A Different Syde; The Obvious Explanation of Suicide.

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by goura fotadar

date typed up: 62617

date: 06.14.17

from, source, cited: Who Killed

these girls?

cold case: The Yogurt Shop


by Beverly Lowry

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key facts to declare from cited:

p. 3 from cited December 6, 1991:

notes of commonality in especially the

United States:

repeated name-ing of roads & road-akins

identified & recognized:
“Airport [&] Martin Luther

King boulevards, … ”

as of ’91 ; folks were still

“barricading” themselves;

if dyz doesn’t know if

a “barricade” is still;

relevant; based on

the time of recognition;

i.e. what year is it, then;

and how long from ’91;

keeping into account the

possibility of sci-fi intrusion


as a sort of joke: ;

once moving past or like into

the “barricade” ; the

perhaps most violent, potential [note!]

note from the 1st P. If there

was type to work-on the ;

‘scuse me time to work on

the reverse of the violence

of “barricaded” how might

you reverse this in a pattern,



! ! !

As I’ve demonstrated

obviously through my own

life; in situational hostage :

a “barricade” can also

obviously create a lock ;

or further lock when

the door doesn’t have one;

or has a not so well-

functioning one ; the

barrier then of  “barricad[e]”

is protective; keeping out

unjust violence ; and

not elevating it.

Obviously in conceptions:

of fire-catastrophe or

elevated fire hazards;

you want to ensure

that the “barricade” is

functionally remove-able;

… ; as

would work an effective

lock; and-or an extra lock.


” … a guy who’d

barricaded himself inside

a building and was

threatening to kill

himself … ”

perhaps, the obvious:

prior to the main-stream

lingo: the gun going off;

“barricaded” in the sign

of urgency and-or crisis:

has to do with violence

of non-entry ; and or

impossibility of entry ; for

recovery; the out :

in a situation

of an actual

internal threat

such as; “threatening”

suicide ;

is fire hazard.

Given the conditions of

current resources;

cultural ideas ; perhaps

the only 1st effective thing

in such a situation of

“barricade” under

“internal threat”

is an actual functioning ,

and approved fire department.

So; no, no; to the 1st call to

the fire department:

if they are

f & a ;

then to

the military ;

there should

be one locally

such deployed;

not about the

“barricade” necessarily;

but about the weapon

or weapon exchange; what we

also call the means in suicide

escalation ; the scenario.

SUICIDE, potential;

is different than active threat


so close to its best

friend unjust homicide;

the means must be

removed in any

threat to have

an actualized

conversation about

the scenario.


You don’t go to

JAIL for being

suicidal; but as long

as it is actual; ever!  [or actualized intention … that should be enough explaining for now.]

The Mitt; of basic translations

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by goura fotadar

date typed up: 62517

The Sort of Lecture:

“Life Purpose”


” = ” “winner”

“book of John”

“Chapter 5”

“the verse of healing at the pool”

“finding purpose in life … get”

honest; liven in the truth ”  ” … live in the truth”

“to find a clear purpose”

as cited from Jesus in the lecture

“do you wish to get well ”

. . . ” … and walk”

“12 steps start with

admitting the truth”




trans, lation

ad: mitt [ing]



         sea; mitt [or ad: see mitt]

“what are we

addicted to … sex? ”



slightly para phrased

“can’t do it ourselves;

we have to surrender … ”

” … surrender” [only?]

” to win … ]

first, admit the


second”  “dig up the truth”

baseball ? a second

for the catcher

=> to “dig up”

from : ad : mitt[ing]

fourth step of aa :

dig into our

past … ”

“character defect”

how does de: fect

turn into

de: fend [which it sounds like, too; or also or almost s.l. ]

a car’s fender; [sp?]

and a “second”
or some [time]

for catcher [ing]

=> mitt; here

———————————-> the most l’importante for? [the catcher?]

“humbly … remove shortcomings”

hum, b, ly





I found in a -donation stack- final part

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by goura fotadar

date typed up: 62317



If even a minor; but

not just; and when there is time;

in almost the welfare application

of self-love -istic theology;

because in the advent

of mutative tr.

there is not; thanks

to the inadequacy[sp?] of

“authority” response;

and surely not all

such inadequacy can

be asphaulted [or: asphalted in spelling?] in blame on

training; for even without

training we and-or

“authority” must be able

to do something in our

actual positions;

something of

gum-like substance.


From the cited source :

“Data compiled by

The Chronicle show more than

14,000 calls for service to police

and sheriff’s departments in

2015 and 2016 from California’s

10 shelter campuses. The

majority of those calls, some

repeated for the same incident,

sought help tracking down

foster children who left without



2015 -2016

date change [1]

as in one year

14, 000

majority of 14,000 = help


The analysis suggests

that in at

least the change –

over of [1];

staff at locale shelters

at least ; are implanted

so-to-speak : to receive

aid from “authorities” ;

and the transaction

of majority in an assumed

significant  stat of

change in incidence

count; means that

the minors were pulled into

the “help” to ensure it would

come.  In an idiot’s effort

if and not that they shouldn’t

authorities are searching

for x1 ———- xinfinity  (minors) ;

then-than they may not be instead

fixating the fixation

of the needed


help of  “y1 ……………… yinfinity” (major)


Thus then in any social

welfare response

it must be quarantined

why esp. “y1 ………… yinfinity” (major) needs

help outside of their

specific roles ; and how

regularly often.

This in more precise

terms is how we advent

the warrant [un-regular def.]

of regular help ; and or the

advent of any help; and also

the advent of interruption.



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Sub-Line: As a break from series posting that’s been occurring.

Pre-Line Copy: Upon the theft; perhaps it might be retrieved of one of my; not two of my few personal items; a skirt long and bannister; why bannister because Cannister should have two n [s]; or also.

on the heavy brow of the upcoming next the witch goura … [cited: yeah.]

for The Copy Project


note: The Copy Project is synonymous with The FVP and-or a sub-division of The FVP as so here defined and now

no sorry, for The Fictional VolunTier Project

by me Goura Fotadar [obvious]

date: 62217

as found about a coup  days ago; a couple of days ago; [coup … is]

a bracelet might easily be called a bannister

and a bracelet might easily be turned to a cuff

and a skirt might not have cuff;

but a skirt is like a cuff at least there. and perhaps also there?

and a stolen skirt with metal? is the criminal, non-reformed. ‘s hope of evading the consequence of the other crimes, committed?

entering the criminal, non-reformed’ s mind-existence is not fun.

on the first page of the link:


we see?

bannisters and not cuffs unless they belong to jewels and clothes or something of those nature;

the night moon and all the regulars of living experience a viewed gaze

the way to sit; and eventually maybe even the way to stand;

but the way to move;

on the next bracelet we


dishes in the …  [Sink?]

what colors to wear

and on its back how to feel  …

[and I think that’s enough copy for these shall I call them intercultural pieces as connected to one-another]

what is the genre; of intercultural jewelry; in symposium.





source of images described: as accessed thru; through cited: facebook recently; cited link:


accessed again on 062217




I found in a \donation stack/ part two

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(2) The 2nd level

of trauma; is/comes

from any demonstration

of comfort consequentially

and shockingly penalized;

responding to

last resort: shelter not

having quickly turned

into an unjust punitive

environs; upon such

action; child modification

conceptualized that staff

are not qualified as such;

and procurement that

movement into “less free”

pen; even at the juvi-level

comes with shelter

again; but this addition

of documented penalization

with shelter.

so 2nd level trauma:

is compromise


In Review:

[1st level]

too high cost:

i.e. in exchange for

shelter, false penalization

[2nd level]


due to the inadequacy

of both shelter staff and

arresting “officers” in

such scenarios; a minor

who has not committed an

actual crime must now

receive shelter; only after

a better promise and brief

play of promise, the; in exchange

for the mutation of being

charged: arrest.

so in / at the 2nd level

we have


(the words in the image above of the arrow continued:)




by responding


who are also;

acting “authoritarian”


Leads to mutation

=> of wire minor

=> trauma results;

when the mutation is

either and-or

unexpected or too


In clearer terms;

to receive shelter the

wire minor must

rapidly upon police

call mutate into a

wire minor “charged”



How quickly can you

change from?


[is the photograph, this one clear enough of the diagram perhaps]

so the words; again in diagram above, below are: Is Shelter Worth it?

wire minor, minutes? to hours   wire minor “criminal” “charged”


Is there enough time to


As an aside: Shelter

as in roofed covered

homing type units and-or

housing are what are;


at list; at least

this society’s remedy

to housing, but the

on-going requirements to

qualify and withstand assign

ment have   long-been

pedantic in their boinker

theories. [theo-wries]

For example that your

guardian and-or parent

and-or caregiver think

you’re worth it; otherwise

you go unjustly to the

pen for shelter is just

not appropriate humane

theory of welfare-


and-or basic


as an aside continued:

If having enough

TIME; the intersection

before the completion

of (2) in this

trauma model; where

else might the minors

turn; for stay?

In the conception of logic

and this does not [closet:] limit us

only to the unlimited mathe

matical discipline of it; one

can look around and even when

blind attempt to sense and-or

see …


[recall: source, cited: is the same source cited in part one as referenced and dictated in yesterday’s post.]


I found in a|donation stack| this recent of cited: events, present [part one.]

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by Goura Fotadar

started, composed on : 5.23.17

tag[s]: criminological research

typed up, started: 62017;

in the non-cooperative public library, ah!

Of High Revel: The non-conceptual but

in-practice error of conceptual –

space[s] shelters.


as an aside: How to enamor one’s self

with a psychic like higher, hire safe-t.

as if following a non-reformed a criminal cue;

without actually adding crime; walk to

any book shelf area; or such area; and

pull out a book when you get the feeling

of “safe” sort of like fiction.


back to main posting:

Target Fault : I.E. quiet the obvious? perhaps

those that are regulare staff cannot ensure

the process of homeless functioning and-or

shelter lifestyle; which in ensure-ment is

more severe likely than even elevated

police work; for one and not necessarily

primarily purpose: there are all residents

socio-biology to consider. So less sophisticated

staff would have a sequence of action insertion

into high velocity? outlet



any time you staff

don’t approve                      ——————————> call the “police”

——–> likely the outlets,

available are all categorized

under false incrimination


false implies not right fit;

you must then mutate the

plug by further likely

unjust force to

“socket” it.


This creates at least

3 levels of trauma: [will I get to finish this model, before the library’s onsite inept staff create some other bullshit ode; fornicating upon their fake degrees. “Today the children can’t use the children’s bathroom because they must and their mommies follow you and stare as you piss in a shut stall.” The sane person wonders: these can’t can they be real children. Ever heard of virtual images; over even adult faces.]

(1) first the rapid trauma

of release upon entry

into a/n? h-less shelter;

Where a minor likely would

hope and intelligently expect

to stay long-term : and

this in intelligent

formed thought-


would imply safety through

this intelligently assumed,

and expected security; [which definition of security]

and such-then: the movement

toward depicting

enactment of comfort.


A minor through less experience

alone; may not be retro-fitted

to survive mutative trauma

and survive only means here

turn-it functional quick

enough to overcome the

action of false arrest.

Hereby for such proliferation

defining exterminating arrest

as false additionally costing

too high cost.

So (1) first level is

high cost trauma;

as an aside: in this trauma

model; each level builds

in compilation a more traumatic

completion effect and affect.


as an aside; though

not about an actual child;

to view the séance –

opposite of severe shock

trauma; why not consider

watching as already cited:

brokedown palace;

the copy could almost

read; though the movie “shows”

and much less “tells” : ->

… at a time of fun in

the backdrop of spirituality

a young woman is betrayed

is un-separable friendship by

her friend and her friend’s

father; left alone with

no rescue; nobody not even

God knows if she will be free

ever again … The end is of  no hope.

Obviously this copy

is a recollection from memory

of the story; I saw years

ago so forgive any fluctuations.

as another aside:

the source, article, cited:

San Francisco Chronicle

“Dubious Arrests,

Damaged Lives … “



and the paper … did

synonym “investigate”

the situation.



Seeing Death

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by goura fotadar

date typed up: 61917


date: 06.17.17

Source text, cited: “Brittany Gibbons AKA Brittany Herself FAT GIRL WALKING SEX, FOOD, LOVE, and Being Comfortable in Your Skin …


  • – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –

 cited P. 49



in specific context ; biological

sounds like


where the

u in US

is almost silent

of course here: VA

or VA as in


so V. A. as in I

think Veteran[s] Affairs

& or VA as in



Veteran[s] Affairs & or

Virginia : GENE-US?

mean … ?



from cited p. 58 ” He

probably wants me to dress

up for when he asks

me to Homecoming “

& …

in reverse order from that

page: ” … he promised [where’s me, and-or to me]

he doesn’t even like Emily,

his mom wanted him to

date her, but he totally

isn’t going to. “

Now that we equivocally

know that the myth

in most cases of a person’s

“mom” “wan[ting]” “to date”

somebody is likely untrue;

In my jaded view

of the relevant current

world few to almost

none in “mom[s]” “want …”

something as even

a well-wish and

only to fall on the

guise of poor-matching

due to something like

confusion. What do they want

instead from you or who

you were something

like dating; and

what have you and-or

they consented,



But you didn’t


tag[s]: research reading to criminology

As an aside:

What does it mean

when somebody; people;

have your old stuff;

that you never gave

away as charity;

and-or to charity. IMG_20170619_141324[1]


cited p. 70;

What happens when

you describe a circumstance

of yourself; and-or your

personal history; and

insert pictures of other

people in their circum

stances and-or personal

histories, instead. [Like without telling them; especially.] Or

describe the such

or another as your own;

or describe the

such of another

as theirs but with deceit

in it.

date: 61817

Seeing Death:

can one keep one, more

safe; if one can sea

one’s death; such as a

reliable psychic vision [?];

so instead of the usual

1-to-1 ; instead the:

1-1 without a to

implying inclusive seclusion

of another.

…. from source, text

at cited: 71

” My brother joined the

air force in college, ” he’d tell me.

“Now he lives on base in Colorado

Springs in a free house with his


“That sounds perfect,” I’d

answer, not really sure if

this vision included me or


but … “this vision”

may not be

his “vision”

or akin enough

to “his vision”

When you Sea Death:

whose r you

c, seaing?