiding actual A.
Hint: In a bizarre twist; at this point time in history circa past mid-2017 [past] experience of actual A; is the conception of actual wealth; and the higher past e. of A ; likely the more in actuality of wealth.
The Art Life in Non-Crime: Dealing with “Cops” and not cops … Looks like the day I was court-martial ordered for being a civilian [which part looks that way]
for The Fictional VolunTier Project;
criminology reports by a civilian
by Goura Fotadar
tags: evidence against some of the cited: menlo park police department; travel theology and what for; criminology as art, obvious.
date of incident: 43017;
tags: identification of a crime in sight; [not for the blind]; under posing as authorities; but sometimes the real authorities eventually show up; after you’ve done most of the work; tags: how to be an effective non-criminal and-or reformed criminal civilian
Except on that day; there were even more “cops” attempting an arrest of me for producing work in this country; and denying my USA citizenship: No! you’re not American why because we said so. Wait, that’s not how it works. No really it doesn’t work that way; I actually am American; are you, “cop;” because you’re badged and armed in my country; and I’m a free-worker; I’m sure you guys,other know what that means in protected wealth. The matter of voice; coming from who, whom.
now backed up; with more vehicles; gosh there’s something inside cited: 7-11 they really want; could it be the stealing of food. Because some of the folks entering vehicles told me just that on that day; yesterday; that they were consuming food stolen by the “cops” for them and the “cops” not the cops. I hope you can understand the difference.
the original property I was resting on; I was removed from through near active assault; for screaming and calling 9-1-1 to of course prevent another person across-the-street from being assaulted: i.e. for meaning the screams and the 9-1-1 calls [in prevention of assault a requirement of every civilian at least]. I was then first told that if I ever called 9-1-1 ever ever again; I was going to be at least arrested. I’m not committing crime and they are; seemed beside the point to most of these “authorities”
1> Take assurance on never committing crime and-or reforming from crime; when you in freedom act out legally to defend legally without weapons those weaponed and near assault of another potentially innocent other; If this one isn’t innocent they will in the reflecting mirror of criminology use this pattern of assault many bodies against one; to create havoc in an non-entropic and un-holy use of power: This unfortunately is not fiction; though I may create fiction like it if you’re interested; we’ll see.
2> Zoom in on any past signs of violence no matter how small; past an incident such as this [the one above I mean incident]; and especially but not just if these acts of violence are re-appearing in the present and-or after the present incident.
this area has the paramedics parked here way too often; it’s not a hospital; and they seriously need to get a life. In other words, they are committing crime I guarantee you by being here predated for hours and days; and replacing all functional homeless people in the bushes; against their will [of these functional homeless]. One of the “cops” attached’s comment was: you can’t own anything; you’re homeless. Hello! have you seen my work; work is owned by not just but primarily the creator, producer of the work. No! you can’t own anything you’re homeless is not a valid statement with regard to certain homeless and or many populations; and is failure in aptitude fulfillment for any militia role. It also disqualifies you for a functional civilian position; I wouldn’t hire you. In more expressive words; these buildings are highly suspect; and you should watch out for yourself and all other deserving others; when either resting here; and or eating/shopping here.
more pictures of the connecting suspect buildings; as enforced by the “cops” and “paramedics” [not the cops and paramedics; where’s your hospital.]
it should be peaceful on a late Sunday evening; but the “cops” and “paramedics” want to use their un-godly power against who they can scapegoat like Jesus himself.
more pictures of “cops” in restaurants; uhm yeah; that’s what’s happening:
who’s that under the tree; [internal likely their banter:] it seems like she’s jealous that you’re eating; yeah, but I don’t experience jealousy. [External banter:] I think you’re jealous that I’m doing your job while homeless; and you’re stealing like the most non-reformed of criminals; except you’re not in the pen? why? I don’t want you out on my streets. [reference: civil rights.]
Here’s my homeless petition; I’m not an idiot and I know after nearly two assaults not photographed: I’m sorry I was trying to save my life, and whoever the pattern would approach: I want these “cops” in jail for life; and fired from their “jobs”.
submitted to the authorities: like an art project that they make billions for; and I stag in a bush for.
oh wait, did I include this one:
they’re so hungry that they have to file arrests on every restaurant on this property sector; Gosh I’m starved! let’s do some damage? uh, yeah I’m not a “cop”
wait, here’s another of the paramedics at their one-of usual spot not understanding that they’re not in a homeless bush; and like you can’t just stay here; it’s not the hospital; uh yeah, like that; wait maybe they’re “paramedics” and not paramedics; that makes more sense.
So from one of the above numbers; things to notice of suspect; that night the fake scuse me the “cops” sent through her own admission a heavy-set women with her two disgusting children to our, my safe group’s rest-sleep spots; I guess the “cops” are looking to deride more property; after she stared at me for a while and plagiarized my movements; she attempted to offer me fake charity in exchange for you guessed it: my property. When I said no; she came back the next morning or someone very much like her; and littered in the parking lot or made the litter in the parking lot a lot clearer; seriously housed people just because you’re overweight and don’t know how to like actually walk a couple of miles starved; you can’t have everything; for god’s sakes working for free; means we’re paying a lot of your bills to keep you away from us; you know why because you spend your time with the “cops” and “paramedics” court martial ordering civilians; for futile yet violent purpose.
Here’s the ‘scuse me “regular” signs that have been intensified in focus; past event; in crime any signal escalates things; so keep an eye out for your old eye. I hope you can understand that:
Oh by the way; I was nearly run-over twice in the last couple of days; so any un-necessary vehicles are in my mind; a higher than usual risk; especially when equipped.
a-how to conceal one of that annoying bicyclist’s identity; like he deserves it; but I won’t commit crime with this specific facet. Now let’s take a look at the same street approximately around homeless exit time [images coming up]: a smallish street is bombarded with every worthless car,d and-or housed persons. What losers. Seriously. This isn’t high school; and I’m not prom queen.
my food bag is caught in an un-suspecting traffic jam; if they can only get into the parking lot; maybe they can steal my food; too; now that they have my civilian identity; now that’s right; you went to Berkeley “cop” “paramedic” not me as a woman.
after my two-four calls to the cited: c.i.a. to stop the malevolence of hate crimes; is when the-that “cop” told me that I could never call 9-1-1 again; ever again; he can tell me for sure that calling 9-1-1 ever again would mean that I am criminal; yeah, because that’s criminology and the legal system. Go to non-reformed pen, seriously. And to make matters worse; how would the inventor of 9-1-1 feel in emergency response; uh that’s who responds: the “cop” and “paramedic” in fifty no five replicated bodies; uhm yeah; you gotta take into accord all of the vehicles and their connecting bodies; dummies; and of course everybody else in those apartment buildings and eateries; and what else nearby. Can we say that you are attempting to legalize hate crime in this country; and I was the only at first active voice saying “no” to that in the area. Lucky me.
Wait; it’s bicycle morning I swear. I promise it is?
Everyone at approximately 7:30 AM near a park; Welcome to Coventry that homeless chick isn’t really homeless says the “cop” No that’s not what social cause means; I actually am homeless. You’re not. Good now you or rather somebody else gets it. Yes we’re actually homeless workers; and you’re paid workers. Yes, there’s a difference. We’re ending economic injustice; and you aren’t or to a much lesser extent. That’s good very good; onlookers who aren’t stalking; but wait: who said stalking says the dummy monologue but wait look at the coventry visitors:
oh one more cameo yes let’s stalk them; says the “cops” and “paramedics” yes and let’s deny it’s stalking:
on more futile matters; in adult session of the public library; outside of the disgusting pornography no offense! reforming porn viewers; baby time has gotten out of control; their moms nannies or whoever aren’t homeless are they: because I can hardly breathe; video not publicly shared to reproduce and I really mean reproduce confidentiality; but here’s the confidence glimpse of the non-fiction horror of baby gross-ness. there are way too many babies here in terroristic alerts with a nursery walking distance and I mean child nursery from here; why must they congregate with public space working adults; it’s more than scary to think of:
art project [subset]: Coventry [subset];For Functional Homeless and Their Actual non Fake Supporters [Social Cause is Still A real Think.]
When I visit Coventry, I’m not supposed to think about or see my stalkers; I’m not supposed to be threatened with false threats and such accusations; that’s called a violation of Coventry. Really Coventry it’s so much like Existence. A shovel and a drive and a pilfering wage fallinto the ground of Bush. Gosh that sounds like a statement for cited: Vietnam; and so many of them are still in the non-combat Bush. Yeah where the sky’s blue inside. Anyway? This isn’t fiction; or is it; no it isn’t.
Oh! the sun in Coventry is un-believable.
there’s something about the glow we feel on the inside ;
the trees and plants they look anew in Coventry; why they don’t look like that in your house, I’m not sure. Like even in the backyard or uhm porch. I don’t know maybe you’re just not One with the plants; as they say in Coventry: be one with The Sun or something.
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