art analysis

Mutual Experience Visceral

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by Goura Fotadar

Date typed up on: 101318

tag[s]: reading notes, and art symbolism further utilized for welfare basic modeling


Source citation: Louise O’Neill, Asking for it



In this ya novel; the discovery of being good at something is improperly comprehended; where severely un-pleasurable translates to one being “seen … again.” cited p.102

So as a use resolution if one could somehow experience the lack of pleasure in eidher a continuum or some other way it would be [pe] possible to control when and if “seen … again.”


cited p.147 : “…, matching her cheap pink blazer.” This observation on its own is not necessarily useful unless to ascertain something of utilizability in this case of use it seems to comprehend us to deeper l’ombat knowledge of the liking obvious; which might be “cheap” or not such things are incorrectly used against (as) (others)(who-ever) to (unjustly) perpetrate onto.

As a note: *Emma seems not (in a quick flush of a read where certain details can be missed) necessarily described as comparatively poor to the onto-her: now (at present placement of the novel) but she is in often need of transportation as compared to for example her family that she lies among.

92918 cited: p.179 “ … I want to mark it, put a big black X on the date.”

Finally an explanation for “… X” ; the marking as an art symbol for supporters support —- meaning actual empathy & its translations & manifestations can imply social empathy: as in (in some way) we all went through it



The Stethoscope

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by Goura Fotadar (aka Mara Kudos)

d-te typed up: 091718

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tag[s]: while uh being abused, don’t do that, art analysis, bearing weights, book ideology, library studies, analysis of deployment


worked on, when then [the hen]: 8.25.18

reference citation: the Klee (that l’arte book) [to check out or not ]


unsure if this is a put-down toward the artist but reminds

me of some of

my own art from

this period [which]. In any case, image 13 on cited 13; when looking[-ed] at the proponent from table up: within minutes the top part of sketch seems [to] vibrate: pop out of the image … in additional case [I hope you catch my drift …] the drawing seems to imply a climb to the above

scented by the outlines of cloud mist

& then transposition of the first

Portion sketch from outside within

painting top fitting into the second

portion or bottom sketch

Then of course there is

a lot more like the obvious treading

on the climbing line otherwise you

might fall

in this case the sky

Determines it seems for us what

We can fall into being limited in

Harm toward us depending on

Sky as in astrophysics & entropy

All that wildness but perhaps you’d

Prefer in anthropological shamanism.

A new space?

In the meantime the

library is close-ing; I’m exhausted by homelessness and its connected ridiculous persecutions and including abuse; and I have to walk twenty minutes now to defecate with enough time to do so.

Source, reference citation. (13) on 13, KLEE, Edr. J. M. Faerna, Trs. A. Curotto

How did it find me in this library away from that library; it must be the cited: C.I.A. [hunt?][yay. right]/wr.



Osmosis: Another consciousness transposition

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by Goura Fotadar

date: 8618

tag[s]: art analysis, blah, rehearsal for what?, uh is this fiction or this is fiction, computer as a stage stuff, counseling tactics

[also in this form: fvppostingon8618]

Source, citation: BRIDE’S GUIDE to Wedding Music Volume II

The damp clothes squeezed out; and the trespassing danger of those that perpetrate on you in the past; a past life you can’t quite recall; is that the case; or isn’t it the case; then of course you can’t actually avoid or can you looking at the cover now up on the front of the computer to the side of the screen; or rather called also a side-screen.

In the end or at this place; a bookmark becomes; the recognition of this is regular classical isn’t it. Oh wit.

Then you tap in and it seems to disappear a bit at the same speed; and all of a sudden comes back but quieter; every speaker on this library’s systems broken by a menacing group who don’t believe in the use of recovering from violent abuse by listening and actually being able to hear music.

Lucky we are; to be able to see it this is the end of cited: 1.


cited: 2

At the moment I recognize listening to the next; I push in the earbuds and only then can I hear on yes, this broken speaker I should really say headphone contact with computer; that the greenery is growing like uh my fiction at least; matching the cover.


After the details and cited: headers; it zoning on it again; almost seems to die; like a plane finally actually away from its former location; onto its for now [signs of temporary] destination.

cited: 3

Don’t forget to listen to this one; and even if you have to zone out the rest of the uh surroundings. I don’t know what they would say but by a step into what seems the middle; yes, you are literally in church; how is this literal.

At cited: 4

You are now in the conception even in the beginning of this one; of the literal way.

Uh, what is that; with this as your tool, using:

The typing of kids on the keyboards is way too loud as compared to most computers’ hear internal speakers or what’s that connecting headphones; do you think they are crying for help. Perhaps the “police officers” are and will be able to help them. This of course isn’t the kids area; but the “librarians” don’t care how cumbersome it is to have to babysit other people’s children; when instead …

One stage of the literal way.

At cited: 5

It’s going to happen. Oh my! She’s going to get married. And you weren’t sure. Is this a sign of culture; or rather acculturation. Outside thoughts: why does it have to be she; well that’s what the cover of the art says.  We’ll see maybe the food will be good. And what is good food.


[and that’s as far as I want to go, for now here]


More Art Notes from Then: When [than/?]

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by Goura Fotadar

Date typed up: 8218

tag[s]: finally, getting r-through that notebook; and to think, while working on another publication is being worked on around all that stuff, art unseen or not recently seen or … always almost unseen: how to comprehend make; i.e. art analysis; contemplations of fiction from uh a beggar of “society”; contemplations of “society” = “that doesn’t actually produce, but may pretense to …” versus society = that produces

[also in this form: fvppostingon8218]



More art notes for the fvp on 2.17.17 : A moment to breathe: a re-consideration of how to add an art to trash:

tag[s]: diagram art, continued; and a fashion’s notes; the art of hygiene, art observation, too; more appropriate sorry not photographed instructions:

ingredients: * a chocolate’s foil wrapper [this one’s gold]

*something like a “hygienically” used tissue

*and with some version of a scented’s flavoring

theme: a crawling spider

*a moment to breathe /> arrow to slanted to the heading

The construction of something like a flat panel tunnel from

Foil: so fold foil with a gap between the two folds of non-foil segment; ¾ of the way complete; and 1/5 of the way complete lift the folds and slightly by a tenth of the fold cuff-one in the opposite direction creating a non-hardened Asian style; central Asian incense holder overall-look; then take … it might also start to look like a kimono and-or such-like robe; then take the tissue and create a drape of the outside of the foil:

theme: oh my god,  but I can’t see it [but if even the photograph isn’t available, is that the only less-an, here]

[t.b.c./Goura, remember … what you couldn’t keep [art, self-art sentiment: enough work, and it’s kept everywhere/nowhere/anywhere … and so goes on]]

Analysis of caveat such as; i.e. wine; & part one, …

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Br. Ja. further related to murders investigation


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for The Fictional VolunTier Project

by Goura Fotadar

Date typed up, on: 72218

tag[s]: de-clinging murder related notes, murders connected to gender & sexuality & family systems, political criminology, cited: bible analysis a.k.a religious study, combat intelligence scholar integration


Date on: 072118

Part One.


-multiple logue using this name [these initials, Br. Ja.]

-this one has at least one sister that lives with him

-is male

-there is another older male around [in the environment] who wants Br. Ja. [this one] to call him “dad”.

-“Dad,” wants to go on lots of trips with Br. Ja.

-“Dad,” doesn’t invite Br. Ja.’s sister on any trips.

He selects another “sister” for Br. Ja. and gets him engaged to his original sister … in a public ceremony.

-Next “Dad” plans a pre-wedding honeymoon: and goes with Br. Ja. on the honeymoon instead of sister, original.

-Dad invites new [fake] sister to honeymoon and enforces dating between Br. Ja. & [fake] sister

-it wheels-feels like the world is just starting

-[fake] sister reveals that she is actually a man, and that he is also “Dad’s” wife; and so other, another “Dad” also to Br. Ja. & his original sister.

-Br. Ja. [for this one, in identity; implying more than one person using this name] is a name change from original name, initials K.P. [a repeat of another set of same names for different identities: peoples]

(the culture of: oh, it’s not this Br. Ja. … it’s this Br. Ja.)

cited: stonewall homicide connections


Part Two. Analysis of caveat such as; i.e. wine

tag[s]: artistic theology through channel; data: stream, analysis; literary theology; also for the cited: vhp


cited stanza 11 last sentence in “JUDGES 6:13 , 167” from “Holy B …” “warrior” [and why not with other she]


ir sounds like river=> water

so we have

war, water, or =>

change of order to sense

  • war or water => fasting in certain liquid habits [uses, et al]

wins your war



modern useful examples might, include: bathing with a napcloth instead of a regular shower stream or the-the napcloth’s equivalent in at least a few swaps of regular shower use; fasting in liquid consumption a few hours, … collecting rainwater even when there is no liquid of such use governmental shortage and using as … ?



Simulating D.A. Stream of Consciousness type: cited: Target, trip; analysis on cited: target & [you, how?] verifying *facts in “personal” stories, …

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date typed up/done: 7318
Note: there is not that function on this version of the public computer; and so you can’t access from … a cited: pdf version; today, sorry!
I was over at the sunnyvale public library; months perhaps a year ago or longer; and doesn’t mean that I haven’t been back since; sense
and two impersonators of two people I knew back in new york, …
recommended no, sorry those two people brother and sister through their impersonators who digitally savvy, cited: target; for the food purchases on your food stamp card; and for me on my cited: e.b.t. card while it lasts; and I continue to work as a starving artist; uh, to keep me from starving; I figure I starved long enough as a child;
when my “mother” couldn’t hold down a job; and her boyfriend didn’t think we [hint: we does not include “her”] deserved a penny of charity; but as soon as I could work for pay I did; and that sure stopped the starving; of course you can’t give up all of your art-work production;
just because society won’t pay you for that works; and that’s where the cited: e.b.t. comes into my life; a bit new in my adult life; keeps me from starving along with soup kitchens and beggar’s cash; which now buys me burgers; I didn’t eat much fast food, ever until
now; and it does really fill the stomach; like even when my tortured hand cramps up on creating digital art and plugging away at a keyboard; and especially I say; making the digital art … uh, but I could never give that up
I finally couldn’t get in the cited: target; because my body limp from exhaustion being a homeless artist; much like my parents, the real ones; and not “mom” and her boyfriend now husband; before me; and hey, maybe that’s how those real parents got so rich; … because they are and own-e everything in this society; which people think is free, public [just because you don’t pay everywhere you go, doesn’t mean it’s free somebody else is paying your way in some:form of wealth that’s obvious in the actual
definition of freedom; I hope for at least the college-educated and its equivalent population]; and or others think that I didn’t inherit [hint: no access other than general access doesn’t mean not labeled as inheritor]; as their premiere child; and what does that mean; it doesn’t mean my siblings and cousins and even actual friends et al didn’t inherit stuff from them; it means that
in asian culture at least sometimes there is a premier[no e?] child [who does inherit despite your uh racism] and it’s not really offensive like it is in for example in white or non-asian families; but we do have white people in my asian family; they are just though tribal white; or asian white; so the
cultural components are a bit different … premier inheriting alongside the others, isn’t uh for example: offensive.
In any cause: my body swollen from [as compared to] its standard adult component of near emaciation from excessive work-outs [but you could lose focus and not actualized perform on your job, and somebody could unjustly die; especially when you work without a gun] and no matter how much eating; necessary dieting due to excessive and exacerbating physical illness,
                        had peaked by large mass protruding from it; which wasn’t pregnancy but sometimes I joke about that; my work schedule was exhausting also before hitting homelessness about five years ago; in-and-out of captivity or hostage by “mom” and “her” boyfriend-husband;
among their conceived many infidelities of uh is it union
Soon; the mass took over when I stopped not working out homeless; because like how is that possible that didn’t happen; but you know; so instead: the mass took over by eating grain once again; oh my god, and sugar; the mass nearly expunged itself by paining me to death; and so cited: target became
un-reachable on my homeless, walking path
finally a couple of weeks ago; it was cut out: thank god! at least that physical health problem is on its remedy;
and did I mention that a year ago; for the first time I started smoking in my life; and it is exciting while homeless; although I couldn’t stench their stand in my 20s;
those are the only changes: in my lifestyle connected main: to homelessness: I now drink soda, smoke cigarettes, and eat regular candy bars; … I started the regular candy bars just outside right before homelessness; and
before that almost never! except on childhood halloween
But with cited: e.b.t. I still get to eat though grain included at whole foods;
theme: cited: whole foods
theme music citation: spacehog in the meantime [again and again]
After surgery I had gotten the chance to actually cramp walk-in surgical recovery to cited: target; and while my medication was being filled
I could uh, look around,
Here are brief analysis recommendations: cited: choker, gadget a lost forlorn present from my own childhood; is a needed useful art device and of course jewelry for both genders of today’s actual child, too; children, too.
all of the hanging sweaters that almost look and hang like shirts; which I wore around as spare non-boutique clothing additions to boutique clothing [prior to homelessness] are a still useful accompaniment in any season’s changing weather conditions [Oh, Whether]
and so are the hanging dresses; of a specific modality form: that I used to buy at other stores in that font. And when we are lucky show up in the hands of cited: handlers and or at clothing closets
And then of course; all the food-stuffs; and all of the education framed what are usually considered fashion magazines; and then also the dis-arrayed reading arraignment
and in consumer theme: notice all the bottles,
and I think that’s enough to notice which is the what this recommendation is for;
it’s more like a consumer utilisable art basic analysis: under art modification: Bottle,
hanging dress; hanging shirt like sweaters, choker gifts and practicers [and this includes self-gifts, too]; and the reading flash of like cards in appearance; et al

Paint, friend/ Emotions for

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The Death Project in the/ for The Fictional VolunTier Project

By Goura Fotadar

Date typed up: 62918

[also in this form: fvppostingfor62918]

tag[s]: review for upcoming publications, the death project, meanings of funeral & intersections with homelessness

date: 6.27.18

Source, citation: The Gentle Art of Swedish Death Cleaning (by) Margareta Magnusson


cited p 1: so, if it is done sooner: can it be a celebration of your “leave” – ing sooner; also interestingly enough: this system ‘ “death” … “cleaning” ’

comes up frequently in the homeless life.

And is this the meaning of; funeral.


Art notes: for blog art 62718? [date approx.]

While in homeless respite; after surgery look at ingredients: he-hah! I’m on a bed.

With a tad of lotion


Some taddling [who?]

An “ “ interpretation

And more lotion smear.

More lotion? Images with smear


Dedicated to the protection

Of myself and the protection

Of all so, deserving

Don’t tell anyone,

But it’s a

Picture of my illness;

[physical illness]


And yes, another


Of …






Back to notes of

Main source citation:

cited: p.12

Perhaps then is

Another definition of funeral;

And to change its turn

To the better for one;

Or perhaps [to the better for] the


Perhaps only

Let those

“you like”

“take things”

As a procession-




Here in this/

From scanning

This book: [until this point]

We have a




Of an actual, and How to [have, keep, keep-sake, etc.]



cited p.19

This reminds me

Of placement in homeless

Shelters and how

Whenever someone leaves

And-or is forced to leave;

It’s such as this. (from source, citation: ‘ “death” … “cleaning” ’)

As a reminder:

Imagine a video of

The (cited) East Hartford Shelter [empty & cleaned];

[why not for example] I mean

Of course in the strange design space [but still full of beds and such]; then imagine a group enters to stag; I mean stage set-ups; then a second group enters [and these two groups are organized in (1) and (2) ] for actual attempt at shelter and the first group holds the second-group: captive, and hostage; coveting in demonstration every last increment of steal of bed; of the shelter space; something such as this, happened to me, … where the bodies emptied in the shelter are expected to empty out before housing ever uh, re-appears or appears for the first time [for them]; and then [the bodies are to?] never re-appear anywhere otherwise they will be falsely imprisoned and falsely charged; this, called by me the conception of Memento Funeral in body beings is never realized correctly by “staff”


Homelessness as apparently are funerals are applications of deep philosophical components of existential being; and pardon me?  … ; but a certain Buddha-like aptitude is required to discern

Uh, solutions as the applications in entropy practice translate malignancies in who is, entropy?