The Box Show, Emotional Analysis VI: The Sponsorship journey, continued.
[or in this form: The opposite of alcoholism]
for The Fictional VolunTier Project
by Goura Fotadar
dedicated to my freedom, as earned by me.
date typed up: 93017
tag[s]: the actual sponsorship journey; the reasoning for combat; the reality transitional process; and the death project for the fvp.
The opposite of alcoholism [continued]
In a box: I’m angry because I never got to hit back.
In another box: I’m angry because hitting back [physically] would have put me in jail.
In yet another box: I’m angry because those that abused me; continued their cycle of infliction upon me. [and drew in; others like themselves toward me]
In yet another box: I’m angry because; when I left the abusive nest; they continued to attempt to abuse me and others again without consequence.
theme: how did they find us; again. [hint: money]
In yet another box: I’m angry because they were revered as heros for being unjust and unjustly violent abusers.
[heros/ keeps from heroes?]
theme: what then actually qualifies heros.
In yet another box: To manage my anger: I’ve processed what works, and repeated another cycle of what works.
The proliferation of abuse onto identities:
In another box: I’m angry because my brother is being impersonated past his death and past his service death; and that he was beaten in front of me and these became my memories, and that I had to invent non-weaponed combat drives; to aid his survival; because it wasn’t legal for me to tell that brother to pick up a gun; then.
Zany Hint; how is to, dead to living dead.
And so, on:
In another box:
for The Fictional VolunTier Project
by goura fotadar
date typed up [a-ha to finally?] 82917
dedicated to all undesired career and work interruptions being penalized penalization to the interrupter; at the highest consequence … last part from of: to paraphrase one of the loitering signs in this city.
source text of course [Holding The Man]
aside: interruption from the librarian … the librarian informed me today [what date was it: 81917] about; my own policy regarding photographing people who weren’t threatening my life; and
[report to: where report librarians?] I confirmed If your life is being threatened and you are not lying [about this, who this, this who] you have a legal obligation to photograph the folks involved [anywhere] … when functionally perceivable and this does not include or is not restricted by other peoples preferences; and if there’s no time or accessible device to photograph with; that photograph of they who is-is threatening your [life, safety, etc.] can be turned in to at least yourself and of course perhaps others, of-worth, too. To turn in a report, then shall it not be that the other shall be of some: worth; and the worth shall be: ethical worth. And any case how: is ethical worth assessed. In either way; if the photograph of report and somehow a legal way to report to yourself is e. than well, if you can’t photograph for the reasons or something like the reasons provided, well then: a written or summation report will be less effective; but it is still a-workable; and this of course is not to put down writing.
On a side clause: in indirect perhaps the term is law: in indirect law: if a report finds it to yourself and there is a real measure not some hoax or referred hoax: measure of worth; such as ethical worth; well then if you have met that measure in some way; well, you have not been surprised or committed crime by how; receiving a that such report … and so correctly both expect and not be surprised by the performance of others of ethical: worth whatever may be deemed publicly or not their role. Here role means of course not necessarily being somebody’s mother but rather where that being mother role may also intersect with society or the functioning of society actualizing … also known as role actualized evaded to expansive or role reform. The cliché of spoiling your child only approved when it is actually a child cannot that be spoiled so as that your spoiled child and your role as this spoiled child’s [parent?] does not un-function society as it is or as it is actualizing.
My point is I want the local … ?
Back to regulated measure …
Back to Source text: where of course it is a regulated measure in any case as it is previously in previous postings described the source text a knowledge stream et al
[Holding The Man Timothy Conigrave] [Foreword:} [David Marr]
cited p. 9 under “A … BOYS” “ ‘I wish you were a girl.’ I wasn’t sure what he meant but said I wished he was a girl too.”
sounds like transgenderism; but is this line though a spoken “wish” [“wish”] –es : actual?
or [an/a] unmeant dream.
for similarities between the two:
cited: 9 “carrot=red hair”
Source, text citation :
Singing in the Shrouds.
Ngaio Marsh …
p. 9 (also)
“He would have liked to travel.”
- – – – – – —————————————————————————————
cited p. 9 [2nd text]
a coincidence of number
near start; or start:
“car with a smashing redhead at the …”
cited: p 10 [second source text]
all of a now; the explanation [theme: ex-pal? , nation]
of why this is a reported
and noticed incident
is provided; likely asexuality
has converted to a-one
symposium of also or rather
instead non-asexuality; where
of course as compared to the incident; it is in the opposite sexuality; is it qualified as opposite?
“The man in the kiosk was chatting up a girl while the rest of us stood -à
shivering in the wind at Brighton Beach …”
why weren’t the rest of them shivering; as
In here the compared rest is: now; “man” & “girl”.
see this posting as; handout: Source text of course