The Stethoscope

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by Goura Fotadar (aka Mara Kudos)

d-te typed up: 091718

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tag[s]: while uh being abused, don’t do that, art analysis, bearing weights, book ideology, library studies, analysis of deployment


worked on, when then [the hen]: 8.25.18

reference citation: the Klee (that l’arte book) [to check out or not ]


unsure if this is a put-down toward the artist but reminds

me of some of

my own art from

this period [which]. In any case, image 13 on cited 13; when looking[-ed] at the proponent from table up: within minutes the top part of sketch seems [to] vibrate: pop out of the image … in additional case [I hope you catch my drift …] the drawing seems to imply a climb to the above

scented by the outlines of cloud mist

& then transposition of the first

Portion sketch from outside within

painting top fitting into the second

portion or bottom sketch

Then of course there is

a lot more like the obvious treading

on the climbing line otherwise you

might fall

in this case the sky

Determines it seems for us what

We can fall into being limited in

Harm toward us depending on

Sky as in astrophysics & entropy

All that wildness but perhaps you’d

Prefer in anthropological shamanism.

A new space?

In the meantime the

library is close-ing; I’m exhausted by homelessness and its connected ridiculous persecutions and including abuse; and I have to walk twenty minutes now to defecate with enough time to do so.

Source, reference citation. (13) on 13, KLEE, Edr. J. M. Faerna, Trs. A. Curotto

How did it find me in this library away from that library; it must be the cited: C.I.A. [hunt?][yay. right]/wr.




Notes a, sitcom

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by Goura Fotadar

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

Date: 9618, 91118

tag[s]: homicide notes i.e. is creative thought?, stream analysis (brief), lgbtiq society enforced posits, sexuality rights


Source, citation: Gilmore Girls [which one] disc 3, 6th season


theme: vague


The beginning looks like a murder scene; the only cue besides the mild lock-out and vague zooming around of the lock-out or part lock-out is a match to lgbtiq hate crimes; …

Vaguely, I recall from briefly watching snippets of this sitcom in the past that these two characters uh colloquially speaking: get together at least at some point of the sitcom sequence;

But in any case from the beginning of this motif; it’s clear that whatever actual reality that’s real this criminological [uh, thing] applies to the second appearing character in direct witnessing, was clearly self-and-by the other character identified as being gay. The gender is less clear at this point; despite the depiction of clearly one as male [2nd] and the other as female [1st in direct witnessing]

However, if you have a comparative relation; than [/next: then] perhaps as compared to the 1st character the 2nd is more male [and this is understood to be the case by both] and perhaps the same goes into the sequence of sexuality i.e. as comparatively; but this is only a perhaps …

Accompanying music citation: Tor Miller – Carter & Cash


Part Two. Outside of Sitcom


Unfamiliar people witnessed in other relevancy following individual deceased to work scenarios, and pretending that it is, was normal for them to be present at work scenarios of the deceased individual.

When penetrated by requesting assistance from higher staff at such scenarios, they either were killed themselves by the same group/and-or did nothing to help the primary v: homicide victim of this homicide.

Individual primary homicide victim identified as gay and was male, and had a series of partners that were all serious; then … at the approximate time that things were settling with most recent partner [/present partner near homicide of p.v.], the juxtaposition of this form of unholy toward lgbtiq terrorism took place [stalking veneration as described above]; and partner died during a gender related operation. [GRO] Primary homicide victim in this context: seemed unable to recover from synchronistic grief: and at this point he was killed by the group stalking him to his work scenarios.

[Parallel combat training review: with empathy for actualized clients; differing emotions either of deceit and-or of no entry emotional cognizance toward their perpetrators]


Grocery Store & Post Offices murders

[Perpetrators] They seemed unable to recall his name; and despite not being introduced to him formerly; examples: include translated to this time context reality interaction would be seeing them at the grocery store, repeatedly; and then their appearing at … victim’s work scenarios  [Primary victim seems to recall the stalkers being of/with clearly depicting unfriendliness toward him at the approach of theirs at his work scenarios, especially; in a personal seeming way; which left him feeling nervous to approach work.][Target practices would be enacting non-personal unfriendliness in general society interactional [practice]]

[Generalization techniques: work stress may correlate to such completed attempts seized by the existing entropy of such function in society. Deserves to be uh researched?]


Different Motif Operation Induction

This murder transforms the approach to love crimes : asexual {i.e. non-sexual} and sexual; … utilizing the experiences of lgbtiq deceased victims {unjustly deceased} to enforce the society reality translation of enforcing such attempted homicides [away] from happening altogether, the transposition of utility of lgbtiq such homicide experiences; perhaps needs to be operated on in context, examples; and further levitates the existance of the perpetrated upon victims. [i.e.]


Additional notes personal combat related: those psycho bitches are back at it again; their forms of heinous un-tolerable abuse; under w.y.’s uh “regime” ha. Who is the uh the ?

Accompanying music citation: j. richter at it again




Dis-infection: Rough Notes, …

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by Goura Fotadar

Date typed up: 9218, 9418

Source, citation:

(as accessed on 9218 & 9418)

tag[s]: stream analysis, word diagrams


[First] auditory note:

“[D]ysfunction” sounds a lot like dis-infection [not sure if the latter is a word; but it certainly makes sense as word, and that’s word enough; says who/says whom]

“[D]ysfunction” [when does it approximately and or equal] dis-infection

From colloquial tongue application literal translation of dis-infection (implies) diss-infection

Points us to especially myth-ed at pop 80s culture as in the 1980s has this been verified as the actual culture of what might be a literal and-or procreation of the diss, … [alpha]

Which is it … ? {almost rapid literary inference-ment}

Its “prevent[ive]” measure addresses what demonstrates severe discomfort

In essential is severe discomfort a form of like torture [?]

and so it {what, which is it …} is an anti-torture [uh, medicine]


The catch in literary inference is that association of with “asthma” What if, and perhaps this is so, this prevention needed for symptoms/experiences are only the same as the experience of “asthma” but there is a tertiary necessary follow-up difference to propagate into “asthma” this would have an analogy reference to actualized criminology. Where it intersects with medicine and-or is medicine from an academic scholar stand-point[e]:  is of course over-diagnosis of “asthma” is not criminal non-r., when this has a sense of medicinal for the [any?] sufferer-s protective effect/affect … and in the other case the opposite

In more mumbo-j: what if any sufferer was given such a diagnosis and-or is already the evaluation before [in estimation? And or validation] of what level of protection it has. And how is this protection verified. If from a social non-just-class based welfare than/en we have the conjoin-ing of such welfare with the non-prohibition of a. medicine, That may be evaluated as a literal dis-infection; and a new term of dysfunction; also propagating further now; working dysfunction and so parameter-ing in creation dis-infection.


Art diagnostics: what is the purpose other than not taking the incorrect medicine; of knowing a pill outside of for example a profession [professions] which of course involve-s this for a reason; the purpose of such a recognition?


The basic combat lesion –lesson is from the lesion and announced as legion: the noticing of the difference of “bottle” count compared to as expected; in this case: the enunciation of overwhelming nearly a third times, of the original expected amount [and of course this expectation hopes from the outside to the expectation at the known experience of the original amount preferably through practice of use of it; why since then, the habit of noticing it would be more obvious based on what but if not this way; then perhaps than as announced by such uh medical and or medical-related professional]

Continued Know, Basic-[s]: though, a “recall” at least this one is of one hopeful and or effective uh medicine as compared to another uh hopeful and or effective uh medicine; the count compared to description widens spheres of utilized measure conceptions variate-ing that this information is necessary back-ward response to previous mumbo-j



“leukotriene receptor antagonists (LTRAs)”

Word diagrams: luke trio ene

Luke trio e/ne

Luke Trio ( (when) exists)/ ((when) non-exists)

Then the pattern of what Luke is actually criminological-ly or through some other or multiple streams verified in meaning

The obvious might be another breakdown

Such as eu kl but I’m not sure I think kl is usually kg or something so eu lk (maybe) in any case, can be left off and verified at the bold line … i.e.,

Might further verify what “(LTRAs)” get pattern-ed to mean more-so, explaining possible uh …

A continuation of certain art notes; not yet posted, huh? Meditation imagination (art) àhow to cope with loss

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 Meditation imagination (art) àhow to cope with loss

The Death Project in the/ for The Fictional VolunTier Project

by Goura Fotadar

date typed up: 9218

original date, approximately: 2.17.17

tag[s]: rape attempts, ordering lists, approximated date changes, art notes, the spirit work at the fictional volunTier project, The Death Project, counseling, publications

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theme: sprinkled chocolate crumbs wipe off paper like chalk on a bored?

  • Fold the foil the two lifted folds down
  • Create a rotating jigsaw [of folds]
  • Open up the tissue
  • Drape over the foil
  • To catch/change greed: imagine that the foil inside is something actually valuable
  • Imagine the scent of the rag/tissue is even more accentuated something you can’t want to [leave] [of folds]
  • Trash the “secured” art piece.
  • [non-offensive] [stupid’s note: as in put in a trash-can]


Part Two. Accidentally left-off from some publication; so not in it, yep; I think so.


The House Shelves


back to this specific temporary art’s piece [the cymbal of d.] you might strengthen it with like nail polish but in this case I’m probably going to let it crumple dry in

for example: convenience of nail polish in the h-less life à in one of the pockets of my bag[s].

photo notes [which photo?]: in the model vase; the petal looks like a striped duck. cited: TAZO tea bottle

for The Death Project

Turn it again and you see a vase [at least] where cut and not fallen it all could have been [others like it!] stored; ‘scuse me held for a while. Art translation[basic]: you could envision slice-ly easily the vase sealed; the flower segments waxed with some substance even make-up and-or nail polish and that would be complete enough.


Temporary Death Art

aside: Cymbals of Death

It noises! A different more cymbal-istic

Noise-sound [in mean! –ing] upon the scrape of letters

The petal is an instruments from public fallen! Flower to torn for lettering

Art cymbal; an of course: symbol

theme: what happens basic re-nunciated inquiry to them when they [flowers in petals & stems & not so much seedings] die

theme lest: the flower[s] still; works as … [open-to-interpretation]

among the h-less knife.

Turn it and you sea a cliff dress cited: the witch goura series on cited: amazon kindle

Petition: To produce an Ethical Society [lessons on fiction, too: the obvious]

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by Goura Fotadar

Date typed up: 83018

[notes from long past; i.e. how long]

tag[s]: ethics, cover-ups are? … , fiction writing assistance, too, quasi-economics/ quasi-references, patrol …

[aside: criminology report one-of-the local] “ …” is sitting and circle-ing on-foot outside the obvious but through gated view this corner of-the outdoor patio; I’m not sure if she’s still at-work? But she certainly is uh into her vehicle and not in   an artistic-adventurous way. there is then a man parked parallel to her copying suit. I’m [patio: but like outside of-it.] not sure, but unless she’s really re[ally? ]exhausted, so exhausted she can’t drive home?  [the finer she: you driving through her because she doesn’t know how, in her case illegally so, and in somebody else’s case:  it might be assistance; but this time you can’t because you’re too exhausted]

Work Production Areas, Incorporated.

To report at the that obvious as much as I and I’m sure all functional homeless people appreciate the use of this public working space for work production are[s] in during open hours; the … trash outside as some of these pictures demonstrate [which pictures] has not been emptied in what seems a-while. I know some of this, and other local obvious-es staff know that for example: I’m homeless because I’ve told them so; when signing up for a … I realize that discrimination is illegal; but it doesn’t mean that s …

[Create a Model of Ethics.][Art Model.]

Perhaps:? * Start with the root of-the problem:

which is lack of ethical safety in roofed environments;

and roofed-adjunct environments.

  • Solve Problem rapidly –remove roofed: shelter-rest

situations, especially; the premise is: when you’re in a

A rest-state you likely will not be guarded enough



Report, Updated on 8.22.17 [the initial date of these notes were, when?] though; this references the that obvious ; I can attest I have this experience in nearly all local … and such in at least a 50 mile radius; and that all local … accompanying the other obvious-es are un-worthy of providing their “…” at least …


Criminology, cont.

3.5.17 It’s cold: thanks for $1.00 at cited: MCD’s to stay warm. My hands are frozen. The tradition of housed people pretending to be homeless continues here; how many women need to buy meals at approx. 9 in the morning on a very cold & wet Sunday in California. & why can’t they read the paper in-their homes. Theme: sounds like a good rap song. The line is end-less at this-time; and it’s just not believable.


The … report, continued … it’s supposed to happen. In the case of this …, I’ve been particularly & nearly physically hassle-d by only two of the … But; I think that’s still a significant amount. At the conclusion of the criminological investigation of the trash alone; and in-ordinate amounts of time during work? hours staring at esp. homeless “ “ ; and crowding/walking repeatedly behind their backs. I understand protection under workers’ rights; but such protection warrants that all those producing work; are such protected even the artist playing his fiddle in the street-corner. The point is that … are effectively committing a crime; albeit almost serious crime. Unpunished; their in-… crimes have escalated the behavior of non-functional and not functional false persecution because many locations of rest of functional in majority … are proliferated with trash by persecuting parties; these even include … public restrooms.


see images if in Disbelief.  [where are the images?]

As a … and work producer through the local … systems, I would love to take out the trash; when workers traditional and-or variant are either unable or incapable of doing so; I’d also be glad …


Examples: (of escalation-s, include) in this specific … :

Groups of men; and the same groups entering bathrooms in too much repetition; and walking very let’s say characteristically?

I understand physical conditions which may require frequent bathroom time;

Since I have a few of-such conditions; but still

The Star Glab: Is this fiction

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The Death Project for The Fictional VolunTier Project

by Goura Fotadar

on 82717

theme: scuse, if there are typos the public computer flares orange in its time zone.

Theme music citation: glass animals, black mambo

tag[s]: while you’re short on public computer time because all those “pregnant” bitches need to pretend that they are also in the cited: C.I.A. attitude and that’s why they have that attitude; uh?, fiction building, fashion for deployment activity, recognition of cues; how to get everything across in lingo: communication of combat [no, this is not a conversation, you can have one after comprehension], religion, cited: The Death Project, combat pop notes, political combat

I didn’t have the time to type up this cited: asics thing; and that’s not the pun of the wheel in how I mean cited: asics;

I’ve realized “the obvious” which is what that want; you is; is rather the festering of how you cannot perform in those things; are absolutely cited: tide. Tied to the deployment life; you might wonder that those in advanced militia life; disguised from all of society; until finally seen;

For example: under false arrest by false cops; called on you on repetition because why [only to have your highest militia title announced over-the-phone by them in your uh “arrest”]? Well you’re deployed in the circumstances of regular society, and compared to advanced militia their i.q. well just isn’t. For example, their conception of wealth is laugh-able. What I’m finding out and this almost sounds like it should go into the depth of an addition to cited: The Four Interviews; and what they obviously pronounce; is their belief that is for sure that you can’t afford you own house anymore because your work just doesn’t deserve to get paid in a form of wealth that housing accepts,

{Like they own housing spaces and spacing and space buildings  and spaces; who does? Well a good guess, would be uh, me. Their titles make me laugh. When you have a title it has to go on the side of Above Ownership [yup like fiction]; or else it doesn’t count; it’s a joke to laugh about. And as a hint: even actual thoughts make you uh wealth somewhere in the world and universe it appears. Blink Thought and your wealth is produced.}

As a result, they are convinced that you are a drug addict, a non-reforming criminal on the-run,

 dead ad: living dead?,

mentally ill, and inescapable-ly suicidal, and if not that un-functionally mentally retarded …

[and what if you actually are in one of these categories or more than one?]

How else might one have / be(come) homeless?

And how are the bills really getting paid. {they will say, they don’t the higher bills don’t get paid, the news says we’re always in debt. Uh, … How do you really understand what is being said in this place of Right Now: Injustice, }

Sometimes I want to laugh at their aptitude and a lot of times I know I can just call an execution and fire in; somewhere over the cited: rainbow. But they then start to hallucinate that they really are the cops and fire marshals, even donning uniforms and guns; ha ha, how would you know the difference between militia and what poses as militia, … ha ha and even recently their hallucinations have included that they are in the c.i.a. They even use my first name, and that’s funny.

Can you imagine who would be named such [first, last]. Outside of false royalty; what do we really get royaliz-ed as; if for example … you

[were born a cited: C.I.A. operandi/operative or its actual ilk wouldn’t you be the real form of royalty and not some bitch cheerleading at the high school next door ha ha traditional parental love they’re convinced that my dad didn’t love me because of this and I even have hoax parent names on my legal birth certificate that I carry around Of course me and the actual parent look almost exactly alike and he’s often in uniform ha ha ha theme: wah! Your dad didn’t love you that’s why you were a cited: C.I. A. operandi and now you’re dead [but I’m not] and so you deserve to be homeless; their aptitude if you can call it that asserts that this is why folks become homeless; they don’t actually understand unjust misery and also they don’t understand unjust persecution toward others they believe they created what happens ha ha sometimes that turns into a confession that we can persecute in an actual justice system not tainted by their pornographic dreams of non-welfare what they could do with all of that assistance ha ha ]

are and they are; are they actually as review on that many clouds above you;

and how come they are in the homeless population [cloud who].

Well? Have you spent many years persecuting the homeless, pretending to be homeless yourself [Duh: deployment as approved by? doesn’t count as that form of pretense]  and draining all [of] their resources; have you seen the lines in shelters; I mean it’s not as if the whole country is homeless; perhaps we should try that; and fire all “staff” that I haven’t myself hired {I’m still not that old yet; we could hope I reach 45 one day soon still a wee bit off}. We’ll see how you feel, when they tell you you have to do a job and for [as in referring to] the actual homeless [live a lifestyle] wear where [catch it] you can’t wear these:  [get it, can the homeless actual wear these; why not says basic fashion combat procreation/comprehension] {& how basic}



Illicit Weapons in Action

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dates typed up on: 82418, 82518, 82618

tag[s]: societal perspective norms and societal perspective norms intel as compared to actualized norms, patrol in stream analysis

combat review [from where]: “pay attention” and disregard those that don’t “pay attention” to you unless it’s demonstrated to you for a reason of comprehension such as in cues of who to disengage from: [as also demonstrated from recent real life cues]

and on such determinant cue: when to actually ” … pull- away …” as the title cue command suggests and directs

The “pull- away…” implies use of a weapon which also implies use of a weapon illicitly in what the actual meaning of illicit is [and perhaps not what might be defined in public or elsewhere as illicit; as a review, … how to actually qualify and validate what is illicit versus not so.]

There is also the reference to implication of deeper combat applications: such as, criminal fixations; and then how these are directed in the direction of reform; and those that can’t reform


The problem on-going that doesn’t match especially my generation: is the desperation presumed that women in this generation and not just women pretending to be in this generation through digital enhancement experience for romantic relationships; especially straight romantic relationships; … so this implies instead a different fragment: gay romantic relationships and-or asexual [i.e. non-sexual] same gender friendships and-or a double, and even triple and higher quantity fragment: a gay romantic relationship from a previous generation is perhaps more likely given the lack of connection to this actualized’s generation


The obvious review of the incorporated video as cited below:

the main emblem is the option of rape is now part at whichever actual time corresponding cue to these versions of romantic relationships [and this is not meant in homophobic meaning but and and also translates to the now straight or seemingly seen straight dynamic and also asexual (non-sexual) dynamic]; and this is cue to how to catch such attempted and-or sequentially attempted rapes which is translated to “text” exchanges that are used as cues of either completed rape caught; and-or initial and sequential attempts

theme: I’m highly offended by what you said, especially about Elsa.

[and this is where I left off]

Source, citation: Email list, E. Stone, He pulls away when he’s lost this…

as accessed on 82418 & also this video as accessed through the same citation: as also accessed on 82518