I think it’s about the swan can, again. The [Artistic] point I think is carrying a swan; if even it’s almost unseen.

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tag[s]: organization[s], art theory, art cots, public welfare, fashion, social welfare & hygiene-s


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Carrying Loads, [Part two?] Also left-over art notes in notebook, at its end, almost.


on 12.19.18

one correspondence: { art project for the FVP, continued:}  then wrap in left-over  plastic and a brown-paper bag

{layer} as previously photographed and

store closed up in cliché swan or general

duck form in a bag; for several days;

see what happens to it; as it makes itself {here?}


two correspondence; then turn into a flower pot if even on some future date imagine: using cig, butts too as added ingredients


three correspondence: 12.20.16 for the fvp, art on the street life [cited: (amazon, kindle) soul pieces, the …]

{art project continued … then: take out of stored bag but leave in brown bag, turn over, and dry further near plastic on a concrete slab or something like it}


fourth correspondence: 2.15.17 an example pillow set: Set “pillow” items & hint: (quick) on how-to construct:

[include the image sketch, maybe in t.b.c.]

It’s also a:

part [something]. A hygiene w[rag] as you work; preferably use something that you’ve used as a soak cloth and then cleaned: First take

the cloth wash it after-ward? under tap water + soap [squeezing out][as much as doesn’t take too much of effort] then blow dry or public bathroom dry but [quick] for such immediacy. Don’t forget the competent “lady’s?”

tip theme: don’t spread “false” [implied meaning-and] stereo types; to spray the cushion/case down or its inside with something [humid i-fyingly?]



Aside notice-ings





[another,] Movie Notes

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theme: while that bitch tracks me to see how loud my internal speakers are, uh.

First; the brief: what do you think about the cited: venom like trajectory that everyone sees through time, no time; against the cited: columbia like backdrop; does it [the image] seem biblical? The cue connection might be connecting the movie range; hard to imagine in like the comparative caste-system non-androgynous culture still just under mainstream, … but to the obvious actual and actualized religious scene; and this is how to purvey uh, any movie. Farther; might you apply this to any art form and any analysis form; how to understand the biblical/religious connection from such a look. And this iss –n’t to press for example any specific religious tradition upon one, an individual, or any such group size, … instead to comprehend; that [as in] religious knowledge through mainstream, stream availability.


Next, continuation of cues: the point of spider an actual, group of and such: is the out-stream of non-barren movement;


Then the beginning set to children; the point at which one usually learns versions of possible movement; Inter-personals: perhaps these children would be more interested or rather even more interested; because they are interested to a certain point; if you become their additional movement instructor and-or movement pontificator …

and in regular culture: what is movement instruction when even the children already know how to “move” well enough already

theme music citation: outcast the way you move



Next; ever notice; that at least this cited: mary jane;

Uh, since I’m not so recalling familiar with the comic strip, …

How she always looks like she’s had that experience just barely seen; of extreme trauma; and unfortunately including violence; you can almost see the contusions of violence acted out in acting depiction.

The scene of dramatic sight, watching, almost with the overlooking action of seen voyeurism; [a play setting within a movie] points to an unfolding truth; of looking away from the action of unjust [and its infliction] of trauma, … [connected to her morbidity in expression]

Dramatic Watch; in the face of this cited: mary jane’s

Emotional morbidity; tells us to look and not look away; perhaps then, this early portion of this movie; only uh, 6 minutes or so in; is the artistic manifestation; of how to cognize police-like and police reports.


Then the obvious point to the biblical; even using the traditional Christian like motif is cited: Mary Jane,

The character of Jesus [?] [and why not cited: Peter P.]; with the mention of a friend’s father

as in cited: Lord, the Father



Art Project: Birthday Funeral Procession

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Date typed up: 7.13.18

tag[s]: death art & trash art, and homeless/housing rights


on: 07.12.18

dedicated: to donater & donaters et al

The empty birthday tissue box sprayed with scenter; lined roughly with current relevant meeting material; theme: such as; meat. ; cited: respite meeting material [reminders]

While recovering from surgery; theme: looks a cup in art-form: photograph; at this point; anyhow; theme; such as gift-wrapping in practice. Hammocks carried covered in sleeping straw; sprayed with cited dry shampoo; correlating to difficulty with hair coiling to dreading while homeless on-the-street [hint help: recently chopped hair.] Notice the mist of d.s. Stuff in box. Cover with tissue as donated so box art can be still witnessed; a way to “bandage” [[wrap]] trauma. Use donated injury tape; for former injury connected to surgery recovery to secure roughly tissue box. Seat on plastic platform a sentiment to childhood militia [plastic] and more visible though covering of trauma. Spray with scent and lotion materials & litter with notecard torn. Cited: [that scene] from cited: love actually. Rub in roughly to create “quality”; after rip up & recording find a way to tie; and trash. The beginning of the cited: metta, urn [all pictures not included due to the f.b. and his/her “crew” harassing me on my property. [huh]]

To do some more of the urn part: saved paper towels & shaving cream [cited brand] after a major spraying of shaving cream; and a repeated rubbing; the 2nd; beginning of a modern [cited: metta] urn

[See card description]

cited: voicethread, slide 46









Aside: dealing with the nonsense; wish it were nonsense

The fat bitch on my property illegally under wayne stone’s false order; a side disturbance who won’t let any work get done; and confesses to posing as a police officer; i.e. is a fake police officer in at least/for sjpd.

Jeez; is Wayne Stone leader of the c.i.a. or is it? The more obvious, person; uh, me. Uh, since birth.


This is also a federal/domestic-international report on the following: g.c. , Trinidad/Mathew, ria-reah or however that enemy proponent spells name [also using name/initials y.t.], and the person posing as “c-y” in especially the homeless, lgbtiq, mental illness based on diagnosis only [false diagnosis included], and recovering drug addiction populations;  these named perpetrators are as severe perpetrators of unjust violence and such including false arrest/imprisonment to these populations,

This includes these people [yes, digitally changing and stealing others’ images] and posing as police officers and other militia members [i.e. they are fakes and a danger to …]  She also attempted to [what does this mean] digitally steal my phone charge[r], can you believe it.


Digital Programs in Militia Roles

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tag[s]: martial? reviews & discussions, the economics of intellectualism, & combat , reflections on who should be talking shit*

Date typed up: 7818


Date: 7718

     A review. I was horrified & disgusted when I believe a digital program that has been used & operated before showed up again; this time operated differently: This is where we enter considerations of reporting: perhaps the way it was recently publicly operated a demise from its former operation is the only way to send a report; that is not traditional report; but rather a report of this one operator’s inappropriate interactions during especially somebody else’s militia job hours; while the other is a P.O.W. The assessment: Perhaps it’s time to|actually reverse justice persecute; as in justly persecute P.O.W. holders; i.e. those that held P.O.W.s and [justly persecute them/] to do so in public; instead of in secret hide-outs that nobody, regular knows about.

Reality Interfaces: Reports of Age & Time.

tag[s]: working transgenderisms

Part Two. A supposed, my, I et al that isn’t the author of this; do you get that. Theme: During my work-shift; somebody chose to take me as a P.O.W.; wear my uniform; and move through time in all the crime cues that I would effect posing as me and-or posing as [in] my job; if this somebody couldn’t rape and continue to molest the 1,000 persons this somebody had captive. This is exchange terrorism; and though not un-predicted and not un-planned for; reports are appreciated maybe received and-are not mandatory though: depending on the circumstances. The Levity of Report: perhaps, the report whenever fallen even into unholy hands; has the ability to change the original circumstance of the 1,000 captives and so they can see it; such as, a magical formula. One moment they are captive; and before the next moment comes they are released in and are free; in the middle they are becoming/are they becoming free? Accompanying music citation: U2, stuck in moment;

Even if it the change is …  were a myth; outside of traditional religion: the practice of self-sacrifice should not seem so fictional in the tradition mind term; as it appears in the action of exchange terror-sims.

& perhaps for the general non-lethargic public; it answers the question of:

“Sir, how did it come to P.O.W.s” I’m hardly not a Sir, though of course I am whatever that means, female. It’s one to intellectual transgenderism; how do you study hard & stay female in intellectual statistics: I haven’t worked to answer; and if you don’t try that way: will your intellectualism in practice morph your body; I’m not sure; but the ovaries in my body did swell bizarrely engulfing my form; which is now replenishing itself after surgery; does the entropy say: that women [who study hard perhaps regardless of measure] don’t benefit from ovaries?

   So back to the point: no they weren’t / aren’t weak; incapable of balancing their fears, etc. wasting training wealth; with a bit obscurity: it’s the sacrifice of exchange terror-ism.

Simulating D.A. Stream of Consciousness type: cited: Target, trip; analysis on cited: target & [you, how?] verifying *facts in “personal” stories, …

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Note: there is not that function on this version of the public computer; and so you can’t access from … a cited: pdf version; today, sorry!
I was over at the sunnyvale public library; months perhaps a year ago or longer; and doesn’t mean that I haven’t been back since; sense
and two impersonators of two people I knew back in new york, …
recommended no, sorry those two people brother and sister through their impersonators who digitally savvy, cited: target; for the food purchases on your food stamp card; and for me on my cited: e.b.t. card while it lasts; and I continue to work as a starving artist; uh, to keep me from starving; I figure I starved long enough as a child;
when my “mother” couldn’t hold down a job; and her boyfriend didn’t think we [hint: we does not include “her”] deserved a penny of charity; but as soon as I could work for pay I did; and that sure stopped the starving; of course you can’t give up all of your art-work production;
just because society won’t pay you for that works; and that’s where the cited: e.b.t. comes into my life; a bit new in my adult life; keeps me from starving along with soup kitchens and beggar’s cash; which now buys me burgers; I didn’t eat much fast food, ever until
now; and it does really fill the stomach; like even when my tortured hand cramps up on creating digital art and plugging away at a keyboard; and especially I say; making the digital art … uh, but I could never give that up
I finally couldn’t get in the cited: target; because my body limp from exhaustion being a homeless artist; much like my parents, the real ones; and not “mom” and her boyfriend now husband; before me; and hey, maybe that’s how those real parents got so rich; … because they are and own-e everything in this society; which people think is free, public [just because you don’t pay everywhere you go, doesn’t mean it’s free somebody else is paying your way in some:form of wealth that’s obvious in the actual
definition of freedom; I hope for at least the college-educated and its equivalent population]; and or others think that I didn’t inherit [hint: no access other than general access doesn’t mean not labeled as inheritor]; as their premiere child; and what does that mean; it doesn’t mean my siblings and cousins and even actual friends et al didn’t inherit stuff from them; it means that
in asian culture at least sometimes there is a premier[no e?] child [who does inherit despite your uh racism] and it’s not really offensive like it is in for example in white or non-asian families; but we do have white people in my asian family; they are just though tribal white; or asian white; so the
cultural components are a bit different … premier inheriting alongside the others, isn’t uh for example: offensive.
In any cause: my body swollen from [as compared to] its standard adult component of near emaciation from excessive work-outs [but you could lose focus and not actualized perform on your job, and somebody could unjustly die; especially when you work without a gun] and no matter how much eating; necessary dieting due to excessive and exacerbating physical illness,
                        had peaked by large mass protruding from it; which wasn’t pregnancy but sometimes I joke about that; my work schedule was exhausting also before hitting homelessness about five years ago; in-and-out of captivity or hostage by “mom” and “her” boyfriend-husband;
among their conceived many infidelities of uh is it union
Soon; the mass took over when I stopped not working out homeless; because like how is that possible that didn’t happen; but you know; so instead: the mass took over by eating grain once again; oh my god, and sugar; the mass nearly expunged itself by paining me to death; and so cited: target became
un-reachable on my homeless, walking path
finally a couple of weeks ago; it was cut out: thank god! at least that physical health problem is on its remedy;
and did I mention that a year ago; for the first time I started smoking in my life; and it is exciting while homeless; although I couldn’t stench their stand in my 20s;
those are the only changes: in my lifestyle connected main: to homelessness: I now drink soda, smoke cigarettes, and eat regular candy bars; … I started the regular candy bars just outside right before homelessness; and
before that almost never! except on childhood halloween
But with cited: e.b.t. I still get to eat though grain included at whole foods;
theme: cited: whole foods
theme music citation: spacehog in the meantime [again and again]
After surgery I had gotten the chance to actually cramp walk-in surgical recovery to cited: target; and while my medication was being filled
I could uh, look around,
Here are brief analysis recommendations: cited: choker, gadget a lost forlorn present from my own childhood; is a needed useful art device and of course jewelry for both genders of today’s actual child, too; children, too.
all of the hanging sweaters that almost look and hang like shirts; which I wore around as spare non-boutique clothing additions to boutique clothing [prior to homelessness] are a still useful accompaniment in any season’s changing weather conditions [Oh, Whether]
and so are the hanging dresses; of a specific modality form: that I used to buy at other stores in that font. And when we are lucky show up in the hands of cited: handlers and or at clothing closets
And then of course; all the food-stuffs; and all of the education framed what are usually considered fashion magazines; and then also the dis-arrayed reading arraignment
and in consumer theme: notice all the bottles,
and I think that’s enough to notice which is the what this recommendation is for;
it’s more like a consumer utilisable art basic analysis: under art modification: Bottle,
hanging dress; hanging shirt like sweaters, choker gifts and practicers [and this includes self-gifts, too]; and the reading flash of like cards in appearance; et al

The-something like “Krause” Murd-res

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tag[s]: criminology, criminology investigations, say I’m nuts and you go to non-reforming jail forever … ha! , homeless shelter/homelessness assessments … fire marshal warnings … of catastrophe; regular world to irregular world combat realizations/ sides clearly demarcated.


!. Primary phase of investigation: 2013-present

citing: There’s something about Mary

Theme: and yes, that’s what I think it’s about on first watch a long almost ago.

Something like siblings and-or siblings using the name Krause or something like it; which may have not been exactly their legal name; living at home with folks, … The Krause siblings lived at home especially between the ages of approx. 20-40 [for them]; and not normally in childhood; where / when they were somewhere else?

Sometime at some point between 20-40 they were killed in sequence; during a family gathering. Bizarre recollected recollections is/r that one of the siblings was wearing red at that time; on the top likely; such as a Christmas red. The other was seated eating, at a dinner table, … and when the red wearer witnessed sibling eating;  was killed; likely a smack from the left direction of the head but from behind; how do I know? I have been extensively attached to their image, … digitally for at least this above period of time; uh investigating the uh their murd-res. To the point; that some folks think I am them; like both of them in one body.

The general vision of their appearance; is a similar blond-like hair color that matches heavier white gold jewelry in color; yet one has long hair and the other short hair [though both are described as having short hair, at that time]; and both are experiencing gender differentiations that aren’t standard in the years of living at home. Both are also described as being the same height; and this is incorrect; there is a large height difference between the two; something like nearly eight inches [that doesn’t much change in that period]. In this m case; actual appearance modifications and actualizations are for some reason? that I have not identified [yet] to recollection; important.

Everything in the investigation of this murder is hush, hush; and it is very hard to discover what actually happened in the steps preceding the murders; As no surprise many false officers are involved in this cover-up and this method to cover-up means involved unjustly in these murders. And yes; right now; the ruling is that these murders were unjust and shouldn’t have happened, as is.

Theme: what palm are we on? & what palms are we on.

Theme music citation: The Night That The Lights Went Out In Georgia, Reba McEntire


Part Two. Bathrooms in the homeless shelter situation …; and in homelessness; in general; are reaching a severe catastrophic level of detriment in physical health functioning and just plain ol’d threats of unjust violence; … there are many useful efforts being made by [ a-ctual] militia and or militia like folks; and the main [perpetrating] problem seems to [be] threats of false arrests for freeing up the use of bathrooms including showers by [threats and actualizations of these threats by] false officers; so think bigger; and comprehend that this is a more expansive less dangerous [albeit only slightly less dangerous] method to catching in the limelight those that are posing, as officers even in / with uniform; … if I were a regular or such regular and not irregular actualized militia person I would turn in at least a one summary report to cited: n.a.t.o. about what the effort [in something like outline] has been to make sure that everybody who so deserves has access:use to the bathroom; and what has happened [by the opposing side] to attempt to stop this effort.

Paint, friend/ Emotions for

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date: 6.27.18

Source, citation: The Gentle Art of Swedish Death Cleaning (by) Margareta Magnusson


cited p 1: so, if it is done sooner: can it be a celebration of your “leave” – ing sooner; also interestingly enough: this system ‘ “death” … “cleaning” ’

comes up frequently in the homeless life.

And is this the meaning of; funeral.


Art notes: for blog art 62718? [date approx.]

While in homeless respite; after surgery look at ingredients: he-hah! I’m on a bed.

With a tad of lotion


Some taddling [who?]

An “ “ interpretation

And more lotion smear.

More lotion? Images with smear


Dedicated to the protection

Of myself and the protection

Of all so, deserving

Don’t tell anyone,

But it’s a

Picture of my illness;

[physical illness]


And yes, another


Of …






Back to notes of

Main source citation:

cited: p.12

Perhaps then is

Another definition of funeral;

And to change its turn

To the better for one;

Or perhaps [to the better for] the


Perhaps only

Let those

“you like”

“take things”

As a procession-




Here in this/

From scanning

This book: [until this point]

We have a




Of an actual, and How to [have, keep, keep-sake, etc.]



cited p.19

This reminds me

Of placement in homeless

Shelters and how

Whenever someone leaves

And-or is forced to leave;

It’s such as this. (from source, citation: ‘ “death” … “cleaning” ’)

As a reminder:

Imagine a video of

The (cited) East Hartford Shelter [empty & cleaned];

[why not for example] I mean

Of course in the strange design space [but still full of beds and such]; then imagine a group enters to stag; I mean stage set-ups; then a second group enters [and these two groups are organized in (1) and (2) ] for actual attempt at shelter and the first group holds the second-group: captive, and hostage; coveting in demonstration every last increment of steal of bed; of the shelter space; something such as this, happened to me, … where the bodies emptied in the shelter are expected to empty out before housing ever uh, re-appears or appears for the first time [for them]; and then [the bodies are to?] never re-appear anywhere otherwise they will be falsely imprisoned and falsely charged; this, called by me the conception of Memento Funeral in body beings is never realized correctly by “staff”


Homelessness as apparently are funerals are applications of deep philosophical components of existential being; and pardon me?  … ; but a certain Buddha-like aptitude is required to discern

Uh, solutions as the applications in entropy practice translate malignancies in who is, entropy?