The Death Project

Social Dynamics through Art

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By goura fotadar

Date typed up: 11217

103117

 

Source, citation: Lotus Magazine, Issue No. 2, 2017, pgs.3-4

[2nd poem segment], E.A. Gordon, 6,971 Steps

 

Tags[]: analysis for The Death project, too

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Of course about

Death;

Soon about

Life, also?

Since about the

Passage of movement.

In “hike”

About gender through

The comprehension of

“group”

Versus “one”

Type variations

Considers, tag[]s:

Social dynamics through art

 

And of course in gender what me might see, be described to;

May be pun to true

Meaning of.

within the first

Two commas

Are parts of gender

Exhibitive nuance:

“semen” “war” “truce”

Upon “ … sly betrayal”

We enter “hike”  “…”

Where we first have:

A proposition of

View from  s.d. perspective

And perhaps from

This perspective

We have the entry

Into the top: of this

Poem:

Who comes

With is it

Like alliance

To “a grave”

cited accompanying music:

Grimes, (-human) kill v. maim

Human behavior, Bjork

Rag n’ bone human

 

and the opposition of

“human” to “woman”

i.e. suggesting

based on what we conceive

in culture of notion: “woman”

points “human” as being of to it; opposite.

It is perhaps noteworthy

Why this might be a primary

Method to measuring “woman” [cultural notions and perhaps in opposition to contextual, this analysis]

As another séance in this

Poem:

“To hike is to be

Comfortable in nature, a one-to-one

Relationship.” And still:

“To hike alone without

Preparation is to be a

Woman wandering, either

Lost or batshit or both”

Lookup “batshit” and

How odd so; since

In case of “human”

“nature”

Then; “is … comfortable”

Either as “woman” the “hike”

Is not “in nature” or “human”

Is really to it “woman”

a different species.

In the case of “batshit”

though often

Heard of

With reference to

Crazy when

Broken down to the obvious:

Bat shit; it almost sounds

Like or rather the response

Of fear at scared. Of course

Within the derivations of

Scared and fear; in any

Case; “to hike alone

Without preparation”

 

Derivations

Of Look-up

Can also

Include

Recollecting

In process

 

Is conceivable with reference

To the perhaps new frame

Of bat shit; which of

Course could mean

Batting poorly, also. In any

Case running to a trail for a “hike”

Might make belief if

In a severe or even varied

State of scare and-or fear.

And with reference to,  here “woman” may be

The species that experiences

Such; whereas either

“human” is socially dynamically

Protected against

It: in reverse:

“that is, the normal kind”

“To hike in a pair or a group is to be the pack kind of human,”

Or perhaps to reserve the moment

Of a “hike” for preferences

Of “comfort—“ ; in

Any case; such perspicacity  [sp?]

Is what differentiates these

Mythical versions of “woman”

And “human” if even

Based on the regular

Derivations of these

Perhaps at least contextual

Now cultural terms. In any

Case the sense of fear or

Scared as in bat shit

Might mean directs us to

The beginning of the poem:

And of course

Since it comes form

“woman” we finally have

The reason for the perhaps

Opposing woman nuances:

“semen” et al. In any case it is likely “a grave”

Of “woman” do you think

Due to that “woman” version

Of “hike” or do you think

The “batshit” of its any

Variant meaning is

What is caused

By the “grave”

Of “woman”

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“D-F” [in reference to M.C. also]

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and in this case also for The Death Project as part of the FVP

date: 10.26.17

by goura fotadar

[and also in this form: D]

poetry from source citation: notes from the dragon-faerie song on p.15 of Lotus Magazine

Issue No. 2 -2017

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from source, citation: as identified above as of 102617
 

For this analysis: labels: as photographed and included above from citation: bracket: what might be the 1st stanza

bracket: what might be the 2nd stanza

 

I believe it’s about

“shelter”

why first it uses

the word

second: you/one

might brake-break

from the “whistle”

of life; in

your version

of “  “

what might be the

1st stanza, see

picture: declares

how to be?

or what it’s

like to be on

break from

the “whistle”

of external

to your version

theme: versions of rest [housing, not housing, …?]

theme music citation: adam ant wonderful & Madonna this used to be my playground

of “ “

the what might

be 2nd [see picture]

stanza describes

what is

this working

version of

the poet’s  “ “ [disclaimer: if even if derived away from actual reality/ experiential reality of real]

perhaps a side

consumptive notification

might be howis this

a both, a

“D-F”

D: “leaves”

“triangle”

“richly”

“life”

“horn”

F: “words?”

“memory?”

“dug-out”

“gut”

“more than vanity”

space

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The theme-ology of Life

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Date: 101817, typed up: 101917

The theme-ology of Life

[and also in this form: theme ]

Scanning exercises and scanning as review

 

[for The Fictional VolunTier Project]

By goura fotadar

Similar to reading notes;

source, cited: Danielle Steel/ Legacy:

  1. “Awareness Effort”

theme : low grade awareness

scan a brief set of pages

[inserts knowledge of – … into your mind ]

Even if at first unable

To exactly recall what was

Scanned; as scanning is

Not exactly reading:

 

Remember: that there is hopefully

The opportunity to read again; if

Even not the same material or;

And have an actual reading

Experience; not to put down, scanning.

 

Death project theme: even if I die I hope to read again [and what about scan]

 

When scanning: if even never conversing with anybody: or if conversing with another: there is a steady body [depending on the scanned source [the source being scanned]] of information

or would be knowledge.

 

  1. “Process Entry” If the scanning describes a bunch of purple dresses; now you are aware of the “process” “a bunch of purple dresses” even if upon scanning you can’t recall exactly the purple dresses:

theme: how does it work?

 ->process: a bunch of purple dresses

 

so to begin sum :

choose an endeavor: here, scanning, in scanning choose or select a workable source or stream body ,

practice endeavor: for

example: scanning

-> Scan a sub-set

in segment […s]

-> Enters

endeavorer in

this case: scanner;

into process entry.

 

  1. What’s the purpose of “process entry”

Well using this source, citation: at roughly 3-4th rapid sub-set scan: we have an analysis of the sub-set a review perhaps of publishings the cover, with author + title, a summary of the work, early pages, a title page, a dedication, the beginning of work.

 

In this process entry; let’s say p.e. 1 of let’s say stream body segment a;

You / one might have to do four scans or so to find the word: “Dell” (if you do find it) : this portion /part of scan might fall into library science: even if the term –could not be found; in any case ; using scan review ; as in additional scan: the term is discovered

On title page in this sub-section perhaps gives us a hint about reality, the world, and even society; if even these three differ. You might reference “Dell” elsewhere and dependent on the time; be aware of its common regular notion to computers-machine variations in this cultural time.

Of course referencing it or looking it up might

point you in the direction also of a publishing company: which is also commonly known in culture.

Of course on look-up:

“dell” might also

Belong to planes,

Flower varieties … etc.

But in/as a review

Reminder:

p.e. 1 stream body segment a: (caught) “Dell”

even if “Dell” were

in this segment

variation and

not found or rather

not yet found on scan

you would have

p.e. 1 stream body segment

a: (uncaught) “Dell”

 

when does scanning

turn to reading;

and do you always

need to scan [in segment variations]

 

 

 

 

The Box Show, Emotional Analysis VI: The Sponsorship journey, continued.

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[or in this form: The opposite of alcoholism]

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

by Goura Fotadar

dedicated to my freedom, as earned by me.

date typed up: 93017

tag[s]: the actual sponsorship journey; the reasoning for combat; the reality transitional process; and the death project for the fvp.

The opposite of alcoholism [continued]

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In a box: I’m angry because I never got to hit back.

theoppositeofalcoholism

In another box: I’m angry because hitting back [physically] would have put me in jail.

thenextinslide

In yet another box: I’m angry because those that abused me; continued their cycle of infliction upon me. [and drew in; others like themselves toward me]

infliction

In yet another box: I’m angry because; when I left the abusive nest; they continued to attempt to abuse me and others again without consequence.

theme: how did they find us; again. [hint: money]

nest

In yet another box: I’m angry because they were revered as heros for being unjust and unjustly violent abusers.

[heros/ keeps from heroes?]

theme: what then actually qualifies heros.

heros

 

In yet another box: To manage my anger: I’ve processed what works, and repeated another cycle of what works.

manage

 

 

The proliferation of abuse onto identities:

In another box:  I’m angry because my brother is being impersonated past his death and past his service death; and that he was beaten in front of me and these became my memories, and that I had to invent non-weaponed combat drives; to aid his survival; because it wasn’t legal for me to tell that brother to pick up a gun; then.

Zany Hint; how is to, dead to living dead.

 

And so, on:

In another box:

 

Belief in Living Dead? The Quack Attack. Is.

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See this posting as another more regular form: Belief in Living Dead

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

By Goura Fotadar

tag[s]: criminology; news alerts from one-person; all this effort and no just reward.

 

Part One. In Bizarre theories and adventures real turned unreal.

What happens: if you take a person’s memory right before the “time” of a person’s death [from the point of after death]; and interact that person’s memory in a virtual program; wouldn’t that interaction create some type of entropy; translating

That person into …; when enough entropy?  collects into [the real version] [not to be blasphemous]

becoming [being] Living Dead. They are then both once dead; and soon? Living dead.

[What if.]

 

Part Two. Police Alerts for Real Cops & Real Authorities.

Harassment and Stalking

 

Hello after; being held situationally hostage till the end of last year; I was released into the shelter situation where I was nearly gang-raped; when I fled to the streets for safety; local authorities including local cops would not stop following and stalking and calling me; including making up fake warrants for my arrest. I got word that my brother: Dhruv Fotadar might have died in combat at around 2011 and 2012; and is being impersonated by somebody using his name. I requested a violence control order for the person impersonating his identity and attempting to kill me; and also the same order for the rest of the dangerous and criminal family that we were raised in, but not quite by; which we were kidnapped into from our original family. Since that time the local police will not stop questioning me about his status and whereabouts; and I believe from what brief documentation I’ve been given he’s dead in combat …  At present; they are stalking me nearly on every curb; and infiltrating anywhere I sit, work from; and rest denying my civilian status … when I ask them to please stop stalking and harassing me they escalate their unjust and unjustly dangerous behavior toward me; what more shall I do for the crimes they and their coordinates are committing.

 

Examples include practiced acts of public humiliation toward me; and enabling others and non-reformed criminals to call me horrific names in public such as, : hag, rapist, pedophile; then charging me a citation for being homeless instead of those harassing me paying any consequences. Pretending publicly that I am a criminal and enabling others to call me this and other denigrating terms; without making them pay any consequence.

 

I’ve never committed a crime in my life; and have already been through hell; I would appreciate it if the police and other “authorities” stop threatening me with false arrest, gang rape, murder / and the non-benediction of my identity; etc.; and I have an entire career as a no living wage worker which is my primary focus; and not time wasted in engaging in being harassed and nearly killed by inebriated cops and their group coordinates.

 

I require legal protective action for myself against them and against such other “authorities” and individuals.

 

Sincerely,

Goura Fotadar

photo (85)

My real … and not the impersonators of him; my real brother circa approx. his age seven. As you can see; we look[ed] almost exactly alike such as twins might but with different genders.

The Brief non-educated Semantics: What would be a violence protective order [or the start of such] [on the brief and rapid]

You shall receive no benefit for being my actualized family et al. examples: actualized colleague … if you contributed and contribute to such events and actions and or related events of same similar type toward me; and vice versa. Final Action call. In other e-affect you have not actually moved to actualized or actualizing in these benefitted roles and instead moved to point never actualizing to these benefitted roles stemming from my identity et al. Any threatening action of the sort from denial of these benefits shall be in severe form pre-emptively prohibited to restore the function of the individual unjustly harmed and such according parts of society.

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Almost at first sight

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Almost at first sight; for the fvp

theme-channel citation: at first sight [again] the movie

by goura fotadar

dedicated to a.s. and  j.k. and j.s.

tag[s]: mind channels + reading notes + riterary analysis for the death project for the fvp

source, citation text [1]: Holding The Man Timothy Conigrave with foreword by David Marr

[1st source early on way early on ] ” … how funny and horny and sad and truthful … ”

“Did anyone ever shut him up? Death certainly didn’t.”

Again et al : the

basics ; real ilife signs of immortality.

and traditionally

“horny” means …

source citation text[2]: Singing in the Shrouds (by) Ngaio Marsh;

[look at text][how so this early the two, are two alike.]

immortality = career when?

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second source, p. 9  Box: “Horn”

“The cranes that served these ships lost their heads in the fog. Their gestures as they bowed and turned became pontifical.”

———————-> (curving arrow) like death

Box: “winches” look up? meaning definition of [for grade school this slight line, too]

Box: “wharves” another definition word

“Police Constable Moir, on duty until midnight, walked in and out of shadows.”

————————> (long arrow, lounge arrow) look at a real cop’s / police’s motif in fiction.

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notes to add: 72617

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date typed up: 8717

other worked on date[s]: 73117

sources, cited: the Lovely Bones by A. Sebold & some version of the MLA handbook [skim of recent]

 

 

Perhaps; not alone but a motif of heaven.

notice: the penguin

which looks in print so

much like sequin; the penguin never moves?

[Heaven: [here?] 1. cited:

The Lovely Bones

[by] A.S.

a) pre-page

b) criminology aside: perhaps but [internal external] cited: Christian symbolism [chapter one frame page]

c) (p.6) people your “parents” interact with may not be safe for you.

other-relations:

so; pointing toward         (page five)(or frame page)

the first line in this

page … christian or

biblical may not be;

to see what isn’t just

because otherwise sum: others

think there’s

something

wrong with you

 

So with the two combined if you create a non … such

for a such

or find one … and so on

created …

will you

have your

own Heaven

 

specific sentences and pieces likely referenced here from those portions of the source primary text:

frame page / pre-page:  “… invert it. The two of us watched the snow fall gently around the penguin. The penguin was alone in there, I thought, and I worried for him. When I told my father this, he said, “Don’t worry, Susie; he has a nice

life. He’s trapped in a perfect world. ” ”

chapter one frame page or cited page 5 : [
” … It was still back when people believed things like that didn’t happen.”]

 

[“… I chose it.”]

[“…. not being some dopey quote from a rock group, …. ” ]