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by Goura Fotadar

 

Date[s]: 71817 & 72717

On break : [from posting?]

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Reviews of Relevance

How we came [two]

Basique logic. [one P]

 

 

 

a) “discharged” => [“but”] => now, expect an instead of what is reported as status quo : and as has been found;

“he did not go home.”

 

b)

 

“He was home”  I’m sorry! but this and the next line sub-line implies that he was deployed there; if even you didn’t otherwise, know it.

 

“He stayed on in Vietnam , …”

 

c) If you continue with “home”

than it is certain?

that the curtain

of how you

will make your

way must be

had?

Theme: further proofs logic?

“… finding a way to

make a living with his camera … “

 

d) “French War”

|

\/

“evolved”

 

[ ] ?

le “Vietnamese” :

le “American War,”

 

“ … he turned to

photojournalism … “

 

so the way on

one road already existing

: “ … his camera”

has a coinciding name:

 

“photojournalism”

 

source, cited: p. 31 second

right paragraph, a part of

[see photograph]

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from cited: text as referenced
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from cited: text as referenced
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from cited: text as referenced

; Vietnam

The Real War; The AP, I B

Pet Hamill ; [updated; corrected through another front; or rather more correctly perhaps: Pete Hamill]

 

2nd almost cliché source, cited:

rose major line, Shakespeare,

R & J, 9th grade

past provision level

 

Reticence

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Reticence

handwriting

by goura fotadar

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

dates: 72517-72617

I. Summary Analysis

a) from / of p. 1

[1] source, citation text: (OH BEDIZENED ONE! … ) VOL. 1, ISSUE ONE, 2016, LOTUS

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cited: picture of cited source text [1]
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same caption relevance as above cited text cited image as referenced

 

b) sequence regurgitates of college not quite but like trauma … so

college trauma-like:

” As the New Year draws near, it’s a hilarious day in California where all the banshee women and the frail-voiced poets are getting the better word, … ”

… “… draws near”

imagining a curtain [everything else is then stage] and with curtain;

does it matter? [how much] what any external to non-stage-non-curtain is.

 

The act about to come is:

-> “… New Year”

the setting is a high-energy or “hilari[ty]”

the emotion: it’s rare or hasn’t been the most past case that they have been “getting the better word, … ”

 

the

know : they are then

a connected

group by either

not having

” …[gotten] the better

word … ” or

by “… getting

” it now.

 

pull out of stage.

—– —– —-

relational dynamic:

the connection:
” … all the banshee

women and the frail-

voiced poets …”

here; it says and [;] and-not

or:  [“ban”] [“she”][“-e”]

“-e”

experience [of]

“ban … ” “she …”

 

& perhaps? “and” a

connection to “… the

frail-voiced poets … ”

 

since they cannot “voice”

to stop the

“ban … ” “she … ”  [please: I hope ‘ou understand “ban:” “she” as an item]

-> it gives us a hint

of the livid and perhaps

unpleasant experience of

being a ” … banshee” and

also to the affective effect

of poetry; likely also known

as power.

without “voice”

is to “voice”

or can be

in “poet …” ry

and so “e”,

“ban” “she”

is confirmed thru

text; to

be no longer?

unpleasant.

[include photograph][of text].

 

II. The answer to the

quandry [quandary] [sp.] of career

counseling must-haves.

 

[2] source, cited: pattern,

orla kiely ; from

introduction …

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cited image of cited text [2]

[a] “absor[ption]” an example

thru experience of what you

want to do …

 

[b] “[work] … experience ”

you must qualify …

… ” … likes and

dislikes, and to understand

when an idea was good, when

to stop, when to go on … ”

 

[c] Reticence

of owning work!

; your own work.

 

“What I like most is

that my work is

identifiable; it has

established its own handwriting

and stands out as mine.”

 

[art: draw “handwriting”]

C.M. Review.

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C.M. Review.

Part One. Posted as of 72417;

Tag[s]: criminology

\rough draft/

 

Part Two. How to begin a-once all c.m. order on yourself or your functional group working system[s]; to prevent inaccurate [in-…/] un-effective non-criminal but volatile and violent arrest of the accuracy of you [identity] and your career.

Untitled

 

Theory basics and hypotheses: not all arrests are criminal or have criminal causes; if even you are a reformed or reforming criminal. In the other scenario; that you are a non-reformed criminal; all arrests and atrocities are connected to crime wrongs.

Theme [basics and hypotheses] music citation: The Cure Boys Don’t Cry

 

Scenario; The Cure to what happens if you are illegally court martial ordered; and you don’t know how to respond; and-or can’t remember every detail of your life: Remember the basics of your resume and locative geography [in a basic history].

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for The Fictional VolunTier Project

 

Part two, Continued. Man[dated] internally. Rough Draft. Say, it’s fiction?

Non-infiltrating. {using myself brief as an example.}

 

Tag[s]: military provisions and non-militaristic evaluations; who is doing them; and how; legal debacles external overcome and overseen.

 

[A Repeat Maybe of some.]

a  … Where all did you re/call growing up; and what was it like in quality of:

-temperature, seasonal temperature; recollections of allergies and at what age.

 

{I’ll use myself as an example:}

  1. New York and S.F. on the streets with my original family; and in lavish dineries in especially those locations and works spaces that they owned; or own. On prestigious college campuses; where they were doctoral students & students and or teaching faculty; but still in/on the streets and not in housing; [Extravagance in clothing and other knowledge based items or rather extreme extravagance.]

 

The provider of self-experience: wishes to acknowledge that the repertoire of prestige is not used to insult; and or assume that other educational frameworks are inferior; but rather how this experience was for some reason equivocally at that time; defined.

 

  1. Next among a host of child kidnappers who were highly strung out on illegal drugs and activity; and uncaught of high uncivil violence;

Next in Tibet and Korea; in self-assigned condominium style apartments and specialized dance and educational facilities.

 

  1. Mostly in the San Francisco Bay Area; in the ghetto area of a suburb without heat, use-able and a/c; without food most years; and with a tiny clothing budget; only being able to afford “free” books; and not always public transportation; without most of my original relatives; but not all; with access for some to elevated forms of traditional and especially group played sports [affordable]; and with lower access to non-traditional less affordable singularly played sports.

 

Briefly in *Sub-Saharan Africa as an effective or something like a cited: slum dog

Briefly in cult led centers in some part of *Africa; un-identified as a non-aslyum enforced member of a non holy un-religious dangerous cult.

 

Temperature in SF BAY AREA: where I was mostly: [Zone area specifics]

Cold to not that hot.

Never snowy; and not rainy that often.

No allergies until the age of 13 when I became *enforced into vegetarianism, for over a decade or a tad longer. Even without regular formal education development; high access to affordable and elevated forms of education, soon enough. After vegetarianism: allergies to milk and not to all dairy; and [to] all forms of grain. [Cured: mildly in avoidance through excessive stints of veganism][Finally effectively functional in practice cured through the expensive advanced version of a cited: Paleolithic diet.] [in Adulthood though the dietary curative modifications over vegetarianism exercised.] Extreme, high access to actually devote; and various faith and inter-religious communities and systems. Higher education unrelenting access and still affordable access. Connections to other higher education access; in other locale centers and with affordability.

 

C.M. Order [How to survive, personals]

Don’t play traditional sports; otherwise others won’t be able to afford them.

Don’t expect [a] formal education.
Expect Informal forms of higher education: college, adult school, community college, supplemental college, and all pertaining career-jobs; [work, work, work, work, work, work, …,  ]

 

b … How many schools did you attend and where can you recall including various forms of primary school. Explain any stand out significance in training.

 

Ballet school through original family, and completion performance overseas. Can’t remember where.

Then More non-conventional Dance: Martial Arts Combat Central Asian Dance school when completed an, original father’s dance proof in final performance; specified training through independent tutoring in set theory and linguistics through original family and I think in Central Asia. [In Between Kidnappings.]

Then a private school in the Bronx, New York; where I learned nothing; but finished the 6th grade at age six. [I think.][Heavy Discrimination experienced toward myself and other children-kids from their parents and school staff; based on a.a and j heritage; neither that are mine non-culturally; i.e. these are not my race-religion heritages outside of through cultural exposure.]

Then kidnapped again to upper-middle class Bay Area neighborhood; moved into a property informed that my original family owned; one of many,  and another one of my trust funds, stolen; by my child kidnappers; performed poorly academically except … or something like poorly in regular classes; but not in non-regular coursework or at all poorly in non-regular academic coursework. Turned a proof into a local bank; and moved my brother and myself and one adult who wasn’t allowed to visit or actually move in; into a condominium; informed that my child kidnappers owned the condominium in the ghetto of the bay area now; instead of me; and that we had to accept an adult, aged roommate. First roommate was anti-semitic; and repeatedly asked to molest me and my brother. Entered a gifted educational program that I petitioned for; and after three years at the e. s. level; felt college educated. Perhaps was; through national exam competency score ranges. Continued into then traditional school; and experienced the removal of most forms of formal education in school. Until roughly twelfth grade; where once formal school was removed I was ranked one of the poorest performing academic and in all facets including behaviorally students in my native and Sub-Saharan school districts.

 

Connecting Aside With Safety In-Tact.

Got employed at some food place, through anti-racist racist banter; and started remedial college; then switched to regular community college; was overall an above average student; both at work and school; transferred to likely the most prestigious university in the world; entered a forfeit year due to external and dangerous following ghetto drama … after the forfeit year; most grades or majority of grades remain unmarked in the wrong direction; entered a prestigious career after college; and then a specific prestigious educational program [or a facet program] at a less prestigious supplemental graduate school; after years of working; my brother died in combat; and somebody of the ghetto but not from it I think was still impersonating him; [Q. when I speak which brother do I refer to. The Impersonator[s?] continued to request I refer to him as my brother;]  I was being dangerously threatened and stalked, and for the first time in my life threatened legally. I fled and entered the homeless life of my early childhood; I was then legally but vocally mandated? to return “home” to my child kidnappers who I had almost never minus a few years at community college lived with as an adult; and things turned a head; when they repeatedly requested again the identity of that deceased brother; and all those like him. Non consenting I was then falsely institutionalized and put through a c.m. as a civilian; they completely lost the hearing and told a criminal level many lies; and I was released onto the streets; perhaps never to return to a conventional housing system for me again; due to the danger inflicted upon me and society in general and risen at the time of my brother’s combat death by my kidnapped family. So goodbye to traditional housing and traditional work offices. [Something else is that what.]

c … Related to educational school and or something such like; what do you do and what did you do for a career. Start with your first paid or non-paid job, until now [present time]. Explain any actual discriminations as you might have experienced them.

 

[Pre-face: In Tradition or Something like tradition career facets]

[numbers in brackets represent age approximations of employment and or work completed]

  1. House, Formal Shelter, …  cleaner. [9- forever? ]
  2. Swim Instructor in training. [14]

—out of country, till [17]

  1. Ice Cream Server and Ice Cream Cake Person and Distributor; Sub-Manager [17]
  2. Cafe Worker in a Gym; Involved Repeated Heavy and Extreme Heavy Lifting  … [17-18]
  3. Temporary [E.S.] Heavy Lifting Food Server in a Cart to Hotel Rooms [18/19]
  4. A Series of Reception Type Jobs through parts of college et al [19-22]
  5. Research Assistant Positions Encompassing Primarily Engineering, Chemistry, Editing Proofing and Psychology Analysis, [22-24]
  6. [Intern to Consultant] Writing Work outside of College [24 to past college completion]
  7. [Consultant] Copywriter, Editing Person, Proofreader, CopyProofing Person, Fashion Stylist in Clothing Formality; CW-E-P-W, Especially as a consultant in Publishing and in High Academia and Business Publishing [25-28]
  8. Misc. Volunteer Specified Work otherwise not classified: Crisis and Suicide Prevention [22-25], [27], Helping others Learn American Speaking English [23 and a tiny bit at 25], Isolated Eldercare In Personal Contact [23, and then as needed]
  9. Crisis and Suicide Prevention & Response / Counselor / Manager Crisis Shifts [28, 29, 30, 31,][absence left off briefly at 31 …][then continued, 31-32][Left at 32 due to stalking and violent threats concerning the impersonation of my deceased brother and others like him; making up a story that was not believable connecting to the subject death so that my co-workers [some of them] would leave me alone and actually let me go to find safety.]
  10. at 31, [from 31-32] Elevated Alternative Meditation Instructor Through Independent [Self Run] Business [on the side, of other work]. Ran as 30% charity, 90% paid non exact charity. Population relevance: the severely disenfranchised elderly, and other such age; groups [recovering drug addicts, etc.; [severe] heavily abused teenagers, etc.]; but also for generalized elderly, too.
  11. What I do now, … uh. It’s not that hard to find it.

 

 

d … Actual Higher Education Degrees or Their Equivalent and Study GPAs;

B.A. UC Berkeley [Psychology]: 3.6

Near complete or like complete MA Saint Mary’s College of California [Counseling Psychology]: 3.9

Various training certificates: Elder Group Leading something or the other; I can’t remember what else; something like a string of technology certificates; and food service certificates; [no gpa]; community college coursework for many years; not sure but something like a 3.5 g.p.a there in that system

e … Drug-Alcohol Abuse & Mental Illness History: None; but mandated accusation as of late 2016 [and also legally in 2013] while situationally hostage by kidnapped “family” and also same for mental health diagnosis; fortunately or not; failed to meet the standards for both. [d-a-a and m.i.]

f … Criminal Status; Never committed crime; never been to jail; but too frequent high volatile police interaction often but not always group to one [me as the one]; starting in early childhood, going up till now.

g … Deployment Status: Never have been officially deployed; have never carried weapons anywhere or at all; and am of civilian status.

h … Recollection of original non-kidnapped family: of Jewish origin partially; I’m not jewish though; and of Asian origin; primarily central Asian the other part; or rather mostly but not just that circumstantial heritage; many brothers; and cousins; more than one parental adult; but one primary father. Many more men than woman of significance or male to female in family; something like 50 to 5 or 7.

i … Develop a wealth model to qualify wealth status per sphere sector. [Where]

 

Born with an enormous [how large?] trust fund;

Kidnapped repeatedly and eventually into dire poverty; without personal access or beneficence from trust fund;

Moved into middle class once in four year college; and stayed such despite working class pay until homelessness a few years, ago; now despite no residence with work compensation: I’m not sure despite homeless status and no money work; if I qualify as even close to poor. More like, compensated and needing still … ?

 

 j … History with Authority Figures

Repeated Truancy with Majority of Designated Authority Figures; inability to comprehend majority of designated authority; designated codes of conduct and also; fall onto rules; exceptions to this interactional experience; examples include: repeated volatile arguments and fights; and belief in racist attitude of most of society’s designated authorities. Examples of truancy: tardiness; strong iterative speech; and deflecting body movement; non response in interactional inquisitions; and general violence exerting self-control. In general; over my: gong! 36 years I have found most not all authority figures to be a waste of space and time; and an unjust danger to society. I have exerted extreme self-control to never commit crime despite repeated unjust and violent exhibitionistic threats from most societal authority figures. Exceptions include but are not limited to some college professors and such ilk. It is my observant belief that most designated authority figures in society commit frequent non-reformed crime; and, openly break civil rights.

 

Recent Experiential Infringements include: Threats and enactments of tasering from “police officers” when I wouldn’t let them steal my stuff; threats to call “police” and “security” from public designated authorities when I would not break the law; and a general solicitation to use me as not just a prostitute but effectively a working slave. [This is not a joke!]

 

Related Aside[s].

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X How to stay safe when assigned to society under the code of formal and incompetent authorities; Let anyone who makes you feel unsafe know; and even if they pretend it’s the other way around; be honest by of your experience of what’s happening; including in times of violent threat; in a society where there are very few public non-incompetent authorities; “things” are rarely as safe as they seem.

 

X Staying Safe Non-Weapon, Codes of Conduct:

If he-she gets too close to you: Shriek!

If he-she gets too personal with you: Say you feel uncomfortable.

If he-she get[s] … attempts to hit you: Don’t walk away; but back out.

Even if you trust them! Or think you do, don’t lend your phone out! Direct them to another evocative phone call procedure. You have a right to your safety given what is your actual trauma history.

 

X Re-evaluation of Basic Needs Based on Work Entropy and Without Cash Revenue:

-Enough Food; Fulfilled and ongoing fulfillment as of 7-17 [Three Primary Transports]

-Enough Clothes and Shoes, Including Catastrophe and Safe R.S.[s] and utensils [of R.S.[s]]; Just starting to meet fulfillment of regularity as of 7-17 [Three Primary Transports]

-More Petitional Actual Security of Belongings and Work-Related Belongs; meeting regularity as of 6-17 [One Primary Transport]{Hint: You have to find … f or F}

-Transportation Rights; Meeting Functionality of Modality as of late 2016

-Career Counseling?

-Health Insurance and Cellphones Fulfilled; and of fulfillment [but former not entirely accessible or conveniently accessible]

-Public Work Spaces; Still not meeting Functional Standards as of 7-24-17

-Diplomacy connecting to rest cohort groups is barely existing; with those outside of group pretending to be in group; and especially without need; keeping others of need possibly out.

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k … Marriage and Dating History; in adulthood [after 18, only]:

Divorced after a short-term marriage to one of my college boyfriends; prior to that serious boyfriend; had another serious boyfriend in college, i.e. prior to boyfriend I married and divorced [in adulthood]. After divorce next boyfriend was less serious; and went missing. Dated one other person briefly, after this. Am currently unwed, not-dating; and qualified as divorced, unwed.

The graph looks like this:

[after 18:]

A serious boyfriend;

Break-up, another serious boyfriend-> marriage -> divorce

Another not serious boyfriend, who went missing? [Reported, the incident.] -> After missing, dated one other person and ended that non-serious dating relationship.

 

 

 

 

 

A definition of discipline

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A definition of discipline

Remember to include photograph of the cited: text;

06.24.17

Non-fiction:-à for the … []

Reference: [cited] “EVERYTHING IS TEETH” by “EVIE WYLD” “[I/B] … JOE SUMNER”

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cited: image from source, cited: text

Therapy: Art Reality; the same source Notes

An innovative way to form

Your own reality with what

Already exists; using

Possibly something

[Dedicated to e.d.]

  • – – – – – – – — – –

Such as; control:

Theme: ?

Theme music citation:

Janet Jackson,

                 Control.

 

 

 

— .

“After school he lies

On the sofa, flipping through

The channels, never letting

Anyone get more than two

Sentences out.”

 

Aside note[s]: what’s the

Difference between a world

And a story.

 

Notice “channels”

“flipping through

the channels”

72017

Control: how smart! This

Type of it.

 

“flipping

Through the

Channels” =>

 

an existing view of

a world: the t.v.?

world with connections

through “channels” to

other worlds

 

from t.v.? world

we have t.v. ?

view of

for example :

tarantula world =>

 

and soon? we

can if we want?

Enter tarantula world =>

 

Notes:

Don’t forget man[dated] internally

Non-infiltrating for the

Alive past 1st I-Q

w-r civil [and this

means in how it falls]

c.m.o. [s] the pro-

sess

 

but in the mean;

time,

 

“… never letting

Anyone get

More than

Two sentences

Out …”

 

|

\/

Is a method to

Yes controlling

That; and those

World[s]; at such time; to

A bee better word.

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Learn About the World of Book, this.

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by goura fotadar

date typed up: 72117

p.4 from [main] source, cited: Michael Faber, The Book of Strange New Things

06.24.17

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“-hitchhiker” – chiaroscuro around bodies

tells you what that who is

carrying and if it’s its; how do

create chiaroscuro you; like

that not so much swap the location

of the parts; but blur[e] the

like in

that meditation

<— lines with your sight; see and

qualify that smudge; and return

What doesn’t belong. [How.]

p. 5 “the mouth … jaw” – can be a-a starry sky thematic additional citation: v. van gogh and not … night?

p.6 “crisis” – is synonymous with “Christ” one is “blasphem[…]ous” and the other is not.

Vision Notes/

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by Goura Fotadar

date completed, effectively: 71917

theme: art notes more of for the v blog

theme-1: door connection

 

this chopper looks like a reverse front; which is … ; and for art; more; figure out how come. or why.

cited: image from the MCMS [see image]

added to with scribble.

stake

motor notes: it’s also supposed to be a joke the description caption provided soon above; it’s obvious why it does or did look this way / method in photograph captured; up because of the symbol. [That’s the joke; how come; well that’s how come.]

if you see it that far; then of course; you see the m-cycle.

Title: Vision Notes.

acurb

it’s not a word; but it might be.

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it’s not a word; but it might be.  , renundated

to post to work on for the v blog in the series sequence of posts, make the meaning as/of renundated

for The Fictional VolunTier Project
by goura fotadar
date typed up: 71417
theme: for the next cited: the witch goura, hopefully; finally.
gatewaydatetopost71417
the obvious game.
re nun dated

once again; the nun experience;

empowerment: once again, the nun experience; is no longer “dated” or was dated or more relevantly transformed to; that’s not what “dated” means anymore; it means instead of date, to relevant.

non-empowerment sorry sweethearts: once again; the nun experience [who? you] dated

cited: something like fiction [post] of at least today

less non-empowerment sorry sweethearts or ex sweethearts: once again; the nun experience [who?] dated

renundated means also; then why is dating relevant in significance or [something]

to think of dating; experiences, dating: definitions; other than traditional versions of romantic;

for example, out on a date; with your dog / or a dog, actual.

part two. what would you wear as a nun, uhm; non explicit nun; perhaps:

to add to line of part two; what you would wear as a non; uhm non-explicit; out on a date with your dog / a dog.
fixed; part two. what would you wear as a nun; ; uhm non-explicit; out on a date with your dog / a dog.
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cited: link that was accessed as it appeared through cited: youtube on 71417
http://us.shein.com/Color-Block-Full-Length-Dress-With-Pockets-p-356630-cat-1727.html