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The tree tis self, part two.

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[and also in this form:orna The tree tis selfdrumol]

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

date, typed up: 121117

 

by Goura Fotadar

tag[s]: design analysis, advanced think tank magazines that you weren’t sure were such, art, counseling diagrams, and criminology research, trauma

 

globes in ornamentation

or otherwise to children

or perhaps anybody represent

in trauma: limitation

in access to possible

desired and maybe even

already gained location;

usually for living. I suppose

for a child or a child’s

story this could even imply

kidnapping or having been

kidnapped; without having

the chance to tell your

neighborhood? School?

Community? Even your

Family members? That

You were taken; and imagine the worse almost sci-fi type addition:

That you were replaced by an imposter that was nothing like you. I.E. using your name, identity, etc.

 

with the exchange of trauma criminal charge

would be: child kidnapping trauma and identity theft and impersonation trauma .

 

the object I’ve been un-able to identify and then called wand’s end: perhaps

demonstrates the power

of the magic of childhood,

observed; but not available

for experience; unfortunately

replaced with trauma;

instead:

this with trauma criminal

charge, might be called

something like cited: a

precious moments (find figurine)

charge.

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12.5.17

As might be

Obvious; but is worth

re-iterating : the cited: precious moments, charge has to do / does with the moments of not just childhood but especially experienced perhaps then; moments such as coloring with your 1st grade class only to be ruined by someone like your teacher-like lead molesting …

 

 

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Something like crystal

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By Goura Fotadar

Date typed up: 12217

[also in this form: I was reading the think tank like cited]

 

tag[s]:  magic for The Death Project, trauma as a death-like existing component

 

theme: something like crystal

theme movie citation: there’s something about mary

Date: 11.30.17

I was reading the think tank like cited: Better Homes & Gardens, December 2017,

magazine.

I’m not sure if in normal or usual popular culture; people are aware of its think tank like nature?

In any case the front of this one, uhm-uhm; as I begin or have begun or began; its study: is a tree drag queen.

as I glanced beginning initial study; through the magazine: I came to the obvious comprehension that a motif of this issue at least of this magazine at least: is housing and or housing-like scenarios.

In this level  of think tank: the question doesn’t come up; but and with all potential housing material ; What will one do if they don’t have

 

Aside: drug knowledge notes, cited: brainstormers et al 11.29.17

cisco -> illegal form of alcohol and or liquor

 

(back to regular discussion/write-up)

their own space; rather it says:

Look, here’s a way to learn …

Yes, learn about …

Things! That may have to do with: space, housing

Scenarios: and from that; perhaps

You can infer:

The way into housing-/space

Scenarios that work;

And housing-space/

Scenario segments

That work for now; and

Translate to the next segment

Right away in things that

Work as housing-space. [or-and, or working housing space]

tag[s]: arm, e, protocols

 

But when you apply perhaps the reverse model; perhaps each chose-n thing piece; informs you of how to have space, housing regular main reasons, may be:

Secure methods, of to rest; enough or expanded storage of things; bat not the aversion where that means removal forever; of one’s death?

Perhaps the solution is: the sight of objects at this of history connected to trauma:

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The front cover Christmas tree and trauma: The Wrong Star; have you ever been decorating a Christmas tree; and every perfect star you receive out of a box or however seems like it should be at the myth of the top; hence the definition of star; the inability to see such in a … is perhaps one definition of

[picture not included here, or perhaps not yet included]

trauma. Notice the star a-top this tree; it’s not the variety that might fit the traditional definition of perfect at around x-mas time: as it doesn’t look pricy in the sense of expensive crystal or something; but it’s the type of star that both (having) (qualified) (as star) and not perhaps being crystal or something like crystal; it both has reached the top, and belongs to stay at top. Unless

I’m wrong about tis fabric here; in either way what’s seen in this context: is; and then this placement for at least this photograph’s texture of this star; … (this photograph implies belonging to the front cover of this issue, cited)

 

 

Is a reliant capture of who-ever is

Originator or such

Choice; and not just

A habit that happens to happen and that nobody thinks about;  of trauma experience, trauma survival, and trauma what we hardly have an adjunct word to create phrase for: something like trauma crystal solidified.

 

Theme music citations encore and repeats:

Chopin-raindrop

Schbert-Ave Maria

Pavarotti-La Boheme/ Pavarotti-“Nessun Dorma”

Wilco-I am trying to break your heart

Led Zeppelin-Staircase to Heaven

Paula Cole-“Dawson’s Creek” Theme Song

 

The trap-box II.

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by Goura Fotadar

tag[s]: surveillance q’s

date typed up: 102417

[and also in this form: thetrapboxnextset]

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The trap-box model as I connected with it that day: was full of four people other than myself. Besides the precarious food dish: I had to throw out some trash; and there was-is no trash bin in the trap-box; I decided the trash was too much to bear [not b-e ?] [no, I mean too much to not bare] and walked out of the trap-box; with my stuff still in it: (other than the trash): I was gone nearby and briefly but had the opportunity: to use the trap-box’s surveillance to view my belongings inside it; I watched as nobody within the trap-box at that point of surveillance changed faces, and none approached my belongings; briefly gone, I returned to the trap-box, and to my belongings: I reflected on what had been my hypotheses and guesses, and how these might be useful for further; and solidarity; and

rest spots.

 

10.19.17 The financial real value “trust”

I decided at first-second, to reflect on the other four-as a trust exercise. Who did I “trust” enough to stay in the trap-box near my belongings; that was already there; and in this context: box; near means without me/my moving my belongings as I briefly threw out my trash while watching  scapegate.

 

[An image of “scapegate”]

cited: coca-cola and t-j’s [dark chocolate] pbc

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Emotional analysis V.

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Emotional analysis V.

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by Goura Fotadar

date typed up: 92917

 

… (continued, obvs. from last this such postings)

thought

(3) How would you design a | thought | exchange that might translate into anger sympathetic ( flashcards?       counseling.

[1] (Forming Thoughts:) an oath to not lying about your experience and-or re-telling simple enough sentences as you recall what proliferated directed, and incited the development of your anger.

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Hi, I’m Goura; I’m addicted to working and my addiction has nothing to do with money. [why? or how do I know, for sure or for sure, enough.]

firststep

[t.b.c.]

 

Reports of Racial Profiling and Enclave Needs.

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Reports of Racial Profiling and Enclave Needs.

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By goura fotadar

Date: 81617

Stage I. The Enclave Need for Stalking, No. The opposite.

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Why not consider past that city ; yet another homeless enclave here there and elsew[ear]; where the fake cops and fake authorities and housed non-real kind types can’t enter; because the situation is getting cans; you’ve or they’ve got to have something better to do than stalk homeless and such people around; or pose as homeless. It’s not like they’re working harder than … and pay the way for it … but it’s important to investigate the money trail all the way, and figure who does; because that drops the sharp cord otherwise in the wrong direction.

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Stage II. Crime notes: reverse racial profiling: I want you to take a look at what happens around 7 pm at the public library wherever I sit and this man [which one] has repeatedly threatened me with rape + violence is now donning every same accessory as me [which were after the second last police brutality incident; … and-or stolen; but mostly just trashed though still collectable.] And those were not community charity items … aside notes: I think he continues to sleep where I was cited as moving from in rest spots and not housing theory;  I wish I could say … that would help; I’m an a-a woman; and with police aid he keeps calling me: in his repeating words: “criminal, bitch, drug addict …” and flashes his weapon at me.  In the incidence of the near, close-to gang-rape at the estate shelter I was staying at [indoors] all of the gang of men; were Black : and kept calling me : “sis” while they unclothed themselves and grabbed my body parts ->Thanks Menlo Park P.D. et al departments.  At cited the living situation: Menlo Church,

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Sure, it’s great for church; but if assigned there for live staying  when the lights turn off; anything could happen to you; and who you have to defend your rights are the local p.d. Nothing can be imaginably scarier than that. Menlo Park P.D. to your defense; yeah, right.

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2nd title: get raped or racism? [experience …  may overshadow the “local cops” on safety and security protocols; sorry?]

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And then with a few more faces inserted; they all start to leave at [the] same time as me; as I start packing up; sometimes often appearing  [[w’ear]ever] I go.

The man in the beige-yellow shirt; is the librarian doing the committing crime type “set-up”

If I don’t leave then; waiting to leave now to avoid them uh kill-raping me or at least trying to do so; they re-appear sometimes even in the women’s bathroom. No joke. Pretending that I’m not female.

 

Stage III. Stalking by “local cops”

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Every,where I go; includes the local police they are wherever I go; at the train station; at cited: 7-11 again and refusing to leave; at the library refusing to leave and there in uniform using it as a patron [see what images have been captured of this evidence]. Make sure to capture the notice of the defense of the bright light flashing blocking view of police vehicle; and its confession of an aided crime on their part.

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Civil litigations of social aptitude uh safety: if even you were-are a, member of the racial community they ascribe belonging to ; they the people attempting … at me, again in stage two; at least cognizantly consciously ; crime theory which one likely states you may still be similarly as me inflicted; so they my attempters … are not safe in general.

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Other notes: Within the past few proximate back months: man attempting to grab my breasts at Sunnyvale near now closed down cited: Jack-in-Box and calling me hooker; then following me into Palo Alto Public Library on middlefield and mayview; and yelling that I’m crazy publicly because for like one minute my phone accidentally was hit; the librarian told me to not speak; as if I were speaking [and he meant in general too]; when I hadn’t such spoken. How come he didn’t get banned, a citation, and the accord of general. Which he. Can we say moderated harm; is controlled by me and not the “authority”; and certainly I would be narcissistic to believe I were the only target. Certainly. Another man in the Menlo Park Library telling me that he’s “had enough of me,” and that he’s the sole owner of the library; while the librarians smile on. Pointing fingers at my face, and laughing about money … like I need it as a homeless woman who works for no living wage, and lives off otherwise charity. What use could … have for more than once-in-a while pennies sponsorship of money. Pennies over the course of a year.

 

theme: I was planning on leaving but alright; I guess I can wait forever while the cops and uh the others do their thing? We’ll just pretend I don’t exist; and they’ve done it all. Wow what hard work; congratulations … heros?

 

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Audra’s Hunt; The Inquisition of Serious Buddhists Continues in the Modern Day World.

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Audra’s Hunt; The Inquisition of Serious Buddhists Continues in the Modern Day World. [ a rapid not vapid rough draft among the incarceration of what should be injustice.]

by goura fotadar for The Fictional VolunTier Project

date typed up: 81517

tobeposted81517

tag[s]: career, voice, gender derivations, and criminology of course; incompetent “authorities” too; aptitude problems in communication

Part Normal. The Next on “The Hair on Ripping”

Women: to Domestic Violins

New as of 8 14.17

source, citation text: The Fountain of Age by Betty Friedan [Preface]

[“At that time, if menopause was talked about at all—and like other aspects of female biology , this shameful sexual sickness was better not discussed—the end of a woman’s childbearing function was seen as ultimate trauma, the end of her sexual function, her life as woman.”]

and this presumably refers to her gender: sex;

and not sexual activity: ? for her is any woman or women.

When we consider “ultimate trauma” does this

Over coincide with other

attributes of trauma: domestic violence; emotional abuse; civil rights injustices.

tag[s]: cultural notions of affect.

[“The death, indeed, of her life as a woman. Her biological “sex role,” which defined her, was finished. Some adjusted to the loss, sublimated in gardening, good works, their grandchildren; others did not.”]

Perhaps the syndicated re-iteration of “menopause” as a transgender expo.  Of enforcement into manhood.

[“I began to wonder: When women grow beyond the limits of their biological role and find new purposes for their lives, could that larger human dimension change the very biology of the aging process?”]

Also the new era of trauma police brutality from a personal masculine woman’s journey into criminology.

[“women were taking steps to change their lives—going back to school, getting up the courage to look for jobs, asserting their own personhood.”]

and so they two are connected?

tag[s]: careerisms + career counseling

 

 

 

theme: community college notes of the non regular science variety.

 

Part Inordinance and Incompetence with the Sheriff’s Office in San Mateo County [at least]

Reported persons in lacking ethical legal action fulfillment:

Jennifer Prado
650-363-4530
jprado@smcgov.org
San Mateo County Sheriff’s Office &    Jenna McAlpin jmcalpin@smcgov.org

 

 

To post to the fvp; on 81417

Submitted in response as of 81417

 

Yes, thank you for that information; however that does not fulfill the code of rejection; and I will still have to pass the information on; as my life and existence have been greatly endangered by such protocol. In any case, I am in the middle of my workday and cannot due to a lack of comprehension on your part as such declared by you, communicate with you any longer; for fear that you might aid in further danger to me through exactly such. Kindly, Goura Fotadar

 

Earlier that day: Thank You, very much. I’m very sorry that you found this attempted report to be confusing and you were unable to comprehend it. I will make sure to pass this information on. Kindly, Goura Fotadar.

 

Aside Inquiry of Inquisition and Edification.

 

Question Inquiry: Rejected reports of those in high need of actual aid/help; is likely or should be likely a civil rights violation of the highest violating sanction. What do you presume the consequence is.

 

Part O. Today: 81517:I entered city hall in Sunnyvale, ca; after witnessing a man on the back of the bus; publicly masturbating; and after the cops who responded there wouldn’t do anything about the incident; and same with that bus driver; last night where people are cited: for trespassing and the accord; all night long, the guy was at it again in the public park past its closing for at least that type of use: the basketball court; and partying in the parking lot; but like the Menlo Park P.D. can enforce an actual crime’s inaction … like they can; Instead you get busted for being h-less; how oddity; back to Sunnyvale, upon recommendation I walked into city clerk city hall Sunnyvale from another building nearby’s recommendation; and a woman intercepted my conversation regarding a city ordinance in at least a 50-mile radius for at least two drawer-full longer drawers like the city hall has for themselves and their lackluster and low-performing employees; for those that are functionally homeless despite many “authorities” lies; and they called the cops on me; who put me through an inquisition; not comprehending that [one of them at least] my name is not: Laura or Foura; it’s actually legally Goura,

[theme: Get it Goura.

I have to confess my name is used in … ? and not by me. ]

[although at at least one job; I had a cover name for reasons of racism et al … but like I still got paid in my legal name : … ]

 

But I’m not in jail yet for not actually committing crime despite what others who are “authorities” believe what is crime.

 

As a basic assignment not yet thorough enough [at any level]  you might want to start defining the context and uh la actual crime.

 

But I’m not in jail yet; something to look forward to? For all of us.  Is it rape proof, work friendly, stalker proof and thief proof, permanent shelter?

 

Part Z. Starting at a 50-mile free city ordinance for two per head drawers.

Homeless People who have fled to the street, for reasons of inconceivable trauma:

Look at things such as stalking, non-reported to them deaths of close ones, and threats of unjust violence and theft … and of course the worse: rape … , threats serious too.

Identity theft [in theft of course] and the onslaught.

 

Need storage; so that the “cops” and other “authorities” don’t continue to trash their stuff.

We can’t just slobber every spare piece of work into the trash at night before rest time; because like once in a while; you might need your college diploma; your graduate school transcript, the sheet of your national medal of honor, and like your birth certificate; along with work notes or whatever.

Yes, that’s right there are homeless people who work and still have money. Without regular offices and regular storage. Yes, that’s right.

& who knows in the system of real justice: they may be working like way more than uh you; and like uh you ever have; and you have safe housing and a safe office and safe storage; what an oddity indeed. Injustice caught on event.

 

The Blue Rubber Gloves have to do with your stuff getting trashed. Just an observed guess.

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tag[s]: criminology and criminology art

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Location: a 50 [mile] radius from/pertaining to Menlo Park [CA]

I forgot to include on this day; after my stuff was trashed; that the cops also brought blue rubber gloves up to my face/skull [again] a repeat from sjpd but those set weren’t brought close to my face; whe n I asked them why they had brought those blue rubber to my face; they ignored me and refused to answer; the day before; uh this happened, then my stuff was trashed.

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In the middle; as already described I was ticketed; and but the cops told me I was actually under arrest; but failed to actually arrest me; will there be a follow up to their repeated attempted violent arrests of me; going on way too many attempts from them to me … ; while I’m not actually committing crime; [and they like; are; like so like]

Highly especially inebriated police departments as briefly evaluated nation-wide: sjpd, palo alto pd, Atherton pd, Menlo park pd [and will others consistently join the list?} Fingers  crossed for the actual real police and not these fake, posers of law enforcement.

theme citation: my so called life

theme music citation: [again] another day in paradise phil colllins

 

The guy/ a guy of city of Menlo park also told me earlier this year; that he was going to trash my stuff; I submitted a complaint; and uh, it looks like he proved true to my word.

 

Oh one more report: the guy, or one of the cops; faked crying too; and told me that I had no empathy.

 

Part Two.  Bible scent quick diagnosis

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Observing Church notes, on 81117

cited: Isaiah 5:7 p. 569 18-29 or look at this updated reference check cited: http://biblehub.com/kj2000/isaiah/3.htm

theme: it seems also connected text line[s] a  religious proof for good scentery in [b] art also; cited: b.a.r.t.

A flip and quick examination:

“a”

but does “rich robe”

just mean

comfortable

and w[h]ether

perfect?