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How do you know what feels wrong to you.

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How do you know what feels wrong to you.

Secondary Standard head: Is this fiction or not.

Rough notes on the quick

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

is it an? el; and other form translations or breakdowns … ? are [r]
by goura fotadar

date: 63017

public library theme, select: she’s dumb and she’s not deaf. I know her and I use her name to get out of prison; without her consent.

outdoors public theme: and they won’t stop attempting to steal. We don’t have the guns. But they do. Which is they.

tag[s]: grammatical ideology how; is this fiction or not

Part One. I don’t know figure out what “you” means quick enough and roughly is still good enough.

I like ice cream and coconut milk; because it’s rich and it heals me. [heels?]

I like chocolate because it puts me out of pain.

I haven’t told a lot of people that I’m completely ordinarily deaf; and most not “dumb” people can just tell anyway; I can still hear you if you focus here. Otherwise I can’t. And I was born that way; but raised with a majority: family that kidnapped me that I’m not actually related to in any form of that actualized definition; so I never told majority: them. And they really don’t know, unless you tell majority: them.

I know I’m an actualized being: beings; because I’ve helped a “ton” of actualized other beings; and not so much or at all non-actualized beings; or those that never hope to actualize [.]

I went to college; and then further a lot of school. I was mostly if not completely a straight A student in higher advanced education especially the prestigious ones-forms of it; So I know most words have more than one regular utilized meaning for example: dumb and dumb. I’m not dumb but I am dumb. You maybe dumb but not dumb. We’re not the same really. See. [really, sea] My kidnapped family told me I was dumb and then paid [sum:]people to change my grades [when]; so that the entire world? could pretend it was true. Then we had the existence of terrorism in our world [in time]. Uhm, I’m not that “full”. Please don’t blame all terrorism on me; sometimes it’s like your fault.

Part Two. Figure out what “feels” [is]

to me it is a central gut-like irk; and that’s enough. One gut-like irk that cannot be trans-placed but can be temporarily -only temporarily ignored.

Part Three. That’s enough. {Two levels} {It’s a pun.}

The Model is You semi-defined to You.

and central Irk that can’t be ignored forever.

{hint: most people don’t know that I’m also completely ordinarily mute; and yet they can sometimes? hear me? and also partially completely blind. Most people don’t know that I’m also severely afflicted with various deviant and movement disorders; yet I’ve never committed crime. It’s pretty impossibly possible to be afflicted with a, movement disorders and never for example: hit back. It’s kind of the experience of a lot of civilian non-criminals; and also reformed criminals; but not non-reformed criminals; who I also call un-actualized one group of a beings; and I’m not sure if they; the definition of beings … makes verity here, for the un-actualized [non-reformed criminals].}


Part Four. A Compiled Aside:

“You” “feels”

form y, in more than one y

if not fiction; then like fiction at least hear: really, Sea in time terrorism … when

form flower like a y is another form of y [hint]

civilians are not allowed to hit back no matter how unescapably criminologically competent they are; and at least not hit back regularly if even they brake; break? that rule. But veritas is it actual just law.

How come non-reformed criminals hit back, and hit uh; cons tant [and not ly] I hope you understand like uh, for example, the basic of like math constants.

theme basics: math constants is-r also the cliche of “don’t give up” so don’t stop working … is a constant, math constant, how.

theme music citation: foster the people don’t stop [again]

Part Five. Almost Un-Related Like a Win, doe

There’s too much actualized no actual? evidence to make one […] s

believe that lies about competence ever build to a “win” in finality,




The Salt Thing

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date, started: 5.15.17

Library & Literary Relevances

for The Fictional VolunTier Project

by goura fotadar [obvs.]

brief scan of cited source,

text: LOVE STORY by



cited. p. 19

cited. p.13

Salt as

an index,





as the

word alone?

instead of \\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\————–

noticing what could be salt.


if we were going to

notice what could also

be salt; and-or

salt-similar :


on a continued, rough; and

semi-quick scan:


cited p.19 —> again

name of doctor;

is salt-like


cited p.20 “Novocain” is salt-like? how

cited p.20 “steak” is salt-like?


cited p.21 “It was beginning to hurt like hell.”


cited p.21


with the earlier

backdrop of

“salt” “nutritional”

advice; and

the silence + attack?

after this last

cited line; in

this text “salt”

and-or salt-like


might have a magical almost

addictive quality.


In other words:

from the interaction brief

on the top of

cited p.21;

“salt” – like when un-responded

to : can or perhaps does

escalate matters.

In an almost shamanic, shaman

response; “salt”

and-or the mention of

something like salt;

if un-responded to,

salt …



[excuse the change of order in numbers; as the book has is being flipped through:]


at the top of

cited. p.3 ; or near

the middle.    tag[s]: research reading

[editing notifications & considerations: period or not after cited? in this specific posting. and when not. and how long will you remember when not and when to.]


Is “coffee” like salt.

and on earlier cited.

p.2 at the start of the book:


“the cheese”

though qualified in

a (non-cited italics)

different way. Is this

still a “salt.”


on cited p.13

almost as if qualifying

salt to this

not surprisingly

shamanic – level

the main character /


almost such declares

indirectly the use

of “salt” …



Parodies can still prove

Satires    importante

indexing uses;

i.e. point ’em

out, too.


aside exercise:

How do you recognize yourself;

how would you map yourself


I really hate bad smell[s].

Define what “bad smell[s]” mean to me. [means to me.]

[i.e. & to you?]


cited p.13, continued …

” “Yer not eatin’ enough salt.”

Maybe if I humor him

he’ll go away.

“Okay, Jack, I’ll start

eating more salt.”

Jesus, was he pleased!

… ”


about the trash receptacle: re, mind [manners] = potpourri temporary

0theme0 trash collection as art

it reminds me to spit in a bottle upon others’ : cited brainstormers et al

suggestion ; and not [just] upon others

it includes the pieces of outsides [leaves in varying stages and twigs like my poetry]

to remind me how to compost;

and it of course is an additional trash collector in stage; as in stage phase

reminding me to grab and trash the notes I no longer use or need;

it also has decent scent since inside it’s filled with not just spit but leaves, and twigs; yeah; and the container of course reminds me to drink enough hydrating liquid and-or prepare still in the homeless life. cited: rum’s theory series on amazon









Lip Art for V. Work!

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Volunteer art


// based on-one of yesterday’s exercises

for The FVP

by goura fotadar

tags: volunteer art copy



Philandering finesse cited: finesse shampoo {product citation}


I smell waxed unclapping lips.

I speaker hello? from my computer {c?/see om pew tour} terminal;

The terminal illness of no-poked work?

Sign me: “Do not Disturb” {the write pay-way}

Theme 0: enlightened work with good scent in preparation for cited: the witch goura upcoming

Theme 1: to correct meanings


Art Notes, this death box continued

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Art Notes, this death box continued

for The Fictional VolunTier Project
by Goura Fotadar
tags: The Death Project, The Death Project Art, Spiritual Art, Mental Stability Notes as an Infusion Metaphor, Abuse Staved Off to Function
theme: unwarranted wedding, notes
theme music (citation) : the butterfly lovers on as listened to classical kdfc on 82416
theme: the dressings
theme music (citation): youtube dot com as accessed again on 82416
” *NSYNC – Pop “
see, newer photos of this art project: slides 119 thru 128:

(Part o.) Background forced into “energy” conversion theme’s notes:
Yes! ?
wst terday
there was a near catas trophe,
two minutes on the toilette
and “person” was “persons”
were confirmed that there was a leak in this toilette.
(where are we, reality checks, are always identifiable.)

(Part b.) Given two minutes, the art constructs, couldn’t be maneuvered, and I was still on the toilet but when the abuser calls; you must not ring?

(Part c.) With a non-abuser’s given protocol, I was informed that my workday must start earlier today, since the hallucinations , a theme? are getting a “person’s” controlled, not.  Note: there are two other bathrooms in this house, and only three people regularly residing, here. I was able to squeeze past the bucket flushing, now that the tank must not! (?) work. For how long, I’m sure is the quandary among the rocks of the sill’s art in the bah-room, which of course have been moved into a drawer; but you never know when the local “thieves” may even find a backyard’s rocks rocks’ enticings to steal, and that’s with a surplus of them in background I meant, backyard Back: yard!. Theme: what you touch; work with no matter in how small a quantity, “person(s)” must steal.

(Part d.) I hadn’t gotten to the second stage of cleaning off the tiles dried on art material for the non-abuser use of the “fixing” of the prior-to “person(s)” breaking non-broken bah-room.

(Part e.) After scrubbing the: Flour flower’s material dried, caked onto the tiles planned to scrub onto a cloth/papeur for addition to at least this art piece, cited: clorox sheet, I also scrubbed the dried tea oft the bathtub, but all of this in a rapid minutes, as I knew forewarned by non-abuse could arrive at any time. I then soaked the cited: sheet into a cited: amway zoom and soap solution with more flour and of course water; hence solution further implied for there is already liquid.
please described as founded cleaning solucion: I took the sink solution after the drip-ping of the cited: cleaned with, cited: clorox sheet with and filled an empty cleaned out recycled bottle with it, and dripped it into the newly “fixed” toilette. It made everything more smelled, too; sanitized. so flour, likely any, cited: amway zoom, the remnants of used but now cleaned cited: clorox sheet and soap flower solution cited: johnsons baby shampoo; esp. as a left-over toilet bowl cleaner.

and then I let it sit as I washed my hands.
I next, or prior-to grabbed some hair balls of mine, collected after last few bath’s to add to the “magic” of this box, and in quick sentiment photograf but it didn’t catch that part, there are also pictures, other connected to the toilet experience. The second part, note; in case I haven’t already said it would be, is to scrub with the old brush, the rest of the flour off, and if possible save that caking for the box more, conservation is the key.
then I dropped the cloth on top of the hair balls onto the seat, front now of this death box, and sat it on the sill (quick)
theme: the end of hair?
theme math a for: hair as a metaphor for death, of course? but life, I’m not so sure. Surely you can be without hair, and be newly or just alive; a new-born “human’ baby says.  But others must also be born wihout “hair”.         ?
theme music (citation): as accessed on youtube dot com on 82416
“Nelly Furtado – All Good Things (Come To An End) (US Version)”
but of course there was an intrusion? in the garage opening this morning, a return from? and so I faked a serious fear, and followed “instruction” and placed the thing on a another new location, with the few seconds on the sill, the one piece of additional cloth had long enough to dry out so as no to drip, too heinously away from.
(here it is photograf ed again at the end of the present set of slides)

Cherry Pull Art Notes

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Cherry Pull Art Notes
Other art notes for voicethread
Left-Over Art Notes
cited: The Fictional VolunTier Project


of this Death Box, D.B. 4

dates: 81516, 81916, 82016

theme: the arte  / art  is caught like a fish; but I peel bad for the phish (the net)

check out: slides 116 to 118 for more recent images , notes connected to this art object: or

I forgot to add, that I added washed out cherry pullers and dried (out) for weeks in an open medicine cabinet

the “thing” propped itself down on the glass elements of tool use
when I used leftover from another project solution to conserve time and effort and add wads of toilet paper with the solution to the back as photographed; adding support to the back

now it’s dappled forward onto the glass pieces as I face homelessness again; well in the more official sense and again; as opposed to just now has been the technical sense; it’s always an interesting sense experience in the abnormal definition of senses; this is eh uh the theme.
theme music (citation): katy perry general radio on 81916 hot young or something oh wait, I think it’s called california girls

I then made soap solution of what I’d made before: shampoo and aging flowers solution with water and then that into more water inthe sink and then added flour and wrung out in it it until soaped clean a used by one’s self napking ; but eh uh relatively hygienic
and then another wrung out paper product in cleaned.
on top
all of it on the back; and that’s wear we’re at now.
theme: it reminds you of a dress.

and then leaven the solucion in de la sinque to washe hande widh

in the waiting solution of flour and water  and soap for days now while the object/art dries at this stage
add more flour waiting cited: bounce sheets, toilet paper, flour and whatever paper is tool-able for this type of project that you think could work and also add a cleaner to the solution at this point: I used blue color cited: amway zoom
on one cited: bounce sheet have drying a flower; in this case; yellow daffodil oops I think daisy, leafy … tea bags, perhaps coffee beans and perhaps ginger
load these on the back that’s at present facing up after a brief dip for some of them in the solution,
and add on dipped cited: bounce sheets, paper materials then start a dry drip onto of the flour material alone and then coax the whole thing with water solution again, and perhaps a careful fragmenting but soaking rub with an old brush,
then add more paper material; not too heavy isn’t a problem; in case you’re short on supplies,
and drip the whole thing from the back down, reasonably heavy from the back, until the tiles are nearly soaked with your fingers to essentially drench the facing up portion. (photograph at some stage of this process, near the end is complete) wait for it dry thorough enough to re-start the project

The Soap’s Packaging: The use of “slip-up” in intonation dialect to create “real” depth meaning

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The Soap’s Packaging: The use of “slip-up” in intonation dialect to create “real” depth meaning
Art notes: for the FVP
The Death Project Art for The Death Project
tags: trauma recovery, ” real” wealth building
date: 81516



(to see recent images of this described art, see:

or slides 109 through 113)

theme: “mary poppins” / smog
theme citation: mary poppins the movie as used to be available on television or through cited: vhs
(part one.)
In a sink,
in soap water, clean out paper remnants from meal packaging
my example as cited: is taco bell meal packaging
leave soaking in soap water solution for at least a couple of days, particularly if some of the packaging is harder cardboard, as in of thicker texture.
(take photograph.)

(part two.)
have hot bathwater waiting nearby if possibly to humidize the whole thing.

(part three.)
add corn flour or whatever (flour) is available to the solution in the sink.

(part four.)
start structuring further to add strength to the art object (with your hands and flour solution).
added napkins soaked in the solution over the the several layers of food packaging soaked paper remnants
and also added cited: clorox sheets

(part five.)
at some point propped the piece/art object at this stage upon three glass tools:
two glasses and an empty jar.

theme: flowers, water
theme music (citation): simple song, the shins as cited/heard on: kscu on 81416 or was it 81316 &
cry me a river / justin timberlake (both, again?)

voice, notes: