The Death Project art notes

Social Dynamics through Art

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By goura fotadar

Date typed up: 11217

103117

 

Source, citation: Lotus Magazine, Issue No. 2, 2017, pgs.3-4

[2nd poem segment], E.A. Gordon, 6,971 Steps

 

Tags[]: analysis for The Death project, too

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Of course about

Death;

Soon about

Life, also?

Since about the

Passage of movement.

In “hike”

About gender through

The comprehension of

“group”

Versus “one”

Type variations

Considers, tag[]s:

Social dynamics through art

 

And of course in gender what me might see, be described to;

May be pun to true

Meaning of.

within the first

Two commas

Are parts of gender

Exhibitive nuance:

“semen” “war” “truce”

Upon “ … sly betrayal”

We enter “hike”  “…”

Where we first have:

A proposition of

View from  s.d. perspective

And perhaps from

This perspective

We have the entry

Into the top: of this

Poem:

Who comes

With is it

Like alliance

To “a grave”

cited accompanying music:

Grimes, (-human) kill v. maim

Human behavior, Bjork

Rag n’ bone human

 

and the opposition of

“human” to “woman”

i.e. suggesting

based on what we conceive

in culture of notion: “woman”

points “human” as being of to it; opposite.

It is perhaps noteworthy

Why this might be a primary

Method to measuring “woman” [cultural notions and perhaps in opposition to contextual, this analysis]

As another séance in this

Poem:

“To hike is to be

Comfortable in nature, a one-to-one

Relationship.” And still:

“To hike alone without

Preparation is to be a

Woman wandering, either

Lost or batshit or both”

Lookup “batshit” and

How odd so; since

In case of “human”

“nature”

Then; “is … comfortable”

Either as “woman” the “hike”

Is not “in nature” or “human”

Is really to it “woman”

a different species.

In the case of “batshit”

though often

Heard of

With reference to

Crazy when

Broken down to the obvious:

Bat shit; it almost sounds

Like or rather the response

Of fear at scared. Of course

Within the derivations of

Scared and fear; in any

Case; “to hike alone

Without preparation”

 

Derivations

Of Look-up

Can also

Include

Recollecting

In process

 

Is conceivable with reference

To the perhaps new frame

Of bat shit; which of

Course could mean

Batting poorly, also. In any

Case running to a trail for a “hike”

Might make belief if

In a severe or even varied

State of scare and-or fear.

And with reference to,  here “woman” may be

The species that experiences

Such; whereas either

“human” is socially dynamically

Protected against

It: in reverse:

“that is, the normal kind”

“To hike in a pair or a group is to be the pack kind of human,”

Or perhaps to reserve the moment

Of a “hike” for preferences

Of “comfort—“ ; in

Any case; such perspicacity  [sp?]

Is what differentiates these

Mythical versions of “woman”

And “human” if even

Based on the regular

Derivations of these

Perhaps at least contextual

Now cultural terms. In any

Case the sense of fear or

Scared as in bat shit

Might mean directs us to

The beginning of the poem:

And of course

Since it comes form

“woman” we finally have

The reason for the perhaps

Opposing woman nuances:

“semen” et al. In any case it is likely “a grave”

Of “woman” do you think

Due to that “woman” version

Of “hike” or do you think

The “batshit” of its any

Variant meaning is

What is caused

By the “grave”

Of “woman”

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“D-F” [in reference to M.C. also]

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date: 10.26.17

by goura fotadar

[and also in this form: D]

poetry from source citation: notes from the dragon-faerie song on p.15 of Lotus Magazine

Issue No. 2 -2017

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from source, citation: as identified above as of 102617
 

For this analysis: labels: as photographed and included above from citation: bracket: what might be the 1st stanza

bracket: what might be the 2nd stanza

 

I believe it’s about

“shelter”

why first it uses

the word

second: you/one

might brake-break

from the “whistle”

of life; in

your version

of “  “

what might be the

1st stanza, see

picture: declares

how to be?

or what it’s

like to be on

break from

the “whistle”

of external

to your version

theme: versions of rest [housing, not housing, …?]

theme music citation: adam ant wonderful & Madonna this used to be my playground

of “ “

the what might

be 2nd [see picture]

stanza describes

what is

this working

version of

the poet’s  “ “ [disclaimer: if even if derived away from actual reality/ experiential reality of real]

perhaps a side

consumptive notification

might be howis this

a both, a

“D-F”

D: “leaves”

“triangle”

“richly”

“life”

“horn”

F: “words?”

“memory?”

“dug-out”

“gut”

“more than vanity”

space

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The Box Show, Emotional Analysis VI: The Sponsorship journey, continued.

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The Box Show, Emotional Analysis VI: The Sponsorship journey, continued.  

[or in this form: The opposite of alcoholism]

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

by Goura Fotadar

dedicated to my freedom, as earned by me.

date typed up: 93017

tag[s]: the actual sponsorship journey; the reasoning for combat; the reality transitional process; and the death project for the fvp.

The opposite of alcoholism [continued]

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In a box: I’m angry because I never got to hit back.

theoppositeofalcoholism

In another box: I’m angry because hitting back [physically] would have put me in jail.

thenextinslide

In yet another box: I’m angry because those that abused me; continued their cycle of infliction upon me. [and drew in; others like themselves toward me]

infliction

In yet another box: I’m angry because; when I left the abusive nest; they continued to attempt to abuse me and others again without consequence.

theme: how did they find us; again. [hint: money]

nest

In yet another box: I’m angry because they were revered as heros for being unjust and unjustly violent abusers.

[heros/ keeps from heroes?]

theme: what then actually qualifies heros.

heros

 

In yet another box: To manage my anger: I’ve processed what works, and repeated another cycle of what works.

manage

 

 

The proliferation of abuse onto identities:

In another box:  I’m angry because my brother is being impersonated past his death and past his service death; and that he was beaten in front of me and these became my memories, and that I had to invent non-weaponed combat drives; to aid his survival; because it wasn’t legal for me to tell that brother to pick up a gun; then.

Zany Hint; how is to, dead to living dead.

 

And so, on:

In another box:

 

Belief in Living Dead? The Quack Attack. Is.

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Belief in Living Dead? The Quack Attack. Is.

See this posting as another more regular form: Belief in Living Dead

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

By Goura Fotadar

tag[s]: criminology; news alerts from one-person; all this effort and no just reward.

 

Part One. In Bizarre theories and adventures real turned unreal.

What happens: if you take a person’s memory right before the “time” of a person’s death [from the point of after death]; and interact that person’s memory in a virtual program; wouldn’t that interaction create some type of entropy; translating

That person into …; when enough entropy?  collects into [the real version] [not to be blasphemous]

becoming [being] Living Dead. They are then both once dead; and soon? Living dead.

[What if.]

 

Part Two. Police Alerts for Real Cops & Real Authorities.

Harassment and Stalking

 

Hello after; being held situationally hostage till the end of last year; I was released into the shelter situation where I was nearly gang-raped; when I fled to the streets for safety; local authorities including local cops would not stop following and stalking and calling me; including making up fake warrants for my arrest. I got word that my brother: Dhruv Fotadar might have died in combat at around 2011 and 2012; and is being impersonated by somebody using his name. I requested a violence control order for the person impersonating his identity and attempting to kill me; and also the same order for the rest of the dangerous and criminal family that we were raised in, but not quite by; which we were kidnapped into from our original family. Since that time the local police will not stop questioning me about his status and whereabouts; and I believe from what brief documentation I’ve been given he’s dead in combat …  At present; they are stalking me nearly on every curb; and infiltrating anywhere I sit, work from; and rest denying my civilian status … when I ask them to please stop stalking and harassing me they escalate their unjust and unjustly dangerous behavior toward me; what more shall I do for the crimes they and their coordinates are committing.

 

Examples include practiced acts of public humiliation toward me; and enabling others and non-reformed criminals to call me horrific names in public such as, : hag, rapist, pedophile; then charging me a citation for being homeless instead of those harassing me paying any consequences. Pretending publicly that I am a criminal and enabling others to call me this and other denigrating terms; without making them pay any consequence.

 

I’ve never committed a crime in my life; and have already been through hell; I would appreciate it if the police and other “authorities” stop threatening me with false arrest, gang rape, murder / and the non-benediction of my identity; etc.; and I have an entire career as a no living wage worker which is my primary focus; and not time wasted in engaging in being harassed and nearly killed by inebriated cops and their group coordinates.

 

I require legal protective action for myself against them and against such other “authorities” and individuals.

 

Sincerely,

Goura Fotadar

photo (85)

My real … and not the impersonators of him; my real brother circa approx. his age seven. As you can see; we look[ed] almost exactly alike such as twins might but with different genders.

The Brief non-educated Semantics: What would be a violence protective order [or the start of such] [on the brief and rapid]

You shall receive no benefit for being my actualized family et al. examples: actualized colleague … if you contributed and contribute to such events and actions and or related events of same similar type toward me; and vice versa. Final Action call. In other e-affect you have not actually moved to actualized or actualizing in these benefitted roles and instead moved to point never actualizing to these benefitted roles stemming from my identity et al. Any threatening action of the sort from denial of these benefits shall be in severe form pre-emptively prohibited to restore the function of the individual unjustly harmed and such according parts of society.

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a fallen rose bottle [not done]

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grief

tag[s]: The Death Project , The Death Project art, flower stuff, art applications to … v., v. enactment, and v. c.

dates: 6917 – 6817

by goura fotadar

for safety;

today instead of

creating rose water; something

so love-ly but coveted wrongly;

just, a fallen rose bottle;

the fallen of course is

the roses found in this

record; and the bottle

is an empty bottle whose contentx [s]

were drunk. As usual pilfer the

rose petals -> and leaves, too [and whatever [of flower, ?] else, also.] [too, also.]

and place in bottle.

the in teresting thig-n is

that the bottle was not

washed out past the

drink and of course

being a soda bottle   which is

something like

baking soda [?][.] the pleasant

o-d-or [the baking soda or soda [remnant smell] covers up the pleasant o-dor, to create a more subtle potpourri type scent?]

theme: gum stuck to injuries

chewed obvious, provides

remedies? to foil

and rubberband or

to cover

another way?

think about the thorns; as

the [flower: rose,] sticks come free in

the pilfering of petals; will they,

if kept long enough; break through

the thickness, texture of the

bottle [if it’s not added to, in exterior facade?] … in the stem: is urgency?

how. as it’s placed in the temporary?

center of bottle it’s nearly impossible

to place any additional petals

and other flower parts in;

see photograph; the pull to

continue placement of flower parts requires

[parts]

a rapid snap-shot; of the

placed stem; and until likely it

may eventually move out of the

way. In an interesting

correlation the bottom

of the bottle is

as other [x … y … other

unknown types]

might have noticed; shaped

like a bud and-or flower

catastrophe ; and here catas-

trophe just means form.

as you’re restoring your

energy {I mean I’m tired then; when this physical part is being worked on] to take the photograph

place the fallen flower

specimens that you don’t

plan to place in the bottle

down your shirt or rub into

your arms; such as a perfume

rub.

On observation this set

of roses at least; is so visibly

seen as a scene spider web inside

bottle. [goth, morbid art? in this phase at least; phase art: what do you se-a]

hint: to make your gum flower

last longer … stick arose

petal in the chew.

death project, art notes [the chime]; the flowers as might or not have been alreade mentiona [theme: ready machines, machinings, theme music citation: jason derulo whatcha’ say] were found! fallen and so something like dead; the bottle is a death specimen in the obvious that it’s not alive; and together they are a unified death art; as opposed to flowers that might have been something like … still attached in a greenhouse or something. notice, the conceptional look of this soda bottle and its closeness to the, a cliché vision or sight of a greenhouse; on an expansive view or on an expanding view … how you might envision in thought a greenhouse if they, it as a concept still exist[s] and when they did when viewing this bottle in the process if it doesn’t reach further art cover up; a metaphor for make-up as art also; this part: the obvious as is commonly used on a gone celebration, recent; and in lingo “the fallen” refers to the specified deceased but essentially all such. The rose then and any flower; is perhaps a past, passed [here: both apply] death sentiment as often seen, scene in such death-like faces; the hope of what else might be achieved passed the death; the existence of flower; in metaphysical interpretations of this here: l’arte.

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Pop Fiction, continues; & The Flower Theory

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Reading notes: 4.24.17

tag[s]: crisis of ed. curri-cul.

source, cited:

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cver of source text cited

[accompanying] Dictionary of American Portraits

[edt by Hayward & Blanche Cirker and the Staff of Dover Publications, Inc.]

on cited: p. 235

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identified from source text cited in coherent relevant lines of citation

what do you think

of the classic heart

+ accompanying second

necklace + pears, pearls

grabbed; and even

in comfort in

open neck.

tag[s]: art edu. ; theme: ideas; mind channels

In second source, cited:

[main text]: z. smith; swing time

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source text cited

[for this segment of reading notes:]

in cited: Prologue

[but first theme to respond,

to:] [your art anywhere

outdoors] [like book covers

in libraries; at least.]

[in the entertainment

of psychics [real?]

search groups +

severe [authentic withins

severe academic] politic

groups] badly there

must be the advanced

of the reading group;

even two-person in video-clip

cited: that special person!

[draw a two person skit with recording.]

to supplement academic

esp. reading

related endeavors

theme

Part One. The text as an art lesson.

in reverse order

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of appearance

“dancer” cited p. 4

“I experienced myself

as a kind of shadow.

” … that I had [notes:

never [had] [necessary?

had] any light of

my own. ”

_____–_______

after seeing this text; thinking

of art and-or painting: one

notices text such as:

“coast,” through page already

[red]

“hood”

more reading notes for The FVP: The Flower Theory

frontingflower

cited: p. 16 of

main source text ;

while I was thinking on-the

notes in pin-points:

I was thinking of foreign

culture and not difference

in cultural race: but

within; the main-Land:

possibly: here ? [even].

on p. 16 it is

revealed that the

other “girls” are : “these

white girls”

which of course points

us, to: another race

for the narrator +

the defining sector : race;

other than white;

later on the same

page: ” ‘When your

dad’s white it

means—‘ ”

it seems from cited: page

17 the answer is:

“There were consequently

things you couldn’t discuss

in front of Lily Bingham, and

now Tracey shut her mouth … ”

where “consequence […]”

sounds like cost

and there are “things”

“in front of” [a flower]

“things” cost [

have “consequence .. “]

when [colloquial-ly]

“front … ing ”

to / toward /

as to …

flower [s]

flower in name – ing

is invocation

to species:

flower, too?

from p. 14 of the cited: text [main, text]

esp. breaking up:

“espadrilles” => esp. a drill, es

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esp. adrill :

is the description of

the shoe: type! [also]

pesa, drill, es

pesa, drills, e

following the continuation of:

s where it

most makes sense ;

and in this case application

wear : it most makes sense

pesa, e-drills [? -> perhaps]

 

4.18.17 on p. 15 at quick glance oui-oui!

have: ‘ “Freed” ‘ and here on cited:

p. 14 we have :

” Her hair was yellow,

not blond, yellow like a canary. Her

skin was very pink, raw pink, now … ”

paint a  [plain] painted [white]:

frame [[as contrast; even what

could be missing ]]

and so blinging opposite,

earlier on cited: 14;

“It was disappointing .”

“yellow” versus “blond” could

im-ply real story: tale [paradise,

possible] and in our : cultour at least,

please; The cliché [pah-again] of freedom

through dancing; for that is; for the?

subject matter: fiction; much like

a bird: i.e. “canary”

plummets the intelligence of even

the child main subjector [-er];

and if you didn’t know it;

before on excerpt implies a

cultour foreign to the American [english

language]. at the bottom of cited:

14; “trilby”

t-ril/by

tr-il/by

or even rt. [foreign cultour?]

as opposed what we

see more often here; though

we do see [rt.]

rt. – liby as a joke: might

mean [way to [public space] library] =>

obs. freedom.

 

— then from this other source, text:

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source, text cited; cover / top

cited: p. 352 , The New York Times,

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from source cited; as just identified; and being identified in coherent relevant lines

the Complete Front Pages : 1851-2008

  •  – –
  • what the heck: besides general
  • guesses/know : is :
  • “agrarian socialism”
  • ag – rar – ian
  • [e] -> age [Ian] who is ?
  • -> rare

social-ism

age, rare: Ian;

social-ism

social-[Ian-ism]->

age|rare|social|[I-an|ism]

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and this is p.e. haps

one def. of suicide.

when is I [an] an

in a group

[of specific

evented-time]

(belonging to incident)

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suicide implies ?

group;

will oui oui oui come

across more; on a more through

and not thorough read of this article? —-> see articlepic.

 

 

 

 

Trauma Model: Pearls are like Death Salvagers

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The Death Project for The FVP

dates 5317-5417

source, cited: VOGUE THE EDITOR’S EYE

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cited: from this text as photographed
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cited: from the text photographed as identified above ; you-and or one can see the pearls to the left at least in this photograph of the photographs in print
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cited: from the text photographed as identified above

 

strategy: basic needs not

met = death such as non-legal homicide

when in truth there is enough for

all deserving. Examples o. b. needs: health care; consumptive food; basic temperated shoes, clothes, luggage + storage ; safety in rest spots; work space and advanced enough work tools …

the photographed set from

text; is hard to see but the

slight movement in posture  [not enough movement to sustain life or something?]

seems to imply death;

and to save life, live

scene reminder; first cognition; with out text reading

in letters: and-or to salvage death; the scene shots dire in life and-or expression

by corner cue; lack of; the only thing that gleams

besides the face of

photographed are the

pearls; can’t hardly

be seen;

theme: seen

them\e movie citation [again]: Can’t Buy Me Love

and so even with the

brooch; for surely even in

Death; you can’t erase face;

you remove the pearls some-time

after wear: and you:

save life

and-or : its equivalent for the

deserving dead. A thing

of magic, I suppose is

the pearl[s]. Where/ wear

would you place them next; in a museum.

The sport of slight movement shift. [end post here.]

tag[s]: mort. explainers.