“police” brutality

Instead of Gossip, Personal or rather work-related Crime Report; to be adjunct, ed in my next upcoming publication and-or book. [i.e. if I don’t get arrested for being uh, what is that they are saying: wrong for society]

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————————-by Goura Fotadar for The Fictional VolunTier Project on 12918———— [also in this form: Instead of Gossip]


Addressed Now: To the Superior Court of Santa Clara County

& also to the Attorney General & Civil Rights Unlimited Containers

& regarding the death of my primary deceased brother, and others like him; [send to, places where his identity is still being used illegally]

theme: are eugenics projects real; can the dead be revived? [non-fic? reality, sci-fi advantage]


  1. Eviction Detainer

First the eviction detainer is illegal. I left the property I was held hostage in; as is reported and caught in a report:

Here identified


While hostage still as of late 2016; when I called the court, they suggested that I stay on property longer since I needed to be handed a legal document to actually be evicted. IN addition I was not a renter on property; where I was nearly raped and also repeatedly threatened with violent death. Instead I was a no living wage worker; hoarded mostly in one room, where those who held me hostage, repeatedly requested my consent to the use of my brother’s identity, who was at that time verified to either be deceased in combat and or missing in action; they had however been using his identity in a form of heinous identity theft since he were a young child; and now as a member of the united states military likely dead, they were even getting married in his name; and honeymooning so. The situation of his identity theft had become very public with imposters of these hostage holders and their family and terrorist connections such as the cult they adhere to: known as Satya Sai Baba; repeatedly publicly arrested for using his identity and not just in the years that he deployed overseas.  Next the hostage holders reported to me that they were living off of compensation for my no living wage work and my birth trusts as they were also child kidnappers of me and my brother [at least as the reported and identified to me; apparently convicted that no consequence Correct existed for their actions Wrong]; and wanted power of authority over my identity also along with what they believe what were my doj clearances. They attempted a seize maneuver of me with the local corrupt police department in Santa Clara County; but I think it has been verified that I have criminal immunity or something; it’s not like I have the clear ability to verify this any longer[?] And or if such thing existence exista.

IN any case; the man that is named on the eviction detainer; attempted to rape me with his coordinating “wife” in the household in exchange while he used and dealt illicit drugs with his “wife” and their contacts. He then interacted repeatedly with an imposter of my brother’s identity as if it were still my brother and the imposter’s as reported by them newlywed wife; requiring that I also identify this imposter as my brother. I filed paperwork using the same name of my brother which this imposter I believe is still using; years past my brother’s death and pretending of all things to be a non-civilian militia member who served purpose of service in action to our country. Perhaps due to this and or due to the fact that I was being held hostage; the hostage holders especially the one of were put on repeat one day public arrests and followed around by a white vehicle in the neighborhood where they held me hostage; the other whoever the real cops are were looking for; but for some reason could not find? IN any case, I put myself on a protective hold indirectly by filing those papers and instead was informed that I was going to be court martial ordered for my service to this country as a veteran. I am however not a veteran of regular military service in this generation of regular combat war that was the brother they are still impostor-ing. The police were unable to seize me so they forced me to go with one of the hostage holders to a hospital where I was placed on the protective hold for protection to my own life; and additionally court martial ordered without my consent and illegally; the hostage holders then tried to claim that I was an alcoholic who suffered from bipolar disorder along with the main staff of the hospital and that I deserved to be institutionalized for life my career ended. Otherwise, the hostage holders wanted to change my career from leader of the cited: C.I.A. to a caregiver for them and others as they chose; somebody they described who could wash them or others. Though I found this suggestion to be preposterous; the hospital staff and their conductors believed this was a very reasonable request. They also believed that I was hallucinating that I were a writer; and that I had no self-established with company support of any such writing career. They continued to deny that I had attended college and or graduate school; and instead continued in a form of unjust retaliation that I were had been institutionalized my entire life; and that I had perhaps only been held hostage; because clearly I did not know how to hygiene myself. They evaded the situation of my brother’s identity theft; or that these hostage holders were child kidnappers of mine, and in fact not even my actualized and or in other variety real family. At the end of the c.m. I was let go; and found myself to an estate given five years of estate: church living for the homeless needing protection and or otherwise disenfranchised from mainstream society in some way despite the height of their performance or not; and the child kidnappers and the san jose police department followed me there; despite it says in your court record, giving me an eviction detainer [which I never exactly received in legal form; and only recently checked to see if anything such bizarre were up based on a feeling; how absurd] mandating me to leave the property I was on hostage on; and they [uh. who is.] attempted to have me gang-raped. This was very non-entertaining to me and I fled to the street for sovereignty in my own country in essentially victimized refugee status; where they police continued to barbarically manhunt me cross space from food stores and yes I’d bet you’d like to know using my now cited: e.b.t card; of course in hostage, I was starved to the convenience of my hostage holders. I forgot just one necessary criminal mention, that the hostage holders also decided to let me know that they had some of my original relatives and members of the military also hostage; in locations I wouldn’t guess; of course I could hardly remember most of my original family; since I had been kidnapped with my brother in final attempt at a very young age to my new assignment, you might call it; or ours.

IN the last many weeks to months [in reverse order], the police have attempted sometimes five to 10 seizes of me per day; and this is from city to city in a proximity distance. Many onlookers knowing that I am obviously not an internationally known unjust and otherwise qualified unjust terrorist have not understood why. Well, here is the reason why: I am born into the position of acting leader of the cited: C.I.A. along with some other organizations; I am responsible for all militia enactment since the time of my birth through the mystery of being a cited: C.I.A. operative. I for example must decide who actually makes it to staff on courthouse, fire departments, libraries, and police departments, and anywhere really. So you can see that I did not consent to hiring such “police officers” and want them fire-d and charged with genocide of my identity: race, education, career, other training, actualized family and relations, and my general efficacy in for example the world; something it is clear to every surveillance video where they especially stalk and harass me with all of their unwarranted weapons simply outperforms them. I also want your courthouse shut down, permanently; and all of your staff to never be re-hired anywhere. You have demonstrated in my opinion severe incompetence and unjust support of an unjust and faulty nonsensical “police departments” and such bogus “staff”. Their performance is a laughing and public joke; which I do not find funny at all; and an enormous insult to actual police officers and not just alone.


II> [1.24.18] Criminal Citation for being a “Public Nuisance” and-or also known as homeless outside.

On the early morning of one of the recent days after a thanksgiving feast for the homeless; the weather had turned back to rainy start season. Having been forced from my former two rest spots by the cited: Menlo park police department and and their defense of two people pulling a gun on me; as I mentioned I’m a cited: C.I.A. operative since birth and also hold other militia titles; though I am by practice a civilian and do not carry weapons.

I was under the front part of the roof of the post office on Hamilton [Palo Alto] due to rain conditions, and the “police” approached me twice under these circumstances. Officer Enborg/Enberg also approached me earlier at the cited: Palo Alto Public Library’s park while I ate my soup kitchen/charity soup at one of that specific in location library’s park benches. He said that somebody had called the police about a woman yelling near some bridge that I had never heard of; and his partner said to him that they needed to strip search me because I was too tall to be a woman.

It’s true my height has varied drastically throughout the course of my life; but I’ve had many severe violent injuries during the course of my life [I grew up in a heavily violent home where I was regularly violently beaten with weapons and jumped indoors]. When I thought of how absurd this was; the request of a strip search of me while I ate soup in the park, and as a homeless woman who earns approx. $0.10/year for my 10-15 hour workdays approx. 7 days a week; the “cops” continued with Enborg/Enberg wanting to know if I owed any money.

The police identified themselves as being exactly like the cited: Menlo Park Police Department; on that night and then on the night of Post Office Incident; the main cop: Enborg/Enberg admitted that he clearly believed and understood that sleeping in front of a Post Office meant that it was a federal building and this meant that I had lodging? He was so sure that this qualified as lodging that he wouldn’t stop yelling in my face at is it 1 something in the morning; while a small group of onlookers watched; when I negated his false definition of lodging; i.e. he attributed that he was sure that sleeping outside that I had my own property in that rest spot; and surely he was more intelligent than me; along with this time his two other partners.  When I told them that this spot absolutely did not qualify as a house as he was describing and that I was not indoors in rest-nights anywhere and with accompanying inside placed storage, he moved away, and continued; with the other homeless people in the area. But first him and his two coordinating staff were absolutely obviously sure in the dimwitted ness of what does not qualify them and or disqualifies them from any militia role inclusive of police officers; that there was an essence matter of my height to be determined and that the only thing that mattered in this interaction were if Enborg/Enberg were taller than me. If you don’t believe me check the surveillance tapes. It was among the most absurd police interactions I have ever not just witnessed but also been enforced to interact in. I don’t think the police officers in the area and authorities understand that despite being homeless on the streets, I work about 10-15 hours a day and for pennies per year. This is a major and significant issue when you disturb not just my life, but also my work and sleep schedule to tote your own ego in an intergender beauty competition with me; that first of all I have not consented to. Your local cops have a localized extreme version of non-focus and something like lustful attraction crush on me; when they can’t get me to provide them with sexual favors; for god’s sake I am not a hooker; and if even I were their solicitations of me in the many variety are getting out of control; with “Officer” Mazon’s [M.P. but since Enborg/Enberg claims you to be the same p.d.] attempt to get me to give him a blow job in public and I just ignored and moved on from that situation; otherwise he was going to issue me another citation. [If you don’t believe me listen to surveillance.]

I understand that I have been signed up for modeling since birth as an operative; some of the many public images of me reduced in variety to assemble to the regular public; and others displaying my exact appearance; with my name disguised most often; but you must understand that these revenue to charity for the public and are not my fault that my image is used to pay for uh things; and never actually my own expenses. This I believe is a situation involved with the regard of the local police officers who keep calling me other names as they approach me; and literally won’t leave me alone.  It’s dangerous when their lustful conditions term them to cite and stalk me as if I were a non-reforming criminal on-the run. Instead I earned California state sheriff several years ago; on my old job in emergency response dealing with suicide and homicide; and this was my last regularly paid position with low pay soon before I soon deployed myself as a homeless person and such; and all of this as a civilian-like and with no weapons. I think you don’t understand that I was told from a much higher up outside agency that this position goes with me; and I am non-sanctioned though actually hired in this position; that means I don’t carry a weapon. This makes me the boss of all police officers in the area especially; and not the other way around. I was further told that I am the only singular CA state sheriff; and that this will likely not change; in any case you are driving around in vehicles with literally one of my job titles on them; and without my consent; while you attempt to charge me as a criminal and arrest me. I wonder if you organized-ly understand the tier system of work; and how beneath me the local police are in work competence; and how much off of my work and identity they are living. If you don’t believe me about making this qualification and working this title alongside my other work; why not check surveillance recordings from my old job.

Back to the night of the citation; the night continued on with the three officers from where I could see slamming one body over and over again of somebody sleeping who were homeless outside that night; attempting to slam another body, and attempting to molest the third body. As a result, I got on the phone and called the local police station; who told me that I was not allowed to call the police station; and hanging up on me; I made the cops stop molesting and slamming bodies around me; and they then issued me a citation. [If you don’t believe me check surveillance videos.]

Additional charges for these “cops” and their phone response team: are requesting my brother’s identity for their work; now deceased my brother was in a militia role at the time of this death; and his identity has been severely experiencing severe identity theft for the past several years; and on-and-off his whole life. Days before another “cop” from your force was present asking me if he could use my brother’s identity to do a job that he didn’t deserve. I said no. In addition; I must add; that I was kidnapped repeatedly but as an operative and not as a regular child who experienced kidnapping taken away from my regular family in cited: c.i.a. operations; with one of my brothers to go into my assignment family; but the others including cousins went to other families. All of my relatives are in militia roles whether as civilians or not; and more than one of them of the regular militia in addition to higher militia have had and are still experiencing,

Identity theft; along with of course lots more victims and in general.

When I called the police station to ask them to please ask their cops to stop harming and harassing homeless people unjustly; they hung up on me as I might have mentioned. The next day they said that they were going to put me under arrest for using a police number at all; the same story as the Menlo Park Police Department. I don’t think you understand that my position puts me at the highest level of power of authority; and it goes the other way around in terms of arrest:  I want them under arrest for their unjust violence, stalking, and in general harassment of various freedoms. It has gotten past absurd. I also want you to understand that this form of power of authority is non-transferable. It means that if I were to for example die; it would go with me; and not to some local low level barely functional police department stealing from the public and Society, at least American in general; that I have never consented to hire as anything especially for god’s sake, cops.

I also want a work charge against these “police departments” and connecting “authorities” since they continue to infiltrate my work and hinder it; in addition to doing the same with my existence and identity.

Perhaps of even further scrutiny all three “officers” admitted to me on the night of citation; that they were on illicit substances; I am already attending recovery courses for other illicit drug users; and these are actually mandated to recover from addiction, unhealthy and-or illicit; I can’t be harassed by people posing as officers and not qualifying while they are on illicit drugs in the middle of the night and especially while homeless on the street; it is ungodly to start with and is highly criminal of them in the variety non-reforming to end with.

I am livid that despite these infractions from them and their coordinatings; that you would further request me to once again to show up in court again to deal with yet another faulty police department in another section of the faulty justice system, and while I receive no payment for such reporting work. How much of an infringement of my worker’s rights.


Signed Under Oath to the best of My Recollection,

And must be affirmed and verified by actualized consented to checks of all surveillance pertaining to the incidents disclosed here.


Goura Fotadar

1.25.18, 1.29.18




Fire marshall training complete-d at the two week level approximation in the project of outside homelessness. {A rough draft; and a note-reflection process of urgent significance}

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by goura fotadar

date: 0123=418 = 518

tag[s]: the civilian quotient has not disappeared


cited resource: my mail I mean male aunt; and I hope that’s enough citation. {as leader}

  1. Unless recovering from specific trauma abuse, and or just needing that in it; when the weather conditions are unbearably falling onto your head; and things are not weather proof enough that you can lug around or leave instead in a rest spot area; type situation; to lug even if you had storage unless it were a drive-able vehicle from storage to spot; might be unbearably exhausting; and …

So look for an outside roof like large enough to cover up enough up of you and your body [uh your belongings] so that if even you get wet or such during the day or work hours transporting from location to location, that you and your belongings have a chance of period to dry off. Look for a situation and or design one and or petition with wealth exchange for the design of an area that can fit a group in such conditions if not more than one or if so.


theme: you might never realize what you learn in C o l l e g e


Example: my last group which is now part of my larger group now; needed to stay out in the rain for about four months or approximate; to avoid danger from fake cops and also to recover from some trauma from the pitter patter of heavy rain running upon their heads, after at least more than half of them had been put situationally hostage; this was the college related population; and a small, group. This group then was able to include a few of current prestigious college students at present; modifying the culture of prestigious college and or prestigious college training after; before the trauma would have it; and the incoming college students were evaluated as being at higher risk for being seized while still in college and as repeatedly attempted to be seized connected to especially their housing. The entire group sustained nonsensical and something like first-time legal problems in a set; and toward the end of the rain period was sustained by non-local real police officers, and not fake ones. It then expanded to a regular militia group which exchanged direction of assault with the pre-eminent college population minus operatives who stayed engaged in direct assault with regular militia, but most of them without weapons of the former latter. Giving; the regular college and after college group expanded experience in recovery; after alternative and surprise deployment from like civilian stand-point; while not excusing them from alternative militia deployment and training; so as not limiting their development based on the demands of society.


theme: what does this mean.


  1. As much as you deem appropriately necessary, including shifting times; go to where resources are announced to be; including availability of basic need provisions: such as; food, tool replacements: here tool refers to in the modality of anthropology anything that comes to use of to you in days-nights-and events of the training and its purposed use; i.e. deployments. If resources are denied specifically to you; fight back within civil rights barriers as best as you can comprehend them; understand that a staff and-or authority person[s] at such resource provisions aren’t for example the head of a. militia movements and-or personally donating all of the materials new or used that are of use to you.  Consider that those deemed as sponsors may be hoax sponsors and make sure you verify if you are a regular militia member that there is a clean accessible but not steal-able trail of their sponsorship; otherwise for security make sure in regular militia that you have the time to locate at least in knowledge the actual sponsors. Consider why you may not be able to obtain all the materials you need for your deployment through personal purchase if you are still able to regularly access your personal cash and-or other forms of wealth; which has become status quo for adult civilian versions of cited: c.i.a. operative deployments and how does this differ in safety of use; when we enter more regular if even still alternative militia training and or deployment.


[In the timing of  realluck; you may become connected to a resource type provider that is headed in person if only once-in-while by direct intel militia as described above and or soon. ]


In the general resource situation; If the resources don’t show up regularly or at all; but it is still specified; it being the resource center as a resource center, then; show up enough to assess and potentially still have access to the resources when and if they do become available.


[Operative Secret of Obvious Intellectualism, Revealed. Consider the cultural ramification of periods of progress as designated by cultural news reports; then opposed by the non-functionality and or irregular functionality of actual designated resource center[s] et al. This is a way to stay up to the know of the actualized non-change in the cultural of supposed original cultural supporters; uh, a, the way to tell truth and such then a useful tool in combat assessment. ]


[Of the prior to para.] In effect it is called Don’t cut off the stream; if even the other stream viewers see the stream as not existing when you have a clear mark of the stream being exactly where or near enough to where you have seen on the map; and when you have verified other markings connected to the stream designation on the map.


In entropy; consider the exhaustion that going to more than one stream causes in resource availability; and it doesn’t mean don’t consider other streams, and don’t check them out; but only do so as absolutely necessary and as worthwhile in access point. In point, being; the cue markers that designate a primary location in access as your designated deployment area are not so oblivious and unlike in traditional journalism or something the person giving you this information valid or not just like the person overseeing the resources distributed to you during your deployment or not; is not the main navigator or a high enough navigator in society of all intel. Intel can pass through one mouth or many, while not generating from them. One reason why is plagiarism and don’t assume the mundane that they know in person or that they don’t they persons with actual intel that they are plagiarizing. But rather charge the plagiarizers as you deem necessary especially if you are in regular to clean up [of] the stream process; so that one day you will have access to the non-plagiarizing direct intel[s]-ers and even if in your next deployments. If you have for example been handed a piece of paper designating a circulating area as the general or specified general  area from which the next set of years of your deployment have to be completed [or its equivalent to the paper]; you must stay in the general area against all other infiltrating advice that includes from local “authorities” and or those posing as local “authorities” this is how the cited: c.i.a. operative deployments are translated under regular militia deployment engage; and also done on as their own.


So to use my example: if you are nearly raped in a designated housing habitat that you have been assigned to for a five-year period; and you represent as an operative or somebody else all those that could actually come to be unjustly raped, in such circumstance; and when you file a report[s], you are instead attacked and told no such thing happened; despite not just your experience but concrete evidence; you must still get an equivalent clear to leave the habitat but still stay in the same area; until the deployment location is complete; it doesn’t matter what it takes, this is the completion mandate under general cited: c.i.a. influenced deployments which provide severity in forms of clears as on how to progress.


To essence combat technology of movement modality; armed or not; civilian standpoint, status or not; i.e. inclusive of non-civilian status too,  you, your group, whoever are designated to a geographic area for a reason in terms of deployment and that reason may not be as blasé as local authorities stake them to be. In the case that you come to trust a local authority or authorities; you may not be surprised when they break your trust; and or you may be surprised when they do not; and or you may be surprised when they convert to your system. Like religion justice; well-informed and such designated; is a conversion process; and not everybody takes to it; but all must pay a consequence for not taking to it. Unfortunately, in the brutality of justice, there is no method to ultimately evade its escape. So when you do not practice a regular faith system; consider craving Justice Actualized its replacement; and don’t fear it abandoning you.

Expect any of the three outcomes from local “authorities” but don’t be disappointed or surprised when it doesn’t go the way you expected in the first sense; the connection of who to help and support has to do with the outcomes perhaps and that’s a serious assessment almost moving outside of traditional combat and militia into alternative militia called humanitarianism; but that just means if you come from that left direction you are evolving into an even more advanced militia member in aptitude.


Figure a way to alert regular militia to assess unjust harm soon enough that might come your way singular: in the case that you stay in the designated area following the actual combat sense and designation; and then request that regular militia will and in case just as a reminder extract consequence for those that have attempted to hinder your deployment.


  1. Expect to go to jail for not committing crime; in the fulfillment of your deployment if even you don’t commit crime; when the local authorities aren’t actually authorities and when this risk starts perpetrating on your life-sake, and-or existence sake, don’t worry about it; it just means that you have overtaken the fake and or incompetent local authorities including whatever local false officers have been responding to things such as problems needing outside support and enforcement. And of course this expectation as any other may not form to a truth for you and or your group [pardo[‘]n, jail].


  1. Pay addition to hygiene mandates connected to entropy of fire codes. For example, public showers allowed to you all of a sudden barricaded with many infiltrating bodies and not just sequential bodies, and when the offense reaches unjust threat levels; and without a work-able offense system that really is offensive as security; posers for example that contribute to unjust danger when such if even self [by themselves]-assigned [they are then added to the next movement perpetration list]. This is a break of fire code that demonstrates to things of the nature of unjust violence: death, rape, molestations, etc. In the astrophysical element of crime; and-or criminology; you have now caught what action interactions cause those specific incidents of crime even in the past and not yet translated to the future; with time of being magnitude. Now you need a regular militia force to investigate the actual perpetrators; and you have usually the demarcation already from such incidents of those that are actually benefitting from access of work revenue of fire marshall[s] and then those that are caught in the act of its militia force; as designated criminals: to be broken down into the two usual categories: reforming and non-reforming. In terms of humanitarianism’s starting point in this junction: you start assistance to- with reforming and then re-assess the non-reforming over accessible and-or useful points of incidental time to see if they ever move into or will move into the former assisted group [reforming].


This is also a religious-o and-or societal proof on the poor hygiene of such unjust terms of violence and all those that correlate.  The basic example being of course that ordinarily we in human as form in progressive parts of society and the world benefit from bathing and for example; using the bathroom; as a practice that levitates hygiene to higher or correct hygiene; excreting from ourselves something like waste and washing our limbs with clean enough liquid and soap in a bath or effective bath: and of course not just affective bath? I don’t know I’m not a biologist; but that would be an effectively enough for now regulating proof. In the sense that bodies posing infiltrating on your designated marshall code of bathing and-or bathroom use;

theme; uh does such a code exist, uh.

In non-sequential form; are effectively yes the perpetrators of poor hygiene in the sense of regularly understood non-bathing and non- bathroom hygiene; and rather the practice of how their bodies infiltrate the space effectively causing and perpetrating such crimes; and has/have been done crimes. This is not to soot that they are definitely practicing lower levels or regulations of hygiene not as in outside osmosis extensive bathing; but rather that the basic bath and bathroom use; may not disqualify as a hygiene practice those who are effectively perpetrating especially violence unjust acts in the history of our world; even if they never actually bathe; the basic stance of unclothing and-or situating partially unclad privately enough but in a public setting use; seems to infest them into such a situation. So it is not the bodies in sequential use but rather in an infiltrating insertion that deems the recreation conception that is not at recreational of uhm such as rape et al unjust.


[t.b.c.  ?]



The tree itself viewed next more/ will I be arrested again this time for another attempt to give me a criminal record while the “police” swab their behinds leaving a society facing the defeat of upcoming uncontrolled and non-directed chaos of non-reforming criminals[‘?][whaddyou T] faulty logic and catching this fault by blaming all reforming criminals and non-criminals; again, again, and again … : they just don’t want to stop their unjust abuse; and shall they always receive or at all receive the completion of their unjust wants. Does cited: Jesus really say [H]e will fulfill your unjust wants: desires; or does justice count in the qualification of desires: wants.

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for The Fictional VolunTier Project

By Goura Fotadar

Date, typed up:12318

tag[s]:  real police artistic shamanism, analyzing abstract art and think tank maga … s, practice on matching citations, art’s creation of combat influence [including civil rights] and actual function in society, colloquial culture uses of lingo, confluences of union and circumstantial background banter of hate, religious theology on the actualized militia intellectual front the deep Wons

[also in this form: The tree itself continued]



Date 121617

In perhaps

nowadays in the almost

something as usual sense

sleeping in front of the


*everything that as

described ties you to

the tree: as in it

is the such incorporated

string on brown box;

effectively wedding

you to the tree,

the long-wait/weight

scenario to consider

is: after the box

is un-strung and opened not easily

being able to move

[unless uh cut down]

the resider/ rester next

to the tree: has the option of getting a

divorce or returning

to the state of un-wed

by un-tying them/it/

self from that tree,

even other trees

translating to something

like: not sleeping next to that tree,

and-or trees

in that such as:

beside, framework;

but unless the tree

is cut down theme: ah!

and-or uprooted

and re-planted

theme: is this possible

the tree stays

symbolically like

wed or wed and or

wed; trees then

might also be

symbols of wedding,

union? and perhaps

x-mas is actually or

if you prefer

additionally about

this : wedding.

It also; the article

cited … [please refer to source citation found and listed in past posting serie[s] of this beginning title on this blog]  with demonstrates

at least in symbolism

the societal value of

l’arte; since;

how do we proceed


from wed/wedding:

to, union.

Well in the case of the brown box with “greenery”

untying the present

forever? unweds


to in

this case opener

or symbolic

rest by,-er

leaving actual

room for union;

and also in

the reverse:


Part Two of definitions of sur …

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Part Two of definitions of sur …

[and also in this form: Part Two of definitions of sur]

Dedicated to the identity theft and misuse of my brother and brothers identities, identities


Theme: sur … is now short for surveillance how society has been changed by moi.

Theme 1: Where’s my badge and field office; uh, aren’t you using it the singular version, illegally. Who is you.

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

by Goura Fotadar

Date typed up, this part: 12218


His excessive time; sometimes seven hours past the mandated limit has forced me to put him under public arrest.

The rotation of especially but not just the cited: marine corps assigned to keep an eye on him while holding him under arrest, public in rotations: he greets as if they are his closest friends and while he steals their belongings and attempts to steal their identities.

Unfortunately in the culture of our society the term pussies [plural] does not refer only to cats.

Based on the fact that he is often accompanied by another man who might be hi- romantic partner; and who depicts himself as a woman and often stands for extended hours in the front of the women’s bathroom mirror; and they otherwise gather around bodies, especially bodies using public computers: moaning and masturbating; while the former goes to the bathroom in his pants and not due to a lack of access and-or medical emergencies but in a publicly admitted-form of anti-Semitism toward anybody “he feels” deserves so:

the stage of marked dining table kill of enacting combat is coming up.

But first on today’s specific surveillance routine: the couple is parked extended on public computers; as my shift of surveillance has started: the bodies in between them and beside them have emptied out: proving my arrest rotation point. Since any surveillance rotation has started there has been no movement from the enemy-combatants; I of course am receiving no salary for this work;

the “librarians” are still false efforting in their fake breezy methods, attempting to surround every body and not quite everbody [can you understand this in physical differentiation] in the vicinity they might want something from, in more historic illegal court-martial orders of yes civilians, too. You know, anything: they make-up, in the defense of the art of make-up won’t make them beautiful or at all.

If you ask, they’ll say it wasn’t it was the military and the police and the fire departments; but if you were a cited: C.I.A. official you would be suspect of such blamers. First of all, where’s the evidence; in times of escalated terrorism unholy in the form of identity theft this beauty believes

[beauty : think knife sharp but old and cutting; and old doesn’t have to but could mean age, please refer to my recent fiction postings  if this is euphemistic meaning is oh so confusing on the actual meanings of such uh term]

uniform even if it says: “M.C.” (cited) on it; hardly proves any actualized role.


The Bottle Form

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[Situation Disclaimer and Trauma Statusi: I’m sorry I was held situationally hostage for nearly two years for especially my deceased brother’s identity; anyhow, perhaps no wonder [p.o I have?], I have maybe not posted this yet; from my old set of work notes; now aged through street homelessness. AKA: I’m just not considered as important as the local non-reforming criminals and never recovering drug addicts to have a locker of storage; I don’t know so that my work materials might get some solace from being dragged around by my exhausted body; but welfare professionals are sure that everybody is more talented, harder working, and just plain have experienced more suffering than me-I am … so I guess these are now the necessities of having earned storage.

A sarcastic and for them just consequence wishing-x mas hope : Thanks SJPD and local police departments! For taking my college degree and resume and tossing it onto the street with local drug addicts non-reforming and unholy hookers; I always wondered, what else you could unjustly cause me … after years of growing up in the hood beaten with weapons; but the woman who kidnapped me and I think is male, her boyfriend needed more money, and his daughters who is/are actually a son/sons needed to pretend that they were better than us; when they collected checks from our original trust funds … oh, they’re just not very talented, so give us their money; uh, the trend continues uh, uh, uh this is an extended domestic violence charge on my behalf against all participators even those in “uniform”; once you are that seriously abused all the wrong people can only see what isn’t there about you: a lack of talent; I seriously doubt that ]


Title 6916: Thanks-Yous Series for The FVP, continued …

By goura fotadar date typed up and finally: 121817

311- San Jose: Thanks for their empathy & cited the 6916? [or something] V blog posting for their information: consider a print-out for art education/art charity

Referrals (on general radio)

Date: 61016 –Allthewayhome for Veterans (talk to them about housing in general and identity impersonation though not a non-civilian myself)

Brainstorming Notes for The FVP: ON Chauvinism: Blue Label cite: Alcohol Bottle

How I came to this thought, thematic

The/mat/ic? On the former yoga mat … perhaps sum-a-bit-e; there.

From notes in the envelope with appearance of a blue label: as I purveyed it to look: [photographed] [but perhaps now gone as my computer was taken during the court martial seize of me; as apparently the local police department-s and my hostage-holders were convinced that I was lying about being an actual civilian; gee, do you think there are actually productive civilians or is everything just about: non-civilians?]

-Helping “People” / “Others” Versus for example: Creating Art

The tree itself part …

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for The Fictional VolunTier Project


By Goura Fotadar

Date typed up: 121617

Tag[s]: criminology, counseling diagrams, … , operational enforced existence styles, … what is approved for charge by who? By whom by … ?

Source, citation: Better Homes & Gardens, December 2017



date: 12617

a crayon or candle of

course is a way to see;

something: it connected

to especially child trauma: may as

a guess represent

an enforcement into

not being able to

express one’s self to

comprehend and see

one’self similarly to the

mirror. In this regard

being forced especially

as a child to not

be able to see one’self

and-or [not: repetition of] express one’self

in ways that are ethical

: seems like some

Type of enforced emotional

Trauma  non-reformed

Criminal charge [at least]

Insinuations that are additional it might be added onto as enforced physical trauma non-reformed criminal charge

Aside Relevant Story:

The younger brother I primarily grew up with from my/an original family; I’m not even sure if this part is possible but when kidnapped [this, one time of this number times …]I recall I believe in Texas our birth certificates being changed; to depict the child kidnappers as our parents. We got to keep our original, legal names, and I got to keep my race; and the

Kidnappers batched/latched

Onto parts of our identity;

I believe it was a

Lady that said she was a cited: C.I.A.

Official and that the

Birth certificates kept

Enough of our identity points to still prove as valid birth certificates.

[define valid b.c.: I dunno; correlate with actual nationality of birth and or equivalent nationality of birth; approximate accurate within a 10 year? age-range in the range of older than regular actual age; actual genital gender at time of birth, … equivalent or actual city or such-type of birth … actual ethnic and or actual equivalent ethnic race][ Lay proof of validation/valid: is a seal enough? ][Is encryption real: when a birth certificate is converted for protection is it encrypted for even more actual en/information?]

I believe she said this was a removed version of the (cited: ? (still)) Witness Protection Program; which I thought was defunct.

Something like crystal

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By Goura Fotadar

Date typed up: 12217

[also in this form: I was reading the think tank like cited]


tag[s]:  magic for The Death Project, trauma as a death-like existing component


theme: something like crystal

theme movie citation: there’s something about mary

Date: 11.30.17

I was reading the think tank like cited: Better Homes & Gardens, December 2017,


I’m not sure if in normal or usual popular culture; people are aware of its think tank like nature?

In any case the front of this one, uhm-uhm; as I begin or have begun or began; its study: is a tree drag queen.

as I glanced beginning initial study; through the magazine: I came to the obvious comprehension that a motif of this issue at least of this magazine at least: is housing and or housing-like scenarios.

In this level  of think tank: the question doesn’t come up; but and with all potential housing material ; What will one do if they don’t have


Aside: drug knowledge notes, cited: brainstormers et al 11.29.17

cisco -> illegal form of alcohol and or liquor


(back to regular discussion/write-up)

their own space; rather it says:

Look, here’s a way to learn …

Yes, learn about …

Things! That may have to do with: space, housing

Scenarios: and from that; perhaps

You can infer:

The way into housing-/space

Scenarios that work;

And housing-space/

Scenario segments

That work for now; and

Translate to the next segment

Right away in things that

Work as housing-space. [or-and, or working housing space]

tag[s]: arm, e, protocols


But when you apply perhaps the reverse model; perhaps each chose-n thing piece; informs you of how to have space, housing regular main reasons, may be:

Secure methods, of to rest; enough or expanded storage of things; bat not the aversion where that means removal forever; of one’s death?

Perhaps the solution is: the sight of objects at this of history connected to trauma:


The front cover Christmas tree and trauma: The Wrong Star; have you ever been decorating a Christmas tree; and every perfect star you receive out of a box or however seems like it should be at the myth of the top; hence the definition of star; the inability to see such in a … is perhaps one definition of

[picture not included here, or perhaps not yet included]

trauma. Notice the star a-top this tree; it’s not the variety that might fit the traditional definition of perfect at around x-mas time: as it doesn’t look pricy in the sense of expensive crystal or something; but it’s the type of star that both (having) (qualified) (as star) and not perhaps being crystal or something like crystal; it both has reached the top, and belongs to stay at top. Unless

I’m wrong about tis fabric here; in either way what’s seen in this context: is; and then this placement for at least this photograph’s texture of this star; … (this photograph implies belonging to the front cover of this issue, cited)



Is a reliant capture of who-ever is

Originator or such

Choice; and not just

A habit that happens to happen and that nobody thinks about;  of trauma experience, trauma survival, and trauma what we hardly have an adjunct word to create phrase for: something like trauma crystal solidified.


Theme music citations encore and repeats:


Schbert-Ave Maria

Pavarotti-La Boheme/ Pavarotti-“Nessun Dorma”

Wilco-I am trying to break your heart

Led Zeppelin-Staircase to Heaven

Paula Cole-“Dawson’s Creek” Theme Song