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How do you know what feels wrong to you.

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How do you know what feels wrong to you.

Secondary Standard head: Is this fiction or not.

Rough notes on the quick

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

is it an? el; and other form translations or breakdowns … ? are [r]
by goura fotadar

date: 63017

public library theme, select: she’s dumb and she’s not deaf. I know her and I use her name to get out of prison; without her consent.

outdoors public theme: and they won’t stop attempting to steal. We don’t have the guns. But they do. Which is they.

tag[s]: grammatical ideology how; is this fiction or not

Part One. I don’t know figure out what “you” means quick enough and roughly is still good enough.

I like ice cream and coconut milk; because it’s rich and it heals me. [heels?]

I like chocolate because it puts me out of pain.

I haven’t told a lot of people that I’m completely ordinarily deaf; and most not “dumb” people can just tell anyway; I can still hear you if you focus here. Otherwise I can’t. And I was born that way; but raised with a majority: family that kidnapped me that I’m not actually related to in any form of that actualized definition; so I never told majority: them. And they really don’t know, unless you tell majority: them.

I know I’m an actualized being: beings; because I’ve helped a “ton” of actualized other beings; and not so much or at all non-actualized beings; or those that never hope to actualize [.]

I went to college; and then further a lot of school. I was mostly if not completely a straight A student in higher advanced education especially the prestigious ones-forms of it; So I know most words have more than one regular utilized meaning for example: dumb and dumb. I’m not dumb but I am dumb. You maybe dumb but not dumb. We’re not the same really. See. [really, sea] My kidnapped family told me I was dumb and then paid [sum:]people to change my grades [when]; so that the entire world? could pretend it was true. Then we had the existence of terrorism in our world [in time]. Uhm, I’m not that “full”. Please don’t blame all terrorism on me; sometimes it’s like your fault.

Part Two. Figure out what “feels” [is]

to me it is a central gut-like irk; and that’s enough. One gut-like irk that cannot be trans-placed but can be temporarily -only temporarily ignored.

Part Three. That’s enough. {Two levels} {It’s a pun.}

The Model is You semi-defined to You.

and central Irk that can’t be ignored forever.

{hint: most people don’t know that I’m also completely ordinarily mute; and yet they can sometimes? hear me? and also partially completely blind. Most people don’t know that I’m also severely afflicted with various deviant and movement disorders; yet I’ve never committed crime. It’s pretty impossibly possible to be afflicted with a, movement disorders and never for example: hit back. It’s kind of the experience of a lot of civilian non-criminals; and also reformed criminals; but not non-reformed criminals; who I also call un-actualized one group of a beings; and I’m not sure if they; the definition of beings … makes verity here, for the un-actualized [non-reformed criminals].}


Part Four. A Compiled Aside:

“You” “feels”

form y, in more than one y

if not fiction; then like fiction at least hear: really, Sea in time terrorism … when

form flower like a y is another form of y [hint]

civilians are not allowed to hit back no matter how unescapably criminologically competent they are; and at least not hit back regularly if even they brake; break? that rule. But veritas is it actual just law.

How come non-reformed criminals hit back, and hit uh; cons tant [and not ly] I hope you understand like uh, for example, the basic of like math constants.

theme basics: math constants is-r also the cliche of “don’t give up” so don’t stop working … is a constant, math constant, how.

theme music citation: foster the people don’t stop [again]

Part Five. Almost Un-Related Like a Win, doe

There’s too much actualized no actual? evidence to make one […] s

believe that lies about competence ever build to a “win” in finality,



Short pages of “purplement” for The FVP

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dates: 6.5.17 – 61317

tag[s]: fiction excerpts from novels of the future in excerpt here; the death project; the news, and civil rights; literary analysis, culture discussions

Part One. Short pages of “purplement” for The FVP


by goura fotadar

I was thinking about;

as in all of but not just;

my fiction; the bar of the

draw cardes, post; and

the arrangements ; the cost of;

minimal would idol go-to in

times of low-coste; think of so’s

brand pandles; eating even more

food; and how flowers don’t. I’d

been vaiting for it for grandiose bibes;

and treats of mides; and blows of

shadow. Once at least; I’d seen it;

at a stage-front that was non-hoax;

and the ox was at the stage with

green stellas. She was a different way

when; dimples on the tilt; the image

of the inside the fixing of precedence;

and the bakes of no! pale. We were

non-bites; and finally I knew it was

a he; about his wife that he didn’t

like; Boy! was she gone.

Part Two. Non-“purplement” or something


In a review of liquor and

flowers; I had started reading “Lotus


cited: L … magazine
I wanted to discuss at this


point; I’ve just now received the “Issue No. 1 -2016”

the poem on page “9”

cited: the poem on page 9 from cited: L … magazine


aside 0: personal notes of real crime analysis and reports received and albeit civilian status
starts and finishes without severe

reading glance; at that vocation.

“bitchin’ ” is not the main narrator, male, i.e., male-identified?

others that are


at some others

“have”  “kitchen … [s]”

not both? see the “yellow


as the “window” ‘s

entire being ; and you

have a baker , … , a pastry lover …

on “dizgotic” I hardly                           | date: 61117

know what dizgote means

w/out a dictionary and a summative

analysis of it, the word; but I wonder

if she were pregnant; and obvious, I don’t

mean the narrator; as described but I’ve

read-glanced ahead: and you have to wonder:

“Snappy” it’s only to say the reference the

obvious that you can as one likely knows

analyze in parses or in parsing as in code;

cited: coding courses in community college;

something you haven’t read entirely through, yet;

as an entry into reading it : sort of like

the fine printed way to understand the over-all

enough-needed function of a vortex.

tag[s]: non-function structures; on-them.

as an aside;

the death project, more source texts as identified

from “ch. 2 of funeral homes”

p. 11

of “My final Wishes” by Bradley H. Davis

is a title so much “Li Qing Zhao’s Kitchen” p. 9 of “Lotus Magazine”

prom: of p.11

“Upon death, the first thing that has to be done is to choose a funeral director. ”

under: “Funeral Homes” “2.”

theme: prejudice

is like unjust homicide


Miss Ms. Goura Fotadar

wishes to acknowledge the

receipt of your

request of a ban of

her from the Menlo Park Public Library (only) [sited, cited:]

on Alma Street from

today June 12, 2017 to two days after her 36th birthday June 14, 2017.

She appreciates the repeated blandishment

of her identity, gender, race, sanity, non-criminal, etc. statusi and work


by most patrons and volunteer-employees of this

and such practicing libraries. She considers

this extreme harassment

under her social cause

of safety through homelessness

and non-cash paid work; to further support this cause.

She requests that such

harassers not be

reciprocated for any

of her works and

identity; and she petitions

for the firing of all

pertaining library employees;

and volunteers.

She notes that out-spoken

un-defended prejudice

and gossip in this

country is illegal; and

that; likely despite

being at a knowledge

stream such person(s)

are unable to comprehend

the civic nobilite ;

that though you do

not like her; this

is certain; not her


dedicated to the service

      of J. J. L/F

citing p. 344

of  The

Amy Vanderbilt

Complete Book

of Etiquette

by Nancy


and Nancy



Rough notes on ART function.

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for the bladder funeral

remember to include

tag[s]: fictional heritage whilst the non-fiction world is sun spun, art notes, word diagrams


art notes: audiography;

cited: voicethread see link below

slide 19 or:

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

by Goura Fotadar







as noted not surprisingly

it art box; another

death box came it

become; had to

be quickly in re-formation

together with excess


+ paper & leaves

& a tea – water


then to turn

things fictional :

bury the thing

semi – like

a truck

cover by the

limited height

and this is

the real definition

of height?

of other vehicles

uncover it if [after sum: time]

you have

bladder concerns such as

cancer; or if you care for

someone … s, ; who

does care for just means at

least think politely of

then unbury it

scribble bladder

and rub some

“piss on it”

bury it again;

aiming for complete



non-fiction back to

for this art

notes posting:

The Creativity of Safety

is Sometimes A Quick



b, lad, der

b a ladder

to [b, lad]

does that make sense?

of support



why the “flag of iwo jima” (cited:)


b, lad [d] er

b, lad [d] er   (er -> swing direction)

b, lad [d] er  ([d] -> the thing that helps as b, lad swings direction of the effort?)

[d] is short for


the strong physical ladder

or long for


the metaphysical ladder


|| meta|| physical

apparent apparent

it is; ladder yes!

must mean support

and not just the traditional

singular climb.



to : morrow meaning trans.

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more notes for tomorrow’s

to: morrow v blog post [after Part Next.]

[seems framework for eulogy non-fic +

glum tales/states]

The Non-Fiction Eulogy of Relationships.

tags[s]: the Death project; pop culture

notice budget

is of course

bud, get;

and while one might

think of flowers; specifically

bud[s] for get following

can suggest plural ; so flower

buds such as a death ; and-or

to c… a death; there is of

course also : bud, get as

in the modern urban slatter:

of objective getting [real?]

connections to others that are perhaps

like [flower] buds; [the others]

and so; to create

the basic  artistic

endeavor of such


in one’s main-stream

connection to

the actual

contraption of

art; being

near buds, flowers;

even plants and or

even just flowers;

would be a reminder

of such

choice, objective; enaction.

theme: buds

theme music citation: icp – homies

tag[s]: art theory

Answer to: Why buy, work with, and-or be near that which is that.

currently near the public library; and on use for perfume makings

Part Next.

Mementos from Fifth Grade: The Boring Commercial is Made Non-Boring Through Mind Channels

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

By Goura Fotadar

Date: 51717

Tag[s]: the basics of thought and-or education; advertising knowledge; education uh for children

We Need to Just Interrup-the thorough to brief overview: called proofreading and editing of cited: The Witch Goura … [the next one]

Through the concept felt and heard through at least, no only through mind channels of


And-or cited: Budget

Image of a Budget Truck (cited)

Draw a graph: a graph here means only a sequence of names and or letters connected by lines that sort of make sense. Below, Imagine and-or fill in the lines.

Editing-proofing your own work stresses the importance of B.

Mind channels

Iterate things that are; are they B.

Where B is B. {Ease Hint: Where Be is budget}

Just a stroke of Luck. No Mind Channels.

Aside coincidences: cited: jumper by third eye blind; and that movie by the same name: jumper

Part Three.

cited, to be photographs for

cited: first page as described in detail below of cited: LOVE STORY by E. SEGAL
cited: tron by ic [b.ideal and thematic building]
cited: al-sh i som by sjh for same purpose as the last most recent past photograph
art framework: books to cue consider

to do: on 5.17.17

next in cited: Love Story

diagram what happens

in the story

at the mention

of “salt” and-or “salt-like”

to further edify on its

in this fiction at-least:


|| power ||

5.17.17 continued.

source, text : Love Story by ERICH SEGAL

cited page 2:

“eye the cheese” <— mention of

where the cheese as

suggested already

is salt-like.

what happens in story connected to salt



further choice derivation consent




consent to salt

cited p.3 as

suggested already

mention of “coffee” is salt-like




further choice derivation

consent to salt





entry of the other


Looking ahead

since I’ve read this

text; more exactly in

the past circa college;

college extended.


Can salt have created

the experience that is

the beginning line and-or

the end of the book : as

quoted earlier;

cited p.1

“What can you say about

a twenty-five-year-old girl

who died?”


extending this citation in to

also the cited: The Death

Project; for The FVP:

cited brainstormers et al

this first page as indexed;

available in format in this

print of the source,

text ending in

“of” on

the cited p.1.


as an aside:

might be used as

a-eulogy for another

non-fictional being in

funeral and-or such death

context : how would you

modify this first

page; such :

[see photograph]

[of original]





cited p.1


“died” from

the first line

to turn it more …

achievement; and even

hope based ; then-tha


“What can you say

about a twenty-five-year-old

girl who … ?”

tag[s]: fiction analysis; life/existence non-freaky seance

To self-analyze with

this fiction application

in the context of

death and-or

in this case fictional death.

; as well as ; outside analyze …

I’m going to use myself:

as an example here

as demonstration

“What can you say about

a twenty-five-year-old

girl who … ”

of potential death;

everything that noted

had been accomplished

by the crux:

time of that

potential death in

this case: 25

{draw crux: 25}

and if you identify in

actual work derivation [as in work in your own gender derivation … hence, that meaning]

as something other than

girl; than-the/n of

course replace with

the right gender word.


continued … cited p.1

“What can you say about

a twenty-five-year-old

girl who … ?”

of course you might

know that again the end-result

is “died.”

and notice now the

significance of the

question mark

that it may signify

also something

other than

“died” and period.


this then is an accidental

proof on how-to


[earned][i.e. real]

[accomplishment] death.



cited p.1

“What can you say about

a twenty-five-year-old

girl who … ?”


[B.A. centric]

-got bladder cysts like

cancer despite a life-style

of severely healthy habits

& practices

-did too much volunteer


-transferred to a prestigious

university; and graduated from it.

-landed every dream in college jobs.

-grew up in the ghetto

-attended university for primarily

merit-based free college welfare cost

-changed majors nearly four times.

-had mostly male friends and colleagues at

roughly the pattern of that age-time.

-eat pre-pared food of the health-gourmet

variety extensively. [during that same pattern.]

-attended college near-to the environment

she grew up in; was from, primarily.

-landed her dream career shortly after college.

-went on many, many interviews.

-met many, many people.

-read too many books.

-believed she was nearly enlightened

through her b.a. coursework; and this is

only sort of a joke.

-rarely ever had financial problems despite

growing up dirt poor.

-had a series of serious boyfriends that had

almost nothing in actual common with her;

and her actual colleagues and-or friends.

-never ever committed crime.

-didn’t always want to publicly share

her volunteer career endeavors; and

considered even a non-publicized

resume; public.

-hadn’t finalized graduate school plans;

but got all the A’s she planned;

something like 6/8 in general major.

[but you have to factor physical sickness: severe in the missing two.]


Eulogy using as an example continued:

cited p. 1

“That she was beautiful. And brilliant. That she loved Mozart and Back. (And not the Beatles.)(And not me unless I’m a real/was a real brother to her.) Once, when she specifically lumped me with those musical types, I asked her what the order was, and she replied, smiling, (not “Alphabetical.”)

Them First. [as an aside look-up today’s posted fiction for a good pun.][ connected good puns-art.]

… “At the time I smiled too. But now I sit and wonder whether she was listing me by

my first name–in which case I would trail Mozart? (in accomplishment alive since I am as the speaker of the eulogy still alive) …”

theme: alive speakers

theme video citation: (I think it’s) the shins simple song? [l.u.]

“– or by my last name, in which case I

would edge in there between (the alive?

accomplishments and successes of) Bach and

the Beatles. (And of course I mean all conceptions

applicable of beetles.) Either way I don’t come first, which

for some stupid reason bothers hell out (—-) (her death came first) … ”

back to main posting …

tag[s]: computer science abstracts & basics & library science

cited p. 3

upon entry of other

through consent of salt and

the enactment of slat, no salt

where as suggested earlier through

poise [cited: poise]  no postings that

“coffee” may be something

like salt [reminder: indexer motif]

and especially as compared

against most other so far scanned

in mind word[letters] in meaning;

hence words. [in the used source text of course.]

the main narrator is hit with

perhaps another; magical and-or

shamanic aspect of salt; the

entry-way into-a needed accessible

book; and study of this book for

an upcoming exam; and than-the/n even

Perhaps the support of the performance

on the upcoming exam.

{Draw salt as an obvious as in seen, scene; entryway

to something like a book; example

cliche and obvious;

salt sprinkles ; and-or

salt motifs in front of

a door-way}

The enactment of salt of course;

is: the following haven take place


cited p.3

“Let me explain why I took

her for coffee.”



Part Four; not quite but as another aside:

to seize fiction and to

introduce into it while

it’s in your mind;

real, reel, life

see gum wrapper

can also be


this is a theme


each cited: m & m

a door-way

or like it to

box: activity ; and

the used gum[even more]

title + salt

cue considerations

in cover knowledge










How to keep “it” safe.

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How to keep “it” safe.














for The Fictional VolunTier Project



Exercise: Is This Portion Fiction or Not.  A rough draft.

Theme: Homeless life

Tags: understanding authentication better or for the first time [better]; understanding the query of problem: shelter; theories of non-crime; advocacy: is the real deal; when is plagiarism plagiarism; queries on identity formation in non-fiction.

Level: Easy, basic.


Here’s using myself as example and my work such; example representation:

The Person / People report such and provide an example; the display of the example once you become and-or are familiar with their work is different from its usual display: manifestation. They say it’s to spread its wings wider; and you’re still not sure or are you [… if this is true]. What’s the process of being sure that it’s true , for you [… and not for them].

[next] Pages from “& thass y …” by goura fotadar

[this fiction work labelled to some extent roughly; right above in quotes; is again fiction] is used as art manifesto

Man-If-Established [o]

Tags: emphasis

Theme Inquiries: Emphasis Implies Truth; Emphasis Implies only fiction. How dumb are … .


Safety in the outdoors is much different and-or in the outside redefined and-or translated here to prevent tarnish; to include the outside.

[Define Inappropriate Authority.]

Most officials of inappropriate authority cannot comprehend the functional adventure in resting, retiring and sleeping outside.

Side Copy: Mission Statement: Real Adventure Precludes Spirituality. Look Up The Definition of Preclude; No Look Up the meaning of Precludes.

They don’t miss the view of the sky; that they claim you can’t see outside anyhow at night; and also they have an open-drop or such window tops no panels on roofs or is it rooves. So you consider retiring outdoors at during the day; if public space affords such freedom expanses of schedule for you. They think you are a public hazard for resting outside; and they are much more hygienic for resting inside. But if you’re not just [as in only]; but especially if you are part of any modern homeless movement; and this of course the officials; inappropriate authorities

[no that’s not the definition of officials, official that’s just the contextual meaning here]

might not understand does not imply that you have a safe choice in not being homeless outdoors. How might you use common conceptions of danger I think mistranslated from resting indoors to facets of resting outdoors; such as sleeping under the ground,  against the walls; and covered away from most; that view and-or open in view from, to outside consumers of your rest;


experiences of , such as … that are still afraid of and-or uncomfortable sleeping in tents; and this isn’t

A criticism;

Clobbered up like that sometimes lends itself to something like news stories;

Reminder? : the, this writer seems to think that experiences affect the news; and=or change [more so: effect?] the news, case example:

“A homeless person was thinking that he Alice Q was safely asleep in a bush; and there were an onslaught of housed people who do not support homeless rights; and so think it’s just to pose and receive benefits as homeless people; they see that it is [in] their right[s] to trespass on the homeless resting anywhere especially hidden in bushes in this case; and since they are actually they believe paying all the bills for the homeless; they are also glad they were able to get Alice Q stabbed nearly to death. As the local police in badges have stated: “there’s nothing you can do when the homeless believe they are standing for social cause; we have just right under oath to remove them from all of their locations; because quite simply we work and have worked so much harder than them. That’s the only reason they are homeless; and they by the way do nothing for a living; except drink. I’ve already advised them to consider selling their bodies like the folks we have ‘undercover’ posing as homeless and posing as staff to end charity toward such homeless. We hope to deport them to our countries of origin and away from what is obviously not their home country: the Free United States of America.” 

thinker: is this culturally racist and-or |just| culturally proud.

And the point is homeless or not when there are … like this speaking for … how would you protect your even hallucinations of what might happen for are hallucinations always a falsity of what might could happen in the bush and-or against the wall or on that slab of concrete the only place or one of a few around where you feel  safe enough sleeping / resting / retiring around. Including the indoors by-the-way: where maybe if you were lucky? Enough to live for some time; Oh those luckies who live indoors; that’s why all they do is stalk us in our rest spots. Good logic. Really you should win a medal. Is that medal the restroom; especially the public restrooms.


Is this a proof for the possible application of safety in art; or excuse me; art’s safety; in at least attempted safety.



theme: resting outside is a public hazard according to how aptitude qualified authority

theme 2: Oh shut up! Everything you say or think is fiction and that’s a crime. Or no that’s not right, that’s the truth. [And two are the only options; only two!][?][for everything; only two options; you have only two options.][?]

theme music citation: Homewrecker Marina & The Diamonds

theme illness citations: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder / Post Traumatic Disorder [levels of cited: DSM …]

On Culture: through lens Food Disguise

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for the blog, fvp on


33017; posted to on 33117


source, cited text: San Francisco Chef’s Table

by: Carolyn Jung.

cited, source text as identified above (from … cst)
[to support the next, cited: rum’s theory]

on page 83 (cited (of source text)): [see photograph]

bread as a disguiser of meat in

phonetic appearance;

they sound alike and meat to

mushrooms, eggplants, and the others?


Sure-fies it to art-form:

but think of the sport-like offense

to this, statement ; from my collegiate’s

collegiate culture:

on cited: page 83, contn. : perhaps it

accurates better the misconstrue-ment of “Rebel”

“It’s rare that baked goods garner a cult following,

but The Rebel Within sure has.”

cited: The Cheeseboard:

for the love

of bread and

cheese, please!



source, cited: ERTE




cited: source text cover; as identified the source text, right above

The phenom[e] ‘O’  (slanted arrow to) The dis-illusionment of/by viewing-to

pornography -P


at cover alone:

clearly from-it

you must wonn-der

(two wins]?

and [o] already


never about the

non-clandestiness [sp?]

of unkind to you-

others; for

the striking of a decorative

pose is a personal, private

decor if even composed in

public ; it from the cover:

includes stares/stairs /and-or hoax background;

memorable costume-where! (ever) ; and a cognition

of you as two into one; quite the ‘O’

this is near

closing; but recommended

to look at the-

the inside

‘O’ and-or ‘O’


cited, music: annie lennox  no more “I Love You … [s]”