Right away from the other stuff

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(parts of) Reference Citation: HBO, GIRLS, the complete fourth season

Sounds reminiscent of a speech I gave to uh myself, (in the beginning of the video)

It doesn’t really seem like she the main character knows her uh significant other or whatever you might call it; instead it seems an introduction from another part, and entering into this disposition to the knowledge of the uh parents; so what I’m seeing whoever this significant actually is and or who they are represents a completed crime, toward the main character [the real version translation]

Normal cues: the completion of “college,”  “iowa,”  “Connecticut”

Internal importance perhaps:  the main character “Hannah” is wearing nearly the same outfit as the that librarian I despise; and don’t want living off my trust fund; while I’m nearly on the street; and this is at a convex (outside of regular time) (quarantined by a counter of some, time … the clip) (and the obnoxious interaction with the librarian in real time (as in interactional, witnessed time))

Gendered cues: connecting with the title of the series, now there is describers of the significant other being the incorrect version for his job; and if he is the wrong type for this, what else is he the wrong type for … ? usually this is/these are referenced conversations for women; oh maybe in for example romantic relationships: maybe, you’re not his type … or something; but it is switched connected to the name of the title, … to men, a man here

Aside Note: the same turn-over of sexual partners that is often described at a heightened level of interest, … is expressed here as is usual in culture: it’s almost symbolic of rape present in society; it seems the spin is that each sexual partners is earned as such because each is just so interesting and no matter how short the turn-over (is it saying there is hardly a difference between what?)

Accompanying music citation: the new kids on the block, the right suff


[And not just strangers] Recollections from the Media, Scenarios to Consider (part two)

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Reference Source, citation: * Kept Private?

In cue control; in the early part of this documentary there is an excessive mention of breaking the law; and the examples provided of breaking the law are un-important; this points us to a definite ruling of severe abuse toward “…” victim in this family system

There is now a subtle in-compass-ment from actual non-actualizing lgbtiq communities spreading this word to even actualizing gay communities; that dressing in drag; and identifications with such demeanor are definite markers of being gay; whether gay or not; transsexualism and transsexualism demeanor[s] cannot logically be all qualified as being uh in cerebral standards of gay sexuality;



IN addition, un-less “…” was severely far along in psycho-social development “eight … years old” might be too soon, to think about his sexuality at that level …

perhaps this is where the conception of focus on the present not necessarily pertaining in all places and contexts; might instead pertain here

Mental outset: what would be a sign of a severely far along developed “eight … year old”

In addition: review; what it actually means to be gay; and-or to be in a gay enmeshed environment

Then we have the actual importance that ” …” had started to “come out” as gay, and his surefire belief that he would be “rejected” by “family + friends …” which already posits those in an opposition group to him when he entered his gay realization; knowledge about that gay realization doesn’t always pertain to the relevance of gay sexuality in common terms; …; it can pertain to gay sexuality in uncommon terms; in addition there is the cue control match of the mention excessively of “opposites” In more knowledge-d common terms this also opposes the fact that “…” may not have actually had an “awesome” “childhood” since he felt he might be “rejected” if in sexuality realization; perhaps also in other realizations


It is finally demonstrated that “…” did actually have a younger brother; who is a bit kept out of the … in terms of mention; and perhaps this is for protection from the hate crime incident; [(protection)] for the victim’s brother; but it is especially noticeable [note see/sea, bell]

in the trip abroad; though the reasoning might be exactly as described …

Be conscious: that the insertion of trips actually needs to be mesmerized into a protocol of standard and general knowledge outline of why any trip is taken [as in a general even a drifting away from point; as in brainstorm starter outline]


accompanying music citation: haim if I could change your mind

In the foreign environment: things appear very un-foreign [and at this point in time] in addition there is information given about victim’s friend-like relationships from the opposite gender, so far only; and unless “…” was in drag excessively which none of the photographs point to; you might want to look for actual verified surveillance and see if you recognize a character  as in this victim in drag; and-or unless “…” was transgender it seems cliché suspect that so far only seemingly women have corresponded to the excessive point about “…” cliche suspect: that all gay men, boys hang out with only women which seems to null the conception of what actually sexually and asexually gay (in the male variant) means. It’s almost a confession from these women that they believed “…” (victim) seemed sexually straight. In addition despite the foreign environment, a lot of the hangout talk seems to pertain to a college system, and less a high school system. Jumping off 10/20’s cited: fvp posting, are foreign high school environments at the time of this sequence; not actually high school; in some of the images shown the victim looks quite a lot younger than most but not all of the uh high schoolers, …

there is repeated mention of victim’s especially “short .. stature” this might be pertaining …



though his “ambitions” might be covered up; it seems clear that whatever his actual “ambitions” were, he had them (these).


As a basic present to past-time counseling intervention also called the future: correlate with him the utilisation of the gay realization with his identity, and actual ambitions then manifest these ambitions assisting him in them;

in addition “short … stature” of excessive nature might be connected to ill issues, which are witnessed earlier in footage and imagery, …


also there is mention of concern for “…” based on his attitude about … ?

and there is also a mention of the feeling that “…” hid … “to protect himself” and of course in reg. society perhaps all feel that there is a need to protect one’s self, and is this the point to something that is the hate crime


Next, the mention of his parents + brother disappears,

and all of sudden, there is information about (victim) … having been “raped”

as in any incident of crime, all cues must be checked to be validated for and against the rape; and also it’s essential to know that the description of the rape spreads the conscious that “…” did not want to be “raped.” Perhaps this is obvious; but when we consider media perhaps rumors of victim’s rumored history to gay promiscuity [past and perhaps recent past rumors but the recollection of this memory could be wrong] it seems to contradict it; and perhaps this is also another incident insertion to study gay romantic relationships perhaps even in something like a therapy group ; and study here might just mean discuss; because the assaulting rumor or not still exists: that if one or a person is gay then rape doesn’t really always have a qualification against as a conception to such persons; and this can’t be possibly uh … ?

In addition; it’s absolutely essential when a circumstance such as a “rape” happens that all friends and family and-or such colleagues are exhausted in validation checks [and not just/only strangers]; so as not to extend the release of the victim of such type of circumstance upon them incorrectly so, … and into perhaps their care or lack of it and-or lack of it-effective. In such scenario where else might the context be circumscribed … and do we have any actualized standing avenues of such, …


left-off: 22:51


Recollections from the Media, Scenarios to Consider (part one)

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Discussion Cue Notes


Reference Source, citation: * Kept Private?



“airports + …” (preferences for …)

focus on photographs by parent

looks ill in especially earlier pictures; what does ill mean here? [entry of medical prognosis point check in prior to time cue of death/ and after time cue of death]

missing recollection of mine from the media; has something like a sibling in the home environment [forgot and-or didn’t hear yet in time cue this detail]


description: set up the opposition: fine, but based on a homosexuality model: they are both the same specific gender; and so any opposition in persona manifestation should have felt at least null; is parent actually saying, that … was straight; and something else happened.



Scenarios to consider already: you are in an assaulting unjust violent family, and you start seriously dating a girl let’s say that … you haven’t done much that’s sexual yet; and the girl confesses that she is really a guy, … your parents forbid you from breaking up; and instead ascribe to you the factoid that you are or should become gay in sexuality; what does gay mean here in actuality —> the use of intellectualism in sexuality


Parents are sure that “…” “… had an awesome childhood” is there a way to ask victim of homicide this, there [through] inter-time technology: (where he feels safe; from his mannerisms it is expressed clearly that he does not feel safe (at the time they are referring to); you might ask from a combat counseling and actual militia perspective what are his conceptions of what makes him feel safe; and-or what safe means to him) and also what he qualifies as “awesome” and if he believes his beginning days were qualified as such (to the best of his recollection; and then proceed to do a match size-ability between his (actual) beginning day experiences and his workable definition of “awesome”),

Be wary of: the witnessed non-actualizing white non-cultural perspective; of the attitude we provided you with this, and so now we get to retract such-and-so from you even at the cost of your uh life and-or existence.


Be aware that this above line connection to this investigation is necessary also to developments of society actualizing comprehension of actual meeting facto of trust.


What’s to come

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referenced Source, citation: The Middle of X (2018)



Around early there is definitely a gush over a past gay romantic relationship; despite

How cliché that seems, …

With the aggressive assertion of a seemingly straight perhaps young marriage

Also these kids seem a lot older than standard high school age; was the term replaced with some other phase of development and-or was this term of high school age older than has been considered recently standard h.s. age,

“cops” showing up attempt, combined with a possible car crash, … or something like that, [theme: that’s why we say call the cops and not the “cops” and that’s why we say if you’re not sure don’t call because the “cops” may show up and not the cops; and if you really can’t help it, then/–an that’s a different context]

So there seem to be two groups [of the presumed original cluster] from the no joke: combat after “crime” analysis stand-in sight,

How was life going to take place; as if some of them had not uh died, …

The premise secret but not completely covered up is, big surprise: some of them died [or all of them?], after and before

The dis-satisfaction with the life that has happened perhaps a leniency toward the after and before caused by??, death.

The description of at least one of the deaths, …

Possible important interactional questions: were there money inheritance divisions in Philly, [especially then] In the date area the movie takes place,

Problems that yet have to be solved in society: traditions of drinking/against alcoholism,

Finally an additional reference to death and or murder in that scene; complimented by the over=assaulting persona enacting something conscribing murder and so then complemented

by addressing more sight-able jewelry, [“financial problem” mentions combined by

more notice-able or hard to miss jewelry, the connection?]

[left-off 51:49 approximately]

General-summary utilizable-s from

advanced militia nature; but pertained anywhere:

Don’t be surprised if even in straight romantic groups; there is a gay romantic backdrop [and at least; because it might not just be in or just stay in the backdrop]; at another level avoiding the general obvious; why show up that way? But don’t ignore this obvious: why not try the reverse direction to correct certain unjust hate crimes … from a society combat control perspective especially in cluster groups not moving far enough along in societal development; i.e. actual societal development is, are …

Don’t be surprised that financial problems turn up: which are a flare signifying problems somewhere and not necessarily in the groups and-or persons experience-ing the desperation of financial problems ; and so don’t be surprised when the flare appears in society actual

Don’t be surprised when such cluster groups haven’t thought more deeply about the future of society, and this includes themselves; but what’s gonna happen when you come into this segment of … society interaction

[Example: I just sit around in my house all day, which is free forever; and so I don’t interact with anyone and society [almost at all]

Answer: Yeah but the house and-or building you live in does interact with society all time long [and like in an entropy main way]


Don’t expect that alcohol remediation and-or other remediation issues are addressed in especially such cluster groups; when they manifest whether real or not; that demonstrates a connection [and perhaps finally] to actual further developing society,


Mutual Experience Visceral

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Source citation: Louise O’Neill, Asking for it



In this ya novel; the discovery of being good at something is improperly comprehended; where severely un-pleasurable translates to one being “seen … again.” cited p.102

So as a use resolution if one could somehow experience the lack of pleasure in eidher a continuum or some other way it would be [pe] possible to control when and if “seen … again.”


cited p.147 : “…, matching her cheap pink blazer.” This observation on its own is not necessarily useful unless to ascertain something of utilizability in this case of use it seems to comprehend us to deeper l’ombat knowledge of the liking obvious; which might be “cheap” or not such things are incorrectly used against (as) (others)(who-ever) to (unjustly) perpetrate onto.

As a note: *Emma seems not (in a quick flush of a read where certain details can be missed) necessarily described as comparatively poor to the onto-her: now (at present placement of the novel) but she is in often need of transportation as compared to for example her family that she lies among.

92918 cited: p.179 “ … I want to mark it, put a big black X on the date.”

Finally an explanation for “… X” ; the marking as an art symbol for supporters support —- meaning actual empathy & its translations & manifestations can imply social empathy: as in (in some way) we all went through it


[Guise of Friendliness] D.J. homicide notes, continued on; & t.f. homicide notes [:]

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-a reminder more than one person with and using this name

-correlate deceased through unjust homicide [as in correlate here meaning combined index the unjust homicide deaths]

-identifies as gay [this D.J.]

-lives in the United States

but only speaks Russian

-has multiple obsessive [sp?] crushes or rather many obsessive [sp?] crushes

-frequently aggressively pursues his crushes

Accompanying music citation: Dave Matthews band, Crush



t.f. murder notes on 9.29.18

-partner has a *thing for disabled people [criminological linguistic analysis: slanted line]

-t.f. is disabled in some way

-partner usually refuses to be photographed with t.f.; but takes many pictures/photographs of t.f.

-t.f. is taken on many outings; and it is presumed that t.f. became disabled after meeting partner; t.f. spends a lot of time with partner + partner’s brother

-t.f. and partner have a sexually active relationship.

-t.f. doesn’t like partner’s brother but feels forced to be around him [forced to do so by partner]

-t.f. is cheating on partner

Accompanying music citation: The Hollies, He Ain’t Heavy He’s My Brother



t.f homicide notes more for esp. comparative review

-is lgbtiq identified prior to death has demeanor depicting this identification

side note: don’t forget comparative notes

-is female

-died in a large hate crime involving shouting and yelling from the crowd: such as the rumored cited: Rodney king [check news] incident-riot[s]

-was definitely disabled in some way [high trigger match of comparative set]

and treated as/like a child in regard of violations toward [examples include: don’t speak up, don’t speak out, etc. [;] yet it’s unclear about what t.f. feels prior to death/homicide unjust wrong-ed /perpetrated toward about]

Counseling from an actualized militia consented to perspective as review would be to communicate with t.f. about this prior to time cue of death/unjust homicide [theme: access to past]

-as in c.c. case, t.f. perpetrators involve a guise of friendliness but then run and-or walk into t.f. in a system (to t.f.’s body + mind) perpetration hoping … it seems; to reduce t.f.’s reaction at a final attempted perpetration resulting in unjust homicide/death

Existentialism target practice: hoping uh must be hoping so best qualified in this short time as hoping

Combat tag: use a guise of friendliness (within polar) who is using a guise of friendliness

-the location of the group unjust homicide toward t.f. seems as in cited: star wars; quite far away but local country as in something like New Hampshire

-there is an onslaught exceedingly of people with seemingly children nearby t.f. especially on outings of t.f.’s assisted in some through disability and in: near the time of t.f.’s homicide unjust, especially [the onslaught of children]

Example, applications hypothetical might be: when so-and-so is in unjust danger remove the “children” and children but don’t place the “children” with the children when you remove them

-this homicide unjust seems to be dated in a pre-disability movement era but within a disability region period [as in some knowledge of disabilities exists in/to general public].

t.b. murder notes / the at least unjustly dead revival: the new meaning of prom, … continued

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-one parent acts exasperatingly happy with matching expressions such as , as happened [s/ed] [to] toward C.C.

-primary father matches C.B./B.H. (the perpetrator’s) identity

-primary father believes himself to be very close to his romantic partner but practices public infidelity; and sees himself as a ladies man; that practices multiple sexuality versions of intercourse

-primary father is confused about his gender unlike t.b.; and isn’t sure if he is male or female; as a grown adult and usually rests before getting too female

-t.b. is the younger sibling; and is not close to her older sister; her older sister has come out as a lesbian; and at some point in time, t.b.’s parents decide that t.b. has to become a boy, and if even going through a gender change operation; because otherwise they won’t have enough [wealth]. At around this time, t.b. meets a person that she starts dating; so she starts going through the gender change process as she starts dating the person she’s met. She’s in a straight relationship but is going through the gender change process.

-t.b.’s name was changed to t.b. by her parents from a name that started with an A; (similar to other such murders of this type)

-t.b.’s parents hired a hitman, or hitmen; to kill t.b. as she moved through the gender change process … because they wanted her to move out; and she didn’t want to do it, because she owned the house they lived in; and it was the only form of wealth that she had. They filed a report that they believed it was their right to hire a hitman/hitmen since they had asked her to leave; and she wouldn’t leave; and since they had raised her they believed  the house was [now, instead] theirs …

-this poses the point and problem, that these “parents” may not actually have been t.b.’s parents and [this has, did, …] became(come) more noticeable at the time that she started dating and seriously dating her one romantic partner; …  that is they (her “parents) started posing problems when she started dating her one romantic partner; before that they didn’t cause too many problems, … based on her memory: there is also the possibility that she was grabbed from her actual family at some point, in some type of social situation (movie-like) and couldn’t recall because of her age at the point of time of grabbing; this hypo-jinx builds another perpetuating estimation of guess, which is the entry of elongated and public crime …




theme: do you know what a girl, woman is uh down there; the “librarian” stalker[s] is/[r] back again to kill more people with fake children; no I am you and they say this a-loud. Uh, I’m not dead; no offense to the deceased or something

theme accompanying music citation: life is a highway rascal flatts

(resulting dangerous and severely unjust homicide) directly correlated to the time sequence of dating her romantic partner this quarantined in time sphere with gender change enforcement – points us to guilt in the non-actualizing lgbtiq “community” and as opposed to the actualized and actualizing lgbtiq community


Questions to consider, investigate: what time period did the actual murder take place in [if even in stages], where is the sister; and how did the romantic dating partner of t.b. identify his sexuality. Also who got the house [after murder]; and as review: how is actual ownership verified [outside of titles, too].


Q/A. did someone specifically unjustly

Die, and-or experience life over a property, a house, wealth, their identity, other such issues; then/-an usually as just a basic review; they own it, and that too. . . &[and] is someone lying about having that unjust experience[s] without having it: then … what? [r you still stealing those such victimized [their] properties, identities, etc. [in as…physics: ] what happens next in term of existence/non-existence]