reporting and housing

Recognizing people, continued.

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By Goura Fotadar

Date typed up: 32518


tag[s]: pornography investigations, continued …  semblance connections of identity, actual militia law and not some hallucination that martial law isn’t a person: being, art form


date, started or something, regularly dated: 32218 to today, and irregularly dated I think 2013 till now


Part One.  What to do

When  you see a rest-spot  stalker-in public; and more  common-sense  approach; you hear the stalker describing an assessed and highly skilled group can’t for example complete a basic [and on average outside of any other exempt or special conditions] task; and making such announcement repeatedly in public in front of a comprehending group.

Especially; when the local “police” and “militia” don’t work in exacting the comprehension of assessment.

Create a system of law: legality; that stays un-tainted in the verity of the announcer and or rest-spot stalker.

The idea of the stalker is that he/she stalks people who are deployed as homeless; and during especially their rest times, and so he/she has come into a power; like a non-useful hallucination; and can thus speak up; because there are people resting on the street.

So deployed as homeless is not the same thing as homeless for another reason; and in either case harassing others of such existence circumstance when actually in such circumstance;  is illegal;

But why is it illegal especially with a nonsensical local “authority” force that is unable and incapable to do a thing effective.

Well, in order for one to speak against such a combined population; you must be able to out-perform it in all such exact circumstances; that’s where the level of speaking against comes from; and-or the beginnings of elite criminal immunity.

In the same case by:  saying that another and or overlap group who has an executive skill ability over the differentiation of some basic societal need; is instead a defunct non-functional deformed unreliable group; you must be in your lie able to actually replicate their skill performance under their same conditions of performance. Otherwise, you are headed to the actual form of illegal stalker charge; whose voice will never have any valor like recognition in actualized non-hoax militia.


In addition; deployments such as those encumbered in asset in the fact of homelessness; though perhaps or hopefully,

[yes, that’s what this asset is called]

Only temporary; offer others the housing they have; it’s great in hoax to assume that all such stalkers and such types are actually earning their way of existence; and-or have; but it’s more worthwhile to consider the only reason there has ever been a housing, basic needs and or such type of problem in society, is because not all of those in such habitations are actually meeting the criteria for the completion of the earning of such entropy; as in even with inheriting trust funds; they haven’t done much.

The conception of a church’s day that lord is all bounty; is fanatical when dealing with compromises of modern day physics; and the pretense; that your parents are actually producing what they have spent. If that were the case, I wouldn’t be the wealthiest person in the world at 36 years and a half years old [never living off of the inheritance from my real family]; in the part of the economy now phasing out cash and deployed as a homeless person; while the very church that I own falsely accuses me of theft; and refuses to follow cited: c.i.a. mandates regarding feeding and all such conceptions of that term from the church donation bucket.

Raul or whatever name you are using today and bald-dude and old lady; as I already told you you are under international federal arrest for not complying with the mandated law and not some made up hoax law by some hallucinating wannabe “militia” force. Back then, there was no safety in the world. It’s not like you have the experience to prevent all unjust crime.

And incorrectly bold speaking stalker you are also under federal arrest.


Part Two.  I had to study the pornography mailer again; to do my job … uh, and assess who else in that firs- list I know, and it’s better put don’t know but was assigned to knowledge of as part of my job and this is then further assessment;


Two more identified: [delayed reports; not exactly I just received this mailer]

One is my ex-husband’s at least then main mechanic disguised I would presume as a woman, with an opening front top; as all four women feature in this mailer,

The other is the publicly announced wife of a man that was on staff at the  strict catholic supplementary graduate school I went to; and where several people including myself had to report him, I however did not have this information then ; I had to report him for threats of rape-like homicide and general yet divisive non-regulated unethical gossip which of course can lend itself to heightening and escalating unjust danger from an “authority” figure;  the woman posed such was reported to additionally attend another graduate program at this school; and also to work with children,

… [with the third identified yesterday, I have yet one more to identify]

Part Three. To recover in art form,

Meet my new friend “Natasha” who I couldn’t afford to buy a meal before; or not quite I could; well, who I couldn’t fit into my life before when following a budget for the same cost I could have afforded a much larger regularly utilizable bag; and so I would have thought of “Natasha” later, when my budge-t expanded upon a paid promotion;

In any case, she might make it to the clothing closet: where she will fit inside all of my homeless bags; holding exactly what I need in that size; in the homeless life; and others like “Natasha” do make it there; I guess she might meet more friends like herself or of her type of persona.


cited: TJ Maxx [accessed on 32518]

theme: martial law

theme music citations: st. lucia elevate / Eminem my name is




Similarities, Continued.

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by goura fotadar

date typed up [a-ha to finally?] 82917

dedicated to all undesired career and work interruptions being penalized penalization to the interrupter; at the highest consequence …  last part from of: to paraphrase one of the loitering signs in this city.


source text of course [Holding The Man]

aside: interruption from the librarian … the librarian informed me today [what date was it: 81917] about; my own policy regarding photographing people who weren’t threatening my life; and

[report to: where report librarians?] I confirmed If your life is being threatened and you are not lying [about this, who this, this who] you have a legal obligation to photograph the folks involved [anywhere] … when functionally perceivable and this does not include or is not restricted by other peoples preferences; and if there’s no time or accessible device to photograph with; that photograph of they who is-is threatening your [life, safety, etc.] can be turned in to at least yourself and of course perhaps others, of-worth, too. To turn in a report, then shall it not be that the other shall be of some: worth; and the worth shall be: ethical worth. And any case how: is ethical worth assessed. In either way; if the photograph of report and somehow a legal way to report to yourself is e. than well, if you can’t photograph for the reasons or something like the reasons provided, well then: a written or summation report will be less effective; but it is still a-workable; and this of course is not to put down writing.

On a side clause: in indirect perhaps the term is law: in indirect law: if a report finds it to yourself and there is a real measure not some hoax or referred hoax: measure of worth; such as ethical worth; well then if you have met that measure in some way; well, you have not been surprised or committed crime by how; receiving a that such report … and so correctly both expect and not be surprised by the performance of others of ethical: worth whatever may be deemed publicly or not their role. Here role means of course not necessarily being somebody’s mother but rather where that being mother role may also intersect with society or the functioning of society actualizing … also known as role actualized evaded to expansive or role reform. The cliché of spoiling your child only approved when it is actually a child cannot that be spoiled so as that your spoiled child and your role as this spoiled child’s [parent?] does not un-function society as it is or as it is actualizing.

My point is I want the local  … ?

Back to regulated measure …

Back to Source text: where of course it is a regulated measure in any case as it is previously in previous postings described the source text a knowledge stream et al

[Holding The Man Timothy Conigrave] [Foreword:} [David Marr]

cited p. 9 under “A … BOYS” “ ‘I wish you were a girl.’ I wasn’t sure what he meant but said I wished he was a girl too.”



sounds like transgenderism; but is this line though a spoken “wish” [“wish”] –es : actual?

or [an/a] unmeant dream.

for similarities between the two:

cited: 9 “carrot=red hair”

Source, text citation [2]:

Singing in the Shrouds.

Ngaio Marsh …

p. 9 (also)

“He would have liked to travel.”



a dream/wish;

a wishing


  • – – – – – —————————————————————————————


cited p. 9 [2nd text]

a coincidence of number

near start; or start:

“car with a smashing redhead at the …”


cited: p 10 [second source text]

all of a now; the explanation [theme: ex-pal? , nation]

of why this is a reported

and noticed incident

is provided; likely asexuality

has converted to a-one

symposium of also or rather

instead non-asexuality; where

of course as compared to the incident; it is in the opposite sexuality; is it qualified as opposite?

“The man in the kiosk was chatting up a girl while the rest of us stood -à

shivering in the wind at Brighton Beach …”


why weren’t the rest of them shivering; as

In here the compared rest is: now; “man” & “girl”.




see this posting as; handout: Source text of course


death id for the fvp; an art diagram

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death id for the fvp; an art diagram : The House, Undone
by Goura Fotadar
[edr.posted the part completed so far on 32317]
in memoriam of vicente
theme: will I get back to it. [an ideology of life; translated to living [of death] [or death of living]]
tags: the modern art frameworks of thanatology
secondary tags: the modern art frameworks of thanatology while homeless-outside version for spiritual-social cause
tertiary tags: the purpose of real investigation in justification …
binary tags: eugenics games of art idealism
tertiary tags’ theme: non-criminality
theme music citation: britney spears criminal
[front house hanger signa] warning: please be forewarned that this posting includes a familiarity and comfort with
the deceased; and-or death, that may  be unsettling for some consumers; be aware of this warning as you consume this posting.]
[more specific id design; non-updated at-this time: in our modern day: a virtual screen
upon the face, of the deceased including images; that flashes with this information; and recollects in flash as needed to the purveyor]
[id design, them-the deceased for: virtual flash museums of the deceased
faces, physical form; including voice-conversation replays, if possible: memory re-plays
and-or estimated accurate recollections,basic and essential and important identifying facts of the deceased ]
tags: art diagrams for the death project, the death project art
theme: death is so … []
theme music citation: britney spears lucky
theme art piece [further design]: a unisex choker so re-re [times, dates, years]
1. purpose: primarily to protect the identity of the deceased; to protect the identities of those
correlated with the deceased; whether alive or dead; secondarily; to commemorate the deceased, those that were living in a way of value to those serving the commemoration[s].
2. Recollections actual of basic-ish necessity of now deceased identities.

a)name in your most recent life in this world:

b) names of yours, you know for sure: in your past lives [lives preceding and not necessarily in date but in serve consequence since your last deceased life; i.e. most recent deceased in completion life.]
c) Circumstance of deaths, as recalled: beginning with most recent, to least recent [of this world] as can be as accurately recalled.
theme: example did you go missing?
theme music citation: Britney Spears If You Seek Amy
d) [The Eating Room] So puke: but hopes and dreams that were left un-completed at your, death[s]; i.e. from the memories of the deceased.
e) [The Dining Table, for tea only] Eugenics theories, if they exist; that might exist and in connection to the deceaseds’ memories and memory buildings.
art notes: what is memory building / building memories.
[In back  to forward order]
theme: identies of the deceased, and so …
theme music citation: eminem my name is

More Notes on cited: Prop 52 with missing art/images of last post(s) & of course novel theory with the addition of incompetent … in “uniform?”

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date typed up: 3217

aside : the security skew: theme: oh whose leg/foot is that. (next to my donated stuff!)


part perfume-ry



date, written 11.3.16

to post …



theme :

I should

be more

clear ;

I guess


  1. where are they treated ; in separate hospitals ? )
  2. & what are (those)  ” … health care benefits.”

cited: Easy Voter Guide as Source Text

let’s say or take

medi-cal is the grandson ; theme: “deserving?” 

federal government & private hospitals   things to

think more about :

program ( that “… provide health care benefits “) is the grand-son’s production

are part of the mono – ply of the grandmother on the

ownership to some extent portion – parts a la societe’ to create a more prosperous grand – son

and perhaps the grandmother is the federal government.



& Part Two. Novel Theory; dedicated to my br. ‘s death; and to the severity of talent at my undergraduate educational institution. theme: are you o.k. ? 

It’s so basic yet so         complex

  1. Writing Plans

My writing purpose; while in this Fellowship is to work more thoroughly on “Purplement,” a novel of mine-this time; adding to the parts of it; that were not along, with other of my works, confiscated; from my work-live space shelter; in that one [portion] of properties, my relatives owned.

The New Age Holistic

In-specifically, to work on this novel; its areas of art fiction; separated in two parts:

  1. The Analysis of Art Pieces in Fiction.
  2. The Depicting of Art-Like Code Structure in (Fictional) Text.

{italics} in it The Basic Publishing (or = / (in here)) in it The Basic Publishing

“Purplement’s” is set upon stage publication; in just writer body-works of through blogging basic enough publishings; and excerpts {italics} basic enough from it already published in such. It opposes independent publishing holistically as it is meant to be a mainstay; where mainstay can mean systemized completed piece, al. The work included in application; is demonstrative of how a piece of a larger work might become systemic once (the) larger work is completed; has become a holistic. Alone the excerpt can be used as independent written material. Hence, the term-aim completion: used; as might be referred to a new age health’s style approach; Holistic.

                                                                                                                                          The Obvious Artist

The novel and eventually all writing material can be more than present foreseen (-ably) classified into a facet; even category of art – form; the novel (-er); the writer even; an obvious artist.

Scenery as Fashioned[1] to Identity (further)

The purpose further; purpose of art fiction in a novel: is to further structure; the inside/ identity-novel; a fashion-identity[2]; similar to scenery[3], in-the-world; such as, trees (structure); developments (structure); and forth on.


  1. The Fellowship Contribution

In so albeit not straight; obvious; the acculturation of generating as displayed such category fiction; to build a stemming of it in the writer’s work body; and perhaps eventually in some percentage; could be small of the populous; at least; locally. The purpose of use of system in especially the veneer of “Purplement” to categorize the fiction into art study fiction and-or art fiction or more appropriating; art explanation fiction. But unlike other veneer physical art; albeit some of it at least; the novel is entirely different or can be. The novel-time; the inside of it, matching-at: socks and feet; at least, matching its veneer. Much like a school of prestige where the name of honor and-or elitism matches the internal learnings of the department from which a predominantly studied. Or departments. The Fellowship then is the local design of system which gives the writer more time to complete “Purplement” holistically; to meet its current goal of past years, finally identified to display the knowledge of art; purposed through fiction and if even that is controversy in meaning; what is fiction if it cannot be art. There are however no such issues of this novel’s (novel and esp. novel-time) identification. The existential goal of the novel, than past completion; is to certify that fiction, especially; (but certain as elsewhere’d here in “plan…”), all writing must always fall into a/under: category of art; where it currently-always, does not wear (-where). The Fellowship’s further then; will be to have at-hand, a system that can purpose further; the culture of novel, into the identity of sure-fire, art.



(C. Background of Present-Writing Related Sequences & Hindrances Over / come.

Says a Writer’s Life None-Worthy

(A few weeks ago 😉 while working, on the first version of this: “writing plans;” my relatives attempted, to have me, institutionalized; and perhaps apparent by my being able to freely complete this “writing plan;” they, lost at that; attempt. Their belief was / is; that my living, as a working writer; and in-other related, work-avenues; was / is definition of past-capacity functionality. In-more words; something; along-the-lines, they and-or akin; wanted the fulfillment of (the) power-of-authority, over me; my-work.

Last-in years and not year as might have been expected from the singular; I’ve worked to accumulate; a large, enough body-of-work; to apply to Stegner Fellowship[4]. Returning; to collect my-things; from the temporary, work-live space, small; my relatives had lent me, while accumulating Sum This: work; I found that most of my work-related and such possessions; had been grabbed and-or confiscated. Though there-are / I-have most (not all) digital records; of the production of my-work; in the past; two-years; of that live-work space, per my-access: it’s still an enormous loss. I no longer have the computer; even; from which I produced the works; mine, of that-period; albeit, it just under, two years. )



[1] side notes : {line to side notes (1), footnote 2}  (2) fashion as opposed to fashioned

[2] side notes: (1) fashion, identity as opposed to fashion-identity

[3] vehicles: {arrow to side notes (2), footnote 1} seen in-the-world may not be scenery in-the-world; in this world, anyway.

[4] {italics?} a footnote to the italics a basic comment on italics use noting that one cites a reference and-or note i.e. a citation and-or information to look further and the other use here is to add a marker of stress; i.e. something worth noting so that both do not belong to the same substance in so far here this writing existence or how about at least not yet



aside: hopefully no-more incompetent hence so false authorities will “bust my chops” in the center of the night’s morning for working really hard for nothing i.e. where nothing means only no money (for now). How I adore? having the violence of flashlights twitch-flashed in my face as I continue to work full of tired; and while not producing crime. God! But they swear my real name is Sarah Parker and I’m from Santa Monica; sounds lie-like a bad song. Like I didn’t work to create my identity own, real. {Being Homeless Outside of Rape and Violence-Driven Shelters is not a Crime! You are commiting civil rights infractions, without any consequence; and so, so many of them.}

aside: music cited: Miguel Simplethings

Incidence of Life-Threat:

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{copy of briefing, report}{As Submitted to the “Library Services Manager” Palo Alto and the: “police chief menlo park” }


I am a no living wage worker in the Bay Area. I currently sleep on the street due to repeated threats and near-enactments of gang rape at local and continental shelters, homeless. This morning I was threatened as in-my life, in something along the following quotes of:

“Why don’t you shut up, before I knock you out,” by a very tall African-American man and presumably his partner, female for being white (as they openly and publicly described and stated); and not responding to their sexual enticements. I was also told that the librarians could not defend me because I am white by the perpetrators. Quite, unfortunately with regard to the incorrectness of potential racial targeting, I am an ethnic minority: an Asian American female, and have been repeatedly threatened due to my public career, which generates no living wage compensation, and also my ethnic race.

My sleeping-connected materials have been stolen, I have been and still am stalked; and repeated am solicited for rape; when I have not consented my life has been threatened. I request that there be some type of consequence to this form of harm toward me; and others that might actually be experiencing the same endangerment; and not for those faking endangerment. I also hope no further harm will come to me from attempting to file a further report about the endangerment I face; while working for no living wage, and standing up for the social cause of homelessness-safe.

The location of where I received this most recent threat, is the Downtown Palo Alto Library:
270 Forest Avenue Palo Alto, CA near the time of its opening this morning, at around 10:00 AM. The date today is 2.22.17

The incident started with the man, soliciting me  with his partner(s) outside the library; and me responding be saying “nay.” I will also post this subscript to my (one, of) public blogs; where I post other incidences regarding criminology i.e. and other crime occurrences.
{Please excuse any typos, which should be obvious; this might be included for security detail.}

Thank You For Your Time & Kindly,

Goura Fotadar

the; reading notes from this text, on-forth

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(reading notes) by Goura Fotadar

source, text, citation: Happy Family (by) Tracy Barone

-no indoor allergies while in space/spot . . .

– no un-necessary materials for present moment : / at that moment

b) how do you further your survive-ability odds:

-practice reliable hygiene: wash and-or clean in some method enough of your used clothing often  enough, even if they are not easily often dry-able (and your-self, obvs.)

-take advantage of the outdoor environment and change your spirit/physical practices

– Ignore and-or boot out all un-helpful nay-sayers

-form a solidarity with safe groups that is un-break-able even with limited verbal contact: frequent enough solitary / dual* ly / etc. placement even in limited verbal contact is one highly functional definition of solidarity

-if possible connect yourself to an advantaged resource plaza one or as are accessible whenever is convenient and regular enough; so that no incompetence finds a stake-hold nearness to, in proximity of; these barely survivable conditions

-ensure that you still have the ability to do some work that you actually “like” if even un-paid for while living in such condition; to create an economic loss for those that allow such unjust ordinance past-times to pssh pass in sweltering shelter.












e –

we called parents versus competence / and-or parents, real

theme :2? : there are like  thee three sixteens or something …

theme: honestly, … is so far gone; I doubt … even r-embers who I am. theme, for: … in this {set}

Pontificating line. p. 301 “Oh, look: there are a few perfect ly good … in the ashtray. God Provides.”

Pontificating word: p. 301 “infinte si mally” {in analysis:} infinites: i’m ally! 

p. 305 & look at this relevant description of “tent people.” giving us a nice view or look at what could be perceived of people  resting/staying on-the Streets; if even they produce work (no money?) for a living. Are they really all on drugs ; maybe some in – the past, but all ? But very few in-the present ; who are actually rest-sleeping in-the Street could be on-drugs: how would you survive in the temperature on-the streets /and-or outside Earth conditions: while being on Drugs?  (… quote coming up)

theme’s cited: “I’d rather be with you” (shelter/tradi-housing?) Bootsy Collins

Art Diagram I, where I is the scale.

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Art Diagram I,
where I is the scale.

citing: rum’s theory 2, and f. scott fitzgerald’s this side of paradise,
as being consumed through the kindle

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citing: this side of paradise by f.s.f. thru kindle

reading notes for the fictional voluntier project
date: 83116, 9216
by goura fotadar

(other) tags: threats; and you think, I’m nuts; because I’m not happy being threatened:

art diagrams,
to draw, ? (maybe) but to diagram, yes!

(remembere: to look at these, to hear an interesting? conversation of mine with the cited: f.b.i.

slides 150 through 152 in this voicethread, or:


first: the brief art study of the images, how fortunate!
1. they can’t but they still are.
2. a beautiful image of possession un-perturbing enough to deform real view entirely.

3. from the introductory quotes: shall we cut down folks’ “experiences” ? And does then, experience mean something about “folks’ ” meaning. It certainly implies location; existential location.
4.  How could one-a be “ineffectual, inarticulate” when doing so much of that actual work-type, esp. Of course instead it might not be actual. then, perhahs.
5. at the beginning it is a man, we see described; and at the end, it is a woman, or at least a girl.
the change of gender by: through one page.
6. How outdated, now: & what of, if they don’t have wealth. What will become of them; without wealth, of good effort. & How would you recognize good effort. Or is the conscience that good effort could existe in others: ouside of you, a con,ning: hall-un-cination.
7. And somewhere, near the middle, I saw a flush in the text; but I mean a flush of expression; but whence is the difference between expression in text, and change in text form.
8. to match the f.lush on the left. This image of what might be considered to be almost old, but; modern art, is interesting, and I don’t mean to analyze the fashion. I se e of course the flush; the price, the woman, presumed herself;
9. once I heard the beginning part of this first reading page, stated by somebody as its own storie; and found it peculiar while it was being pointed out that this was not the watching of a dramatic play, enacting the storie, and also of course not so obvious, that it was not its own storie; rather it is, from this book the first reading page. In writing past this author, that would be called influence; otherwise, there would a citation.
10. Living this dream: Broken? (exercise theme: this could be fiction, but;)
citing: Bar Harbor, Maine and “The Four Interviews,” I had dreamt? about Bar Harbor, Maine, and done some research on-the, place: from California, where I lived when at least once when I was living this dream. But when I finally arrived in Maine, I was homeless for the first time as an adult; well, officially, unless you count college years as now turned-to, official homelessness; so when some-one offered me local bus tickets, and suggested Bar Harbor; I found out that busses of course were closed to Bar Harbor at least that near one, local bus-available day, for me, anyway; I went to another city, though. But Bar Harbor, was entirely missed. That dream translated to a new adventure from me for me; and a stealing from my dream; by at least this bus line informer; or is it called bus lines conductor.

11. Here double quotes mean text, and single quotes mean not; but instead are as implied.
Does “inexpressible” also mean in the state of expressing, because then the chiaroscuro reading, I think it is; it looks as though it is not stated ahead of this line on ’tis page; but (eye / ey’) could be wrong; and may need to do a more thorough examination; where “you” can almost see,
“amory blaine” squinching his height in posture is a form of both meanings above and ‘actual?’
and the line is; nearly halfway down, the first reading page in this text:
” … In consequence, Stephen Blaine handed down to posterity his height of just under six feet and his tendency to waver at crucial moments, these two abstractions appearing in his son Amory … ”

theme: uhm, these cookies go with the book.
cited:  cookie of Honolulu cookie company

com pany
com pany = group (says my memory but y is it this)
com ‘ pan-y
com’  you (pan) something to gather it in a group or mass as in a certainty quantity, and that’s close enough for this exercise
come:  group (you,) gather, try something else:
like the cited: comet (cleaner) which apparently com was shortened from
comet: group (you,) gather : (dirt, at least, and presumably)
then; perhaps you might extract the ‘virtue’ of using a “pan” to gather something connected to the cited: comet
and is it that it implies also that you if you wear a pan on your head, and you know a comet in the cosmos or something is ‘nearby’
then you can gather the experience of ‘nearby’ comet in the ‘cosmos’ or something, better through the pan now un-y’ed
memory exercise: find a picture or create one of a comet if even imagined, and a pan on the head, and all imagined interpretations that there is time for
12. From number 11, “the death of … (older(s)) …” +
” … (the) waver(ing) …”
implies the ” … hover(ing) … ” next
& what’s the difference between ” … waver(ing) …” and “hover(ing)”
perhaps: Life. or Living.
then to re-iterate, or to emphasize:
The difference between, (no subtraction);  … ” … waver(ing) … ” and “hover(ing)”
is Life, or some(beings) not yet, perhaps, dying.
theory of relevance (formed) from cited: text. (in its first few pages)

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citing: this side of paradise by f.s.f. thru kindle

13. Isn’t it interesting that the name “Beatrice” means such, but it is considered at the stand-off of the novel to be belonger of a being unworthy. But we have not yet found out as such by who. For the fact that her spouse cannot ” … understand her … ;” does not mean that he is the one that has decided her is a lack of worth.

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citing: thefreedictionarydotcom as accessed on this date

it sounds so muh like a cliche: self-esteem, poster; but who decide your lack of worth.