The Death Project art

Mission State. [for the next upcoming publication]

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Mission State. [for the next upcoming publication]

[also in this form: Mission State]

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

By Goura Fotadar

Date typed up: 2,17,18

 

tag[s]: for upcoming publication, the death project art, publication connections, art notes

Untitled drawing-1

 

Date: 2,16,18

Of course the aim is to ensure any publication,

is completed as to complete

enough. The engine of art takes in my usual demonstration of let’s say existence state, personal;

or state; trash and perishes into art. And what might these have at all to do with this publication: guava; and not another mine of: candy like juice of that variety: uhm, my favorite. To do with this publication; well the culture of c-ettes is contained at least some: wear; and not contradicting some research.

I read back in college: woah! That was long ago … I just started smoking (minus a couple of c-ettes in my before  life) (though I can hardly remember those early year, s; early early years ; and who knows if I did then) (so early regular to now) despite, just starting to smoke, and not having the cash for c-ettes now; when-then, I’ve struggled with cancer-like my (hole) life. My brother [of this publication]; started smoking around approx.–>entry; and didn’t have this.

donated, sponsored ciga-boxes filled

with

are my coffins

The death (cited) project art

for “regular” love and replaced with non-incestuous brotherly love.

Hence heart crossed to a new horizon to my brother, and brothers

[actual = actualized]

then left covered up; so

Un-recognized but likely as trash; uhm, for protection in expressed in sentiment.

theme: where is the art? Well, this public computer has a gadget attachment issue; and so maybe you’ll see it in the publication,

When it’s out or maybe I’ll post it later

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The next part of the tree itself/ Book a

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The next part of the tree itself

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By Goura Fotadar

Date typed up, this part: 1518

[also in this form: Later at one of our temporary kidnapped shacks I came downstairs one]

 

 

I believe our primary names were kept; our birthyear difference kept in the right order: but our actual birthdates changed to make us legally older; my race was kept my brother’s changed to mine; and our genders and birth-places were kept in-tact. [uh, I mean on paper documents et al]

But maybe one assumes I am non-usefully hallucinating and that this can’t be true! In any case

later at one of our temporary kidnapped shacks I came downstairs one-day to see my brother then approx. 3-4 years old with his hands tied with ropes: because of what a group of adult child kidnappers said: [was/is] his real ethnic race. They had already set-up one imposter at least; who was glee-fully watching as my brother was trying to eat dinner with his hands tied. What did I do at this rancid

discovery; I’d rather not say why hadn’t the 3-4 year old brother told me? We were quite close. Like a pop-song the imposter was screaming “Call me … (his name)” “I’m your brother now” Years later though the tie-ing up halted: my brother’s hands were permanently damaged by the ropes. The “parent” and such couldn’t remember if he were born with such damaged hands; but we could remember the shift from his normal toddler hands to his mutilated hands; and this was especially an identifying discrepancy; I’m sure with digital imaging it would be easy to conceal that: mutilation. But as the years in childhood went on; art became something me and my brother were not enthusiastic about; and it’s an interesting story of trauma recovery because I’m a non-paid in money artist, now. So much of art in childhood expected and demanded the use of one’s normal hands; without such a set; and with cognition of him missing such a set; regular art never became our childhood thing. [Well, regular art only; and to start with only, I wouldn’t want to fib and claim that I didn’t create irregular forms of art in my childhood; the type that was less dependent on the regular birth privilege of not being mutilated by abuse and-or emotionally connected to such mutilating abuse.]

In this case the perpetrators of such actions would be charged for both children one would be as described [charge: enforcing into violating physical deformity through mutilation as an unjust response to racism and prejudice: so the enactment of elevated racism and prejudice with the intention to create a depiction of re-generating undeserved homicide] ; and the other would something like match. (as traumatized through witness). [back to main:]

The star of course has been mentioned in the I believe the first set of this posting or something; and in connection to child trauma: it would precipitate authorities not believing in a child, or such child’s potential; and enforcing that disbelief to as: reality. Then; perhaps at least attempting to perpetuate this against actualized accomplishment

12.8.17

In the child the child turning adult, and the adult who used to be a child: and then in this case: the star is an extremely interesting reality euphemism; defining something like the reaching of an otherwise un-reachable a generally

stage; to still not be high enough for an abusive traumatizer : to sway away from the incorrect dis-belief a reality they’ve cemented perhaps such that the culminating child receives the message he/she/that is not capable of a thing of worth, substance, et al; even at the outside sky’s star elevation.

The thing about this ornament piece is also a reminder of the actual seen star; and how it might be possible to become enough like one; [or a?].

For example: in metaphysics or something or metaphysical counseling trauma, combat actions to recovery; imagine translating into reality what that actual star-like existence; like-stars existences; for the uniqueness of stars? would equivocate to in the non-sky version of the world. Likely equivocate to the translated reality version of star;

Would restrict the ability of traumatic abusers from infiltrating an in[n]correct disbelief reality into/onto and as abuse of an innocent victim; traumatizing; and after such trauma if the star-path is only then accessible and-or available for entry: it poses as an ability to eviscerate such incorrect disbelief

realit[-ies] for one’s self.

Usually, I believe: in these type of star studies: but can’t exactly recall you look for star qualities.

In definitions of solidarity; you might look at star similarities. You might for example write a translation formula; even; a basic one of conversion to general her[e] reality.

 

Outside box but coherent in relative knowledge; a

formula may be the conception of book;

The proof for book[s]; [as a comparison, perhaps]

 

12.9.17 The obvious thing would be usual structure or form of a book; as witnessed; in this case especially: a front & a back , and I suppose everything in the center or middle: something like a passage. When comparing like to stars: I don’t know my guess would be something like a reflection with at least first, and second incidence or sight; and perhaps between this [these] incidences and-or/and/or reflections is passage. If time were not relevant it might be instead the work it takes to go from 1st to 2nd incidence. And as a book equivalent: what it either —-à it takes to go from start to finish or how one flips from start to finish; or perhaps in some cases both: passages, version of passages; and-or centers are required.

I’m not sure but I think this would; noticing with the invention of book[s] be some beginning star-equivalent; in translation

startheory

each book while moving

from its front to back;

is an experienced passage

and-or journey; such as life, death, college, etc.;

a career, et al

In I believe the second version; if one wanted to transpire various passages and or journeys when entering the examination of book arts; a simple flip from front cover to back cover would encompass the flip as the center /passage

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for that might not need to be internal

the situation may also imply retrieval:

example:

Book a: incidence
/ 1

Step 1 [front cover]

Possible retrieval effective equal

To front cover sight such as book title

Step 2 external to book or this translated to reality star a flip to the back cover

Step 3 incidence 2/ [back cover] or retrieval possible effective equal to back cover sight such as back cover hue/. Main design or something.

The quasi-question and or relational question might be in another version outter space or something reality: how do you after incidence 1st sight turn or effectively equivalently turn a star over; and is that a modality of invention: strength

The Egg-Shell

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[and also in this form: The Egg]

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rose

by Goura Fotadar

date typed up: 112517

 

Date: 11.22.17

at that cited: palo alto museum on thanksgiving; after church service; and charity meal; couldn’t find online that it was closed … and it is so doing a review dad means look-over from outside. The egg-shell like “pottery”

tag[s]: holiday tradition, the death project for the fvp, auto-man mind channels, study notes et al
is reminiscent of some of my own l’arte. No, offense? There of course seems to be [no,] almost debris in the egg-shells of “pottery” If you grab one, might that be stealing; and I believe that’s part of the point.

 

The front door-way looks very elementary school office.

But the weight of the collected debris like side whiff; instead of something mud-filled? No offense, mud; points to the sturdy-ness of covering i.e. spaces of shelter: and those include outside vest-like, rest-like spaces, and of course work-spaces.

 

The memorial of bricks; almost a fan of trigs from many proximate  non-sliding landslides; another reminiscent from even a recent past holid-y.

Of course as one-of-the few hanging roofs long enough for the rain’s yield; in the area; depending on the actual age of the proximate standing structures lending discovery to what ming might have been the weather here.

Whether to sprinkle or not; can’t you imagine the group perhaps not attached to one another on such a sprinkler’s roof, underneath the weighted new dirt.  Of course there’s the loom of the fluid while what’s connected to egg-shell, is formed; of course with the artist-creator’s face hidden in my snap-shot;  there’s a focus of gender and perhaps birth; and perhaps even union: the shape of the looming model-form of course is often associated with female … form and what about at this stage of its forming the absence of fringe might point to what specific genda.

In the office window

Glass is the sky-view; not I think photograph-able through this lenses- and across of course is another scrape view of trees. But on check they sky-view 1st referenced has shown up in another caught image. Like fish. And I forgot that upon request: I also included

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My cigarette temporary l’arte vase. Since I’m new to smoking; in this lite, anyway.

theme: [life=lite?]

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scar-fed to warmth

 

Part next Outside. 11.22.17

I haven’t yet read the inscription; but in the sway of hood; it speaks of fashion; as in a fashion’s hood: the obviou- shelter including tree-houses, as; something like a terminator apocalypse [sp?] and raindrops such as the song. .. s

there’s a real? nest nearby, like my old shared no quiet? Neighborhood, and would just one occupy this shindig; I once maybe not alone searcher-d for it on my alma mater’s [undergrad] campus; it had been [ad]ded? but not scene? there.

will I read the inscription  under scattered/know by scattered, leaves.

Get it, before

leaving.

 

11.23.17

Instead of the 2nd museum; this two-day vis-à-vis [reverse meaning] from the library. From the cited: source; on page 5; it’s like cited: c.i.a. operations; hint on the use of drugs; and their breakdown … had to take a brake for …

after thanksgiving meal.

Then was given thanksgiving flowers and stuffed one of my scent bottles with its few Now out-another reminiscent temporary l’arte project inquisitive theme: what’s the difference between spraying yourself with this; and clean?

As usual empty can: filled with rest of flowers.

+ stems; for the most part: buds + floral parts first; and then stems; as usual use stems for stuffing.

[fiction posting / \, back to fiction-posting]

In its first stage:

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It’s a treasure

Heirloom; or trinket.

Wrap the stems

In in given napkin like an extended symbol  of death;

theme: what happens if the chime is extended.

a different version of the cited: statue of liberty

The temporary l’arte  the Christmas cited: miss America holding; cited: cherry vanilla crème soda; before going in the trash;

tag[s]: structural l’arte

IMG_20171124_153631[1]

 

Special notes [of studying at this STAGE the not included here yet source, citation, but upcoming soon,]

Where drugs

Are like

Bricks with

“additive” s

Stronger for the building; and weaker for the body Is it in the sur-real, in metaphysics? That if body were like a , buildings “additives” wood to mean only more strength, … structure, et al

tag[s]: construction, movement art.

 

 

 

Lolo, look next, there’s sky in the scrape too, can you se’a it. It’s now a ship, ship navigator or what I call gator on the se’ a and my gosh, is the brick[s] the new sky; on re-interpretation, why no-t

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“D-F” [in reference to M.C. also]

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date: 10.26.17

by goura fotadar

[and also in this form: D]

poetry from source citation: notes from the dragon-faerie song on p.15 of Lotus Magazine

Issue No. 2 -2017

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from source, citation: as identified above as of 102617
 

For this analysis: labels: as photographed and included above from citation: bracket: what might be the 1st stanza

bracket: what might be the 2nd stanza

 

I believe it’s about

“shelter”

why first it uses

the word

second: you/one

might brake-break

from the “whistle”

of life; in

your version

of “  “

what might be the

1st stanza, see

picture: declares

how to be?

or what it’s

like to be on

break from

the “whistle”

of external

to your version

theme: versions of rest [housing, not housing, …?]

theme music citation: adam ant wonderful & Madonna this used to be my playground

of “ “

the what might

be 2nd [see picture]

stanza describes

what is

this working

version of

the poet’s  “ “ [disclaimer: if even if derived away from actual reality/ experiential reality of real]

perhaps a side

consumptive notification

might be howis this

a both, a

“D-F”

D: “leaves”

“triangle”

“richly”

“life”

“horn”

F: “words?”

“memory?”

“dug-out”

“gut”

“more than vanity”

space

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The Box Show, Emotional Analysis VI: The Sponsorship journey, continued.

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The Box Show, Emotional Analysis VI: The Sponsorship journey, continued.  

[or in this form: The opposite of alcoholism]

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

by Goura Fotadar

dedicated to my freedom, as earned by me.

date typed up: 93017

tag[s]: the actual sponsorship journey; the reasoning for combat; the reality transitional process; and the death project for the fvp.

The opposite of alcoholism [continued]

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In a box: I’m angry because I never got to hit back.

theoppositeofalcoholism

In another box: I’m angry because hitting back [physically] would have put me in jail.

thenextinslide

In yet another box: I’m angry because those that abused me; continued their cycle of infliction upon me. [and drew in; others like themselves toward me]

infliction

In yet another box: I’m angry because; when I left the abusive nest; they continued to attempt to abuse me and others again without consequence.

theme: how did they find us; again. [hint: money]

nest

In yet another box: I’m angry because they were revered as heros for being unjust and unjustly violent abusers.

[heros/ keeps from heroes?]

theme: what then actually qualifies heros.

heros

 

In yet another box: To manage my anger: I’ve processed what works, and repeated another cycle of what works.

manage

 

 

The proliferation of abuse onto identities:

In another box:  I’m angry because my brother is being impersonated past his death and past his service death; and that he was beaten in front of me and these became my memories, and that I had to invent non-weaponed combat drives; to aid his survival; because it wasn’t legal for me to tell that brother to pick up a gun; then.

Zany Hint; how is to, dead to living dead.

 

And so, on:

In another box:

 

Belief in Living Dead? The Quack Attack. Is.

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Belief in Living Dead? The Quack Attack. Is.

See this posting as another more regular form: Belief in Living Dead

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

By Goura Fotadar

tag[s]: criminology; news alerts from one-person; all this effort and no just reward.

 

Part One. In Bizarre theories and adventures real turned unreal.

What happens: if you take a person’s memory right before the “time” of a person’s death [from the point of after death]; and interact that person’s memory in a virtual program; wouldn’t that interaction create some type of entropy; translating

That person into …; when enough entropy?  collects into [the real version] [not to be blasphemous]

becoming [being] Living Dead. They are then both once dead; and soon? Living dead.

[What if.]

 

Part Two. Police Alerts for Real Cops & Real Authorities.

Harassment and Stalking

 

Hello after; being held situationally hostage till the end of last year; I was released into the shelter situation where I was nearly gang-raped; when I fled to the streets for safety; local authorities including local cops would not stop following and stalking and calling me; including making up fake warrants for my arrest. I got word that my brother: Dhruv Fotadar might have died in combat at around 2011 and 2012; and is being impersonated by somebody using his name. I requested a violence control order for the person impersonating his identity and attempting to kill me; and also the same order for the rest of the dangerous and criminal family that we were raised in, but not quite by; which we were kidnapped into from our original family. Since that time the local police will not stop questioning me about his status and whereabouts; and I believe from what brief documentation I’ve been given he’s dead in combat …  At present; they are stalking me nearly on every curb; and infiltrating anywhere I sit, work from; and rest denying my civilian status … when I ask them to please stop stalking and harassing me they escalate their unjust and unjustly dangerous behavior toward me; what more shall I do for the crimes they and their coordinates are committing.

 

Examples include practiced acts of public humiliation toward me; and enabling others and non-reformed criminals to call me horrific names in public such as, : hag, rapist, pedophile; then charging me a citation for being homeless instead of those harassing me paying any consequences. Pretending publicly that I am a criminal and enabling others to call me this and other denigrating terms; without making them pay any consequence.

 

I’ve never committed a crime in my life; and have already been through hell; I would appreciate it if the police and other “authorities” stop threatening me with false arrest, gang rape, murder / and the non-benediction of my identity; etc.; and I have an entire career as a no living wage worker which is my primary focus; and not time wasted in engaging in being harassed and nearly killed by inebriated cops and their group coordinates.

 

I require legal protective action for myself against them and against such other “authorities” and individuals.

 

Sincerely,

Goura Fotadar

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My real … and not the impersonators of him; my real brother circa approx. his age seven. As you can see; we look[ed] almost exactly alike such as twins might but with different genders.

The Brief non-educated Semantics: What would be a violence protective order [or the start of such] [on the brief and rapid]

You shall receive no benefit for being my actualized family et al. examples: actualized colleague … if you contributed and contribute to such events and actions and or related events of same similar type toward me; and vice versa. Final Action call. In other e-affect you have not actually moved to actualized or actualizing in these benefitted roles and instead moved to point never actualizing to these benefitted roles stemming from my identity et al. Any threatening action of the sort from denial of these benefits shall be in severe form pre-emptively prohibited to restore the function of the individual unjustly harmed and such according parts of society.

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Almost at first sight

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Almost at first sight; for the fvp

theme-channel citation: at first sight [again] the movie

by goura fotadar

dedicated to a.s. and  j.k. and j.s.

tag[s]: mind channels + reading notes + riterary analysis for the death project for the fvp

source, citation text [1]: Holding The Man Timothy Conigrave with foreword by David Marr

[1st source early on way early on ] ” … how funny and horny and sad and truthful … ”

“Did anyone ever shut him up? Death certainly didn’t.”

Again et al : the

basics ; real ilife signs of immortality.

and traditionally

“horny” means …

source citation text[2]: Singing in the Shrouds (by) Ngaio Marsh;

[look at text][how so this early the two, are two alike.]

immortality = career when?

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second source, p. 9  Box: “Horn”

“The cranes that served these ships lost their heads in the fog. Their gestures as they bowed and turned became pontifical.”

———————-> (curving arrow) like death

Box: “winches” look up? meaning definition of [for grade school this slight line, too]

Box: “wharves” another definition word

“Police Constable Moir, on duty until midnight, walked in and out of shadows.”

————————> (long arrow, lounge arrow) look at a real cop’s / police’s motif in fiction.

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