How do you know what feels wrong to you.

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How do you know what feels wrong to you.

Secondary Standard head: Is this fiction or not.

Rough notes on the quick

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

is it an? el; and other form translations or breakdowns … ? are [r]
by goura fotadar

date: 63017

public library theme, select: she’s dumb and she’s not deaf. I know her and I use her name to get out of prison; without her consent.

outdoors public theme: and they won’t stop attempting to steal. We don’t have the guns. But they do. Which is they.

tag[s]: grammatical ideology how; is this fiction or not

Part One. I don’t know figure out what “you” means quick enough and roughly is still good enough.

I like ice cream and coconut milk; because it’s rich and it heals me. [heels?]

I like chocolate because it puts me out of pain.

I haven’t told a lot of people that I’m completely ordinarily deaf; and most not “dumb” people can just tell anyway; I can still hear you if you focus here. Otherwise I can’t. And I was born that way; but raised with a majority: family that kidnapped me that I’m not actually related to in any form of that actualized definition; so I never told majority: them. And they really don’t know, unless you tell majority: them.

I know I’m an actualized being: beings; because I’ve helped a “ton” of actualized other beings; and not so much or at all non-actualized beings; or those that never hope to actualize [.]

I went to college; and then further a lot of school. I was mostly if not completely a straight A student in higher advanced education especially the prestigious ones-forms of it; So I know most words have more than one regular utilized meaning for example: dumb and dumb. I’m not dumb but I am dumb. You maybe dumb but not dumb. We’re not the same really. See. [really, sea] My kidnapped family told me I was dumb and then paid [sum:]people to change my grades [when]; so that the entire world? could pretend it was true. Then we had the existence of terrorism in our world [in time]. Uhm, I’m not that “full”. Please don’t blame all terrorism on me; sometimes it’s like your fault.

Part Two. Figure out what “feels” [is]

to me it is a central gut-like irk; and that’s enough. One gut-like irk that cannot be trans-placed but can be temporarily -only temporarily ignored.

Part Three. That’s enough. {Two levels} {It’s a pun.}

The Model is You semi-defined to You.

and central Irk that can’t be ignored forever.

{hint: most people don’t know that I’m also completely ordinarily mute; and yet they can sometimes? hear me? and also partially completely blind. Most people don’t know that I’m also severely afflicted with various deviant and movement disorders; yet I’ve never committed crime. It’s pretty impossibly possible to be afflicted with a, movement disorders and never for example: hit back. It’s kind of the experience of a lot of civilian non-criminals; and also reformed criminals; but not non-reformed criminals; who I also call un-actualized one group of a beings; and I’m not sure if they; the definition of beings … makes verity here, for the un-actualized [non-reformed criminals].}


Part Four. A Compiled Aside:

“You” “feels”

form y, in more than one y

if not fiction; then like fiction at least hear: really, Sea in time terrorism … when

form flower like a y is another form of y [hint]

civilians are not allowed to hit back no matter how unescapably criminologically competent they are; and at least not hit back regularly if even they brake; break? that rule. But veritas is it actual just law.

How come non-reformed criminals hit back, and hit uh; cons tant [and not ly] I hope you understand like uh, for example, the basic of like math constants.

theme basics: math constants is-r also the cliche of “don’t give up” so don’t stop working … is a constant, math constant, how.

theme music citation: foster the people don’t stop [again]

Part Five. Almost Un-Related Like a Win, doe

There’s too much actualized no actual? evidence to make one […] s

believe that lies about competence ever build to a “win” in finality,




Problems with present shelters: rest

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{as outlined here: in source, text: SMART WOMEN (by) JUDY BLUME}

p.4 “spy” ing

p.4 the absence of “reading … deck(s)” and-or paucity of such.

p.5 the realization that there are … (p-m)

p.7 the conceptual-comprehension: that, bath ‘scuse me, that

hot-tubs , jacuzzis  may actually be a part of a rigorous perhaps “exercise” type

p.7 for the shelter solucion: “It wasn’t easy getting him up the steep flight of outside stairs leading to the apartment over the garage.”

other aside notifications & fyi : this library runs a magazine charity

p.8 it almost sounds like you/he is noticing the beauty of birds ; observation to accompany fiction.

fiction line: (metaphors to solve the rape problem) (already posted elsewhere?) : he knarled his teeth. (imagine a line through)

{arrow to} a part of the solucion to sex scene in fiction

notes: of, or must it be of education?

p.11 other

bene’ fits? to shelter, yours {drinking legally}

1-pt. “James had consoled himself by

chug-a-lugging a six pack of Miller’s.”

2nd-pt. “Then he’d passed out on the floor.”

theme: “pass- out”

theme music citation: Island on the Sun, Weezer

p.10 attempting to translate or solve the “sticking out” sex-scene et al {punc?] and related problem:

how would   translate “”awkward””

so perhaps the most, or higher

(theme: hire)

applicable translation would be a

really “awkward” real-world situation and

how you dealt to   sufficient (sufficing).

theme: such a deep study of the

first few pages;

sounds like

a fist.

:::::::::             open circles l’art(e) {schematic?}

[          ]



{Policy on M.ill

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-apt arrow to aiming at functionality debt-off}


theme : a piping drawing 


arrow to this typed up brainstorming Notes 1.16.17

Three-Phase System (for now)

-app. (non-movement)

{arrow to} – (cited?) still-ness meditation is still movement (theme: of what … g-d?)but effectively it’s the closest thing to non-movement (10 hours / week)

-verbal communication issues (reading without worrying comprehension-ability)(18 hours / week)

-in-correct assignment of worth. (ex: my uncle molested me 70 times; and he says he never wants to stop; I talk to him, everyday (line to) even=though I don’t have to : because he’s my uncle.)

The Solution I used before:  w-s you can limit your contact with this person, other;

since you’re saying it causes you (ex.anxiety) and-or etc. But this is no longer a valid solution because it takes too much outside effort. (Though , observationally it’s /it has worked) .

A Better Suggestion Though More Materialistic Costly Would Be : To go through a virtual training model where you are exposed to the re-evalue-ment of I would call it : existentia(-l) worth.

For example: (so basic) : you say ‘x’ is

worthy; I don’t * ‘x’ (* = know?) but I know ‘y’ is worthy.

This is how I – Z define worth. This is what I know ^ to be true about -y’ connected to ‘y’ ‘s worth.

(consider also defining existentia/l here since it is used as a tier supplementary model in addition to virtual systems and of course : just a/ branch of gen. scratch psychology)

1.23.17(Look to next page for wishing well)

As a mode/l for m-illness why a wishing well in the outdoors; not constructed when it hasn’t stopped raining for a while: take two empty plastic bottles , lay them side down with lids, opened   by_their sides (empty) and place two stones or so by their side ( up) ; and if possible place this construction near the base of a tree ; when it rains each tap  of water you chime-like here/hear (when you remember I mean) another part of gesund -hait/heit [sp?] proof: themer  fiction artistic, theme (aside) (perf. art): I’m tired of the heres jutting of my chin as a woman the chin is the chain of thought? and so I’m: perfumed my chin with largely self-made perfume; and band-aided it over. cited: band-aid we’ll see if the juts of chin, remain in cease-ings of notification. current theme: we’ll sea.

because   the chime-like taps / dings will happen in at-least the rain  weather: you notice; to make the hole conception a transgression fixer as a model now of functional sanity & functional mental illness of each authentique’-worthy wish, and not-yet or not come through.

Public Safety More Notifications for Un-Fun? Safety

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{for the FVP}

by Goura Fotadar

yesterday and today around x-mas 2016

Comede(an accent on the last e) Q {advisory}: don’t ya think;

I mean in general; if present not already;

why bother testing out security guards when you can instead just have a surveillance camera on-duty with some- of responsibility assessing; examples: theft-protection and replacement falling under protection {an aside note: because not all security guards are “standardly” SAFE . }

More Thinking Notes, like Music(?) : In other places sum-of, sure; but don’t ya think; I mean in-General (cited theme product citation: (The) General car insurance; there might is could be the use,of : excess weather condici-ion material {arrow to}

(like) flip-flops,  {double-arrow connected theme, floater; (theme cited product: absolut vodka); emanates to absolu – card

gum-boots (inexpensive is absolutely acceptable), extra plastic bags, tea-tee shirts, gender stretch /pah-jam-ah pants, energy bars + drinks (where deficient energie is a whether condicion, whether), umbrellas, tents, jackets, beanies, scarves, mittens, and socks, et al …

and note. that some libraries already provide,

reading &

reading supplementary

material, lots of

chocolate (& reading material)



The Domestic Violence Definition Issue: Spontaneous Non-Stems

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The Domestic Violence Definition Issue: Spontaneous Non-Stems

for The FVP

tags: policies

on d.v. & assault ;

on qualifying definitions

by me: goura fotadar (obvious)

date: 10.24.16


(a) I’m not sure if I’m qualife to say this: often;

but the course of d.v. patterns are limited in prescription

to uhm; romantic and-or ex-romantique TYPE patterns.

(b) once; we look at d.v. we also look at a variete (with an accent)


unlike asphalt (as: fault) does assault have any

purpose once it’s (it has) been non-medicated upon you/or whom-ever which for some other’s/s’ purpose(s). When you imagine

the conception that haven (not a typo) taken place of any age Being-Person being “victimized”


 theme: there is a vere “scary” h-less woman / group

not … or bent or not letting me … and it’s vere early in the …


… Their clothes pulled off, hit and taunted with a

weapon like “object”  Philosphical * H : Oh pour! objects;

it couldn’t be them; perhaps they fell … “asleep” and wore-were : grabbed


and if the persons weaponizing you/or them is not a romantic or

ex-romantic partner of you/or them; to speak con-cept colloquially

does that mean; oh mean; it’s not domestic violence. And why

might it be bene (with an accent) for qualife under useful and yet generic d.v.


For the obvious you might begin to understand why you share

in common with actual d.v. victims/ survivors;


and so ‘learn’ about yourself; begin anew new.

cited: McD’s Pharrell Williams “happy”


3 Categories : The Organization’s Branch

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3 Categories : The Organization’s Branch

theme: perhaps a cliche imagination: imagine hanging clothing/related items on branches of a tree, if there are in fact, enough branches

Fashion notes for The Witch Goura 3
for The Fictional VolunTier Project
circa 81316

there shall be three groups of your clothing:
i. house clothes
ii. regular clothes
ii. iii, your other clothes

all clothing items, and related materials: fall / into under these 3 categories.

(and none shall be to beembarrassed of;
so if a “cop” shows up at your door, uninvited wear invite also means unearned; right,
whatever you’re wearing in these three categories is appropriate; now how do you solve the problem of creating, and organizing (further) into these 3 categories.)


Proofings’ Fashions : The Basic Elevation Seven
Imagine an elevate
cited: East Hartford Medical Advice for the Non-Mentally Ill by Clinicians/Staff for The Mentally Ill ; cited: further: “The Four Interviews”
date: 81516
(1) scan and push into the entices as the “thing” approaches clean completion
(2) differentiate as you push in
(3) double examine the differentiation; examine until it approaches stability
(4) est. a policy on the response to the differentiation if no such exists or you don’t know of no such or you cannot recall of such, no such
(5) repeat
(6) mind blink without the doc in front of your “sight” (a new sight) until it feels “right” to examine again, if not enough “time” send in at this stage should be “perfect” mistake with a max of 2 errors that were “newly” added miniscule in nature: these imply reality change
(7) hint hint: a doc is a reality, and you didn’t know?
(8) do a basic yet thorough imagine a handle you have to grab a pence times, knowledge check; unless you are a database of that knowledge which always helps; in that case, use both your mental database and an indentifiable check outside of your mental database


III. Lifestyle frequencies: L’art conception ; obvious
date: 82216
through lifestyle anthropological experience of practice, that actually work
& citation: brainstormers along (inn, spiratios)
(1) yoga/stretching
(2) the spirit work out
(3) closed eye meditation
(4) chanting
(5) art
(6) study
(7) focus
(8) reaching out / resources contacting
(9) thermodynamics
(10) fasting
(11) being frozen


Self-Depressed Board: (art concept) I hate intentional errors of lie, but I don’t consider typos intentional errors of lie; this is my modality one of of art: forme! the exercise as designed by me

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Rough Draft and “On The Fly”
notes (art-concept): but I’ve had a lot of experience, a prostitute’s perspective
by Goura Fotadar
for The FVP, and also to include in notes of taking / creating for more connected to the FVP work,
cited: voicethread (free) webinars, portals kaali a novel I hope somebody will publish, uc berkeley psych undergrad, psychopathology as taught by mr. … at smc in the graduate counseling program, cis department at deanza college in cupertino, gifted and talented education at warm springs elementary fourth through sixth grade

                                                        The Exercise,

technologically, likely use any “sufficient” text building form or form,
the form is supposed to be something like this.
insert (only two variables)
each variable has capacity (basic keyboard text, and screen demonstrating input of basic keyboard text)
time limit of text interchange is forever and can be returned to whenever with brakes to switch to other reality conversion contexts
only requirement: is reading ability and the ability to type at a very basic proficiency level, something likely much below the adept keyboard stroker

                                                                    Exercise Title
Self-Depressed Board:  (art concept) I hate intentional errors of lie, but I don’t consider typos intentional errors of lie; this is my modality one of of art: forme!
the exercise as designed by me
a form, of self-discussion (an art concept using technologie) to cure “loneliness, isolation …” based on cited: voicethread lecture: “humanizing your online course”
me 1:
me 2:
are the two me’s me and me who I communicate with since the instructor of this course “humanizing your online course” describes incidents in his past, of being “mis-communicat(ed)” to/v-v
(v-v stands for vice-versa) through discussion boards uh;m whic he in, gage in to further his colloquially used, in context: “engagement …” in “online courses”
premise: a way to exponentially also treat your depression but also a premise a way to cure yourself of incoherence toward yourself if even you do not and will not suffer from posit-ings such as depression and all related combatants.
(buildin on the fvp’s hi exercise, of self-love practice; you can look up the posting)
me 1: hi
me 2: hi how’s it going for you today
me 1: alright, I’ve got lots of work, and it’s very hot.
me 2: by hot do you mean the temperature
me 1: well, yes sort of,  …

pointers of assistance: (basic generic counseling techniques) start with what you’d want to talk about with another; such as a friend, that is relevant to you now;  if you’ve never had an “actual” friend start with what you’d want to talk about if you could have an “imagined” friend; you are you’re your “imagined” friend; you have changed reality from a fictional-philosophical character outside of you to a non-fictional philosophical character: you:
based on the cited: instructor’s lesson:
how do you communicate “emotions” felt by you to yourself your now friend
how do you feel more engaged by a discussion board, for yourself
(exercise continued)
me 1: … sorry I dashed out for a moment to take some notes on my communication; I could always use the improvement
me 2: … o.k. so you were talking about the temperature
me 1: yeah, but I think that I don’t want to talk about it anymore; right now, anyway, I think I want to take a break from all of my work to meditate.
pointer demonstrated: where the new me 1 demonstrates my desire to use the full stop in technological text communication to make the point of break away complete to further ethicality in ending a communication, and no matter how hurried; in other words I don’t enjoy taking advantage of others, but this starts first with myself; I don’t take advantage of myself. with the full stop and sent  of the text from me 1, above, I have now the decency to end the conversation, and return to presumably what else; but meditation as demonstrated here in case example of self-on-self discussion board.
me 1: o.k. enjoy, I’ll catch you later!
me 2: later and have a wonderful day.